I remember the first day I walked into elementary school, and my teacher told me, "Children, you are so happy to grow up in such a peaceful era......

I don't understand. I don't understand what peace is, and I don't understand what happiness is.

But today I understand this meaning, and in a sad way, I understand the happiness of this world, and of course, the darkness of this world.

Not everyone will become the unbeatable male protagonist in the cartoon, and not everyone can burst out with amazing power at the last moment like the hero in the movie.

On that day in 95, Li Xu'er pulled the second uncle's body that was gradually cold, and pulled me who didn't know how to cry or even came to my senses and walked out of the gate of Li Shunde slowly.

There is no household police, because there is no way to prove that the snake master killed the second uncle, because in the eyes of ordinary people, the second uncle and the snake master have no contact at all.

On the day of my second uncle's funeral, I was wearing a black jacket. With a white cloth tied around my waist and a strip of black cloth hanging on my left shoulder, I saw my mother and two brothers coming from a distance, they were walking in the sun, and I was standing in the dark, I looked at my mother, thinking that she would give me a big hug, thinking that she would hold me and stroke my head and tell me: "Good son is fine......"

But. I just thought that she passed by me silently, not even for a moment, not even a word, not even a moment in her eyes.

In fact, she has always been like this to me for as long as I can remember, I should have been used to it, and even in my little heart I already knew that she would do this to me, but today I still couldn't help but turn around and shout to her: "Mother! ”

She finally stopped. In the daylight, she slowly turned her head but looked at me with extremely cold eyes, and at this moment I felt as if there was ice and snow covering my body, and I heard her whisper: "What do you have to say to your father, I don't want to warn you." ”

Then she raised her hand and pointed behind me, and I turned my head to look behind me, never forgetting the scene behind me, the man who had never hugged me since I was born, and who had never even called my name, was wearing a big black trench coat, combing his usual big back, carrying a BB machine around his waist, and walking in those shiny leather shoes.

Jing Nian's cold face does not change, as if he will never change his cold look, he is my father, the elder brother of my second uncle, his name is Jing Jianjun. I was seventeen years old this year, and I was born when I was ten years old, and in my memory he was the busy man of Tianzi No. 1, and he was also the coldness of Tianzi No. 1, as if nothing could move him, as if he would never smile.

"Daddy."

I shouted.

He walked in front of me, his eyes fell on me, and then he warned unusually calmly: "Your second uncle gave me a call before he left the immortal, he warned you to go to Tingjing to learn art, you decide your own way, send your second uncle a trip to the fairy queen on the road." ”

After the police, he took out an envelope from his bosom and stuffed it into my hand. I touched it, and it was supposed to contain money.

"It's five hundred yuan, and you have nothing to do with me from now on, so go your own way."

Five hundred yuan, in the nineties is indeed not a small amount, but it is far from enough to buy out our immortal family affection, I pinched the envelope in my hand silently lowered my head, has not been a warning, stretched out my hand to hold the arm of my father who was leaving, and shouted in a low voice: "Dad, don't leave me, I want to go home with you." ”

I don't want to drift, I don't want to go to Tingjing, I'm scared, when I see such a weird thing, when I see my second uncle fall down and never get up again, I'm scared!

I grabbed my father's hand, but he frowned and pulled his hand back sharply, then looked at me with an unusually disgusted look and shouted, "Don't touch me! Fuck off! ”

I stood on the spot, feeling overwhelmed, until my father dusted off the sleeves of his coat as if I had really soiled his clothes, and then strode into the mourning hall, at that moment, standing alone outside the mourning hall, I could no longer hold back my tears, my eyes were sore, my eyes were red, and tears rolled down from my eyes in an instant.

"What's wrong? Lin'er, what's going on? ”

Li Er'er heard my crying and ran from far away, hugged me, and gently stroked my head.

"My dad and my mom don't want me anymore, some uncles, my parents don't want me anymore, my dad gave me 500 yuan and don't want me, some uncles, I don't have a father and no mother......"

Very mothers and parents like to use such words to tease themselves with their children, such as "I don't want you anymore if you are naughty." "I'll tear you out if you don't eat."

It's just that when this qiē is really fulfilled in my body, tears can't save the second uncle's life, and they can't get my parents back.

In ninety-five years, I was in Tianjin, when I was seven years old, my second uncle was killed because of my childishness, and my father gave me 500 yuan to break off the father-son relationship, but I thought it was the most tragic time in my life, but later I learned that this was only the beginning of my miserable life.

After the end of the second uncle's funeral, after five or seven, I followed Li Feng to Beijing accompanied by Li Er, when I arrived in Beijing, just in time for a light rain in Beijing, the sky was drifting with a trace of cold rain, we took Li Feng's friend's car all the way to the hall Jingjing Shouxi Palace nearby, the traffic in Beijing at that time was naturally not as crowded as in modern times, but the bicycles on the road were more mother, the buildings on both sides were not so high, and the old alley was not demolished, we stopped at the door of an alley called: West Archway.

"Jinglin, there is only one family in this west archway, and the one sitting in this family is my master, and it is also the great master of our network, named Yan Kai, the word Fengru, the older generation likes to call him Yan Fengru, and our younger generation calls him Master Yan. You have to understand the etiquette when you go in, if he doesn't have a warning, you don't have to be a warning, if he doesn't let you sit, you will stand, remember? ”

I nodded, to be honest, since the death of my second uncle, my impression of Li Feng has plummeted, I used to feel that he was a big hero, but now I feel that he is just an accomplice of a bad guy.

After getting out of the car, I walked inside with my schoolbag, the alley of Tingjing is not narrow, which is very different from the alley in the south, and the narrowest place in the alley in the south can not even be side-by-side.

Just in time for the rain, the old bluestone slab on the ground was wet by the rain, the color is particularly dark, I carefully walked on the bluestone slab, and I could see a black gate from a distance, the gate was pasted with a piece of golden round stickers, and when I walked in, I could see that the doorknob was also carved quite exquisitely, it was a pair of golden tiger heads.

There is no stone lion in front of the door, but there is a couplet on both sides of the gate, the left book: Millennium Emperor Jing Nian Xian. Right book: Destiny is determined by heaven and not by heart.

Li Feng motioned for us not to go forward, tidied up his coat and head Qianhou walked to the black gate very respectfully, and lightly buckled the golden door knocker, "Knock, knock, knock." After some sounds, the door slowly opened, but there was no one inside, and it was a large black area where nothing could be seen clearly.

"Why is there no one?"

I asked curiously.

As soon as the words fell, a candle suddenly lit up in the darkness, and the faint light of the fire illuminated the darkness around me, and I could vaguely see an old man standing behind the fire fairy, but he couldn't see his face clearly, but my psychic eyes saw some strange pictures.

I saw a trace of white air currents, spreading out in the darkness like mist, as if it were surrounding the old man sitting in the middle, and it seemed to spread aimlessly in the sky.

I looked at this piece of mist, they slowly swirled in the sky, and finally in this darkness, a huge humanoid object was formed behind this faint candle fairy, I rubbed my eyes, and couldn't help but look up, in the depths of this West Pai Lou Hutong, in the middle of a huge patio-like house, all this white mist that only I could see turned into a huge and difficult to execute picture, an immortal wearing a white robe, whose body was uncertain and composed of mist! R832