My chaotic brain was more or less awake now.

Although I can't fully sort out my own emotions with Lei Yinyin and Huashan in the dream, I can't confirm who the hatred and killing intent that sometimes pop up belong to and who it is aimed at, but I have a little understanding.

This realization is not new.

Gu Mo had already told me, and even warned me, that I would become some kind of evil ghost when I died.

This experience only made my originally dazed mind recognize this reality and admit this reality.

I will not become another Ruan Yuxia, perhaps, I will not become another Lei Yinyin, and I will become another Huashan after death, but I will definitely become a ghost after death, and I will kill the object of my anger and resentment.

I will probably become one of those female ghosts who have been skinned, and will continue to look for the enemy for a long time, and even look for the reincarnation of the enemy without giving up.

But I don't know how long I'll be able to do that.

In the middle of the road, I may become a "flower mountain", without scruples, and without the bottom line when I am a person, I will kill whoever is unhappy; Temporary rise, and will not hesitate to kill.

I don't want to be like that, but the possibility of this and that is real.

I fixed my gaze at the empty couch across from me.

I think Ye Qing should be a ghost like a female ghost. He was still insisting, but he was a little shaken. These vacillations will be quickly suppressed by himself. He didn't get out of control. Probably, it will never be completely out of control.

He will not become a "flower mountain", and he will not change from "Ye Qing" to "Qing Ye".

He may become cruel and brutal, but he will not forget his obsession and will not give up that obsession.

It's just that I still want to hear Ye Qing's answer.

I heard Ye Qing say something in person.

I don't know the reason for my thoughts.

I may have been shaken by my ego, and after seeing my fragile heart, I was hit by something and wanted to see what kind of decision people with strong hearts made. I wanted to find a pillar for myself.

This is not some kind of goal, nor is it an existence that I admire, aspire to, and want to pursue. I knew that I couldn't become a person like Ye Qing, and I didn't have this intention.

I'm thinking the same thing at this moment as everyone else in Aoba.

I hope someone tells me that there is hope for the future.

I hope that someone will reassure me that even if I am in a bad situation, there is someone who will continue to persevere, and will make sure that something terrible will not happen.

For a moment, I wanted to ask Ye Qing to promise me that if one day I died, became a demon, and got out of control, Ye Qing could kill me directly. Even if it is to completely destroy my soul and eat me, I am willing.

After all, I'm still afraid that I'll become a ghost like "Huashan".

The terrible thing about "Huashan" is not the wanton killing, but during that time, Huashan forgot about Lei Yinyin and forgot the parents she originally loved.

What's even more terrifying is that when my soul was affected, I was only touched a little when I saw Ximen Wenhao's children.

I forgot about my sister...... Forgot about my parents......

I shudder at that.

I don't want to see my sister and parents cry for me, and I'm even more afraid that they will die for me.

When that happens, I hope someone can stop me and kill that "me".

It's irresponsible and cruel.

I didn't say anything to Ye Qing, only asked the first question.

The sofa opposite was silent.

I waited patiently. Before I came, I was prepared that I would spend a long time here.

Time passed minute by minute, but it was difficult to feel the passage of time in the silence of the office.

I don't know exactly how long it had been before I heard a footfoot.

Footsteps did not sound in front of me, but from behind me.

The footsteps seemed to be beating my heart and breathing, and they approached from the end of the deep corridor.

I felt a cool breeze passing me.

It wasn't really the wind, but a figure walking by, bringing the flow of air.

I felt the familiar yin qi flowing.

Squeak –

The old and broken couch groaned, showing signs of a dent.

I sat up straight and never moved, and my gaze never moved.

Boom!

Something flashed before my eyes, followed by a pain in my forehead.

I couldn't sit upright anymore, so I covered my forehead and looked down at what had fallen on me.

A burning pain in his forehead. The place where I was hit by a hard metal object seems to be the same place where I collided with my sister in the morning. The head collision in the morning was not serious, but when I touched my forehead, I realized that it was really swollen.

It wasn't light at all.

I blinked at what was lying on my lap, dropped my hand covering my forehead, and pinched it up.

Lighter......

My mind was drawn back to the night I burned the kimono.

What happened that night was so incredible to me that I was in a trance. The kimono burned down, and the old witch died, I remember...... The lighter was missing along with the kimono.

I didn't think much of it. I didn't dare to stay in the office for long.

I grabbed the lighter.

Ye Qing said, don't take anything from the ghost.

He himself warned me so. He also showed a runaway state.

I looked up at the couch opposite.

This is the answer Ye Qing gave me.

I clenched the lighter in my hand a few more times.

"I see." I sat up straight, stopped mentioning this matter, and said, "A lot of things have happened recently, and Wu Ling has told me a lot of things......

I say whatever comes to mind.

Because I haven't talked to Ye Qing about these supernatural events for a long time, and I haven't asked Ye Qing for help, I have forgotten what I talked to Ye Qing about last time.

Chen Xiaoqiu's matter? The bear thing?

It seems to be that.

I'm not so sure.

I was here on a rainy night, and I also saved Wu Ling, but I didn't have much communication with Ye Qing at that time.

So, whatever comes to mind, I say it.

I don't know why this is happening. It seemed to be in response to Ye Qing's answer to me.

It was as if I had let go of a layer of mustard in my heart, and the things I had been thinking about in the past about use and cooperation were suddenly gone.

I just wanted to find someone to review these things.

Ye Qing is a very suitable candidate, and I also want to know Ye Qing's opinion of God.

Wu Ling actually didn't have much opinion on this. She has no solution and no intention to delve into it.

The sky has changed, and as a human being, we can only adapt.

I subconsciously felt that Ye Qing was not like that. He was never prepared to adapt to the willfulness of this mad god. He follows certain rules, but he follows the rules in order to break them better.

I talked about it for a long time, mixed with some of my own shallow opinions. But in fact, my opinion is doubt.

I don't know what touched God's fragile nerves and drove him crazy again and again.

Something new?

Still is...... Changes in humanity itself?

I slowly fell into thought, and stopped talking.

"Heh......"

I looked at the couch opposite.

This one didn't seem to be a complete sarcasm and ridicule.

I'm not sure.

"You're not too idiot. It's rare to hit it by mistake. ”

Since I entered the office, Ye Qing spoke for the first time.

His voice didn't change much, but there was obviously a little more relaxation in his tone.

(End of chapter)