Am I awake? I didn't want to wake up, but the warm temperature in my palms reminded me that in reality, like in my dreams, there was a pair of hands holding me in reality, not that she woke me up, but the temperature of her palms reminded me that there were still people who were so worried about me in reality.

Her voice was so familiar, if she woke me up like this, then the gap between dream and reality would not make me so uncomfortable.

But how could she, Ruxue, come here?

I slowly opened my eyes, felt a soft handkerchief roaming on my face, gently wiped the tears from my cheeks, and then woke up to see the world as if my eyes were not focused, everything was blurry and shaky, but even if it was blurry and shaky, I could still 'see' the person holding my hand beside me and wiping my tears was like snow.

After a while, my eyes cleared up, and I saw everything in the ward clearly, where it stopped like snow, this single ward was almost crowded with people I was familiar with, my brothers and sisters, such as the moon, crispy meat, Qinhuai In addition to my relatives, almost the most important people in my life are there.

"Eh" I wanted to say something, but I found myself groggy and weak that I didn't even have the strength to speak, but it was such a simple voice that surprised everyone in the ward.

"Chengyi, awake?"

"Chengyi, do you know how long your kid has been asleep?"

"Chengyi"

Everyone gathered around, and the chaotic voices made me not know who to answer, and at this moment, Ruxue quietly let go of my hand, and I couldn't help but feel a sense of loss in my heart, but when I thought of reality, I could only look at Ruxue, and then there was silence.

The chaotic scene lasted for a minute before it quieted down at my request, Qin Huai took the place of Ruxue, sat next to me and fed me water, until I came into contact with the first sip of water, I knew that I was so thirsty, almost 'greedy' to drink water, after a while, I remembered that I had a stomach of questions to ask, and Qin Huai was the one responsible for answering me.

"Where am I?"

"Where else could it be? Hospital, a hospital in Beijing. Qin Huai shook up the hospital bed and put a pillow behind my back to make me feel more comfortable.

I'm in a trance, how did I get to Beijing? Here, almost everyone I know is there, but Huigen'er is gone, and when I am asleep, what happened?

"How many days have I been asleep? What about Hui Gen'er? Am I not on a mission? How did I get here? "After saying a series of words, I actually felt deeply tired, as if my brain could not be loaded with so much information, what was wrong with me? But I didn't dare ask.

Qin Huai was silent for a while before he said, "Chengyi, why don't you rest for a while?" You have just woken up, it's not suitable to ask so much, you" Qin Huai's face was a little ugly when he said this, this kid has always been a person who will not panic when the sky falls, showing this expression, there must be something.

I didn't ask Qin Huai anything, but turned my head to look at the other people in the ward, Brother Chengqing, who had always been serious, suddenly looked out the window when he met me, and Brother Chengxin pretended to be flipping through a book, Crispy Meat took out the phone, pressed it on the phone, and didn't know who to call, Chengzhen couldn't avoid it, so he simply walked in front of Ruyue, pretending to say something to Ruyue, and Ruyue just took the opportunity to make a look of wanting to listen to Chengzhen, as for Chengyuan, he simply asked Chengzhen, what are you talking about? Then he walked over

Only Ruxue still looked at me calmly as always, only she was so quiet, and her face did not have all the sadness of others.

Qin Huai coughed dryly, and simply walked away from me, he walked to the window, pretending to look at the scenery outside, and suddenly looked at it, his breathing became heavy, and he suddenly lay in front of the window, and I heard him choke

As if this was an infectious disease, Crispy Meat stopped playing on the phone, looked at the ceiling and began to blink his eyes, as if he was desperately holding back tears, Brother Chengqing began to sigh, Brother Chengxin, who had a habit of cleanliness, took out a handkerchief and covered his eyes, Chengzhen and Chengyuan simply hugged Ruyue and began to cry, Ruyue looked at me with sad eyes, looked at me, and called out to the third brother, before he could speak, the tears fell.

Third brother? Is it about me? What's wrong with me? It seems that this injury has slowed down my reaction, I was stunned for a while, before I remembered this possibility, I subconsciously looked at my hands, and then lifted the quilt to look at my feet, I am not crippled? That was my first thought.

After this thought came to my mind, I suddenly remembered what happened before, old back, in the basement, I was unconscious, but what happened?

"You don't want to be like this, no matter what he loses, he's still him." The calm voice echoed throughout the ward, it was the voice of Ruxue, I looked up at Ruxue, I didn't understand what this meant?

Ruxue stood up, still as calm and calm as ever, walked in front of me, she sat next to me, and held my hand again.

Maybe it was her words that worked, and everyone's mood was a little better, but Qin Huai muttered: "I'm afraid that he will be sad, afraid of him" but was stopped by Brother Chengqing, and said: "Let Ruxue tell him." ”

"Chengyi." Ruxue called my name, I turned my head, my eyes were a little confused and innocent looking at Ruxue, I really can't think of what makes everyone so sad, only Ruxue alone can be so calm, but at this time she is the comfort of my soul, I feel as if I can only rely on her, relying on her calm makes my heart less nervous.

"This is the secret hospital of the department, and the doctors here are not ordinary doctors, so it can be said that the field of treatment is even more special. After you fell unconscious, the department transferred you to this hospital urgently, and I heard that it was ordered by a very high-level person. Speaking of this, Ruxue paused and looked at me, a faint smile appeared on her face, as if to encourage me to face the next thing.

Ruxue's smile has always fascinated me, I used to feel that as long as Ruxue smiled, the withered flowers could bloom again, but she has always been calm and used to it, rarely smiling or anything, so this time I, as always, saw her smile, and my mood became cheerful.

It's just that I don't know why, this time, it took me a long time to react, Ruxue seemed to smile reluctantly, yes, she could be calm, if it wasn't for me, she might not be able to laugh.

But after I reacted, Ruxue was already saying the next words: "Chengyi, I don't know what the mission you are going to perform this time is, in short, after you transferred to this hospital, all of us received a notice to come to this hospital to accompany you, I am afraid that after you wake up, you will not be able to think about it." ”

"What can't I think of?" I laughed as I spoke, but I vaguely felt that something was wrong, and I laughed so unconfidently, and inexplicable boredom welled up in my heart, and I began to habitually look for cigarettes.

And the crispy meat came over at the right time, stuffed a lit cigarette in my mouth, Ruxue glared at the crispy meat, and the crispy meat said: "You don't know men, it would be better to have a cigarette at this time." After speaking, Crispy Meat paused, then sighed and said, "Ruxue, you can say it." Then he walked away.

Ruxue held my hand and increased her strength a little, as if she was afraid of losing me, and she was silent for a long time before she said, "Chengyi, do you know why I'm so calm? Because, no matter what you look like, even if you have gray hair, even if you are wrinkled, even if this face has completely changed, as long as I know that you are Chen Chengyi, then I am your Ruxue. Yes, I can't be your wife in this life, but I'm still your Ruxue, so what kind of Chen Chengyi doesn't matter to me, that can't stop me from accompanying your soul, and even living and dying together, this is my peaceful belief. ”

Ruxue rarely said such 'love words', her words have always been cold, although I am confused, but I can't suppress the emotion, why am I not like this to Ruxue?

I raised my hand, the hand holding the cigarette trembled a little, I took a deep puff of the cigarette, and when the smoke circled around my chest, bringing a paralyzing calm, I exhaled the smoke, and in the thick smoke, I said, "I know." As I spoke, I held Ruxue's hand and deepened a little, and what I knew was worth a thousand words.

Ruxue knew that I was encouraging her to continue, so she spoke: "Chengyi, I'm afraid you won't be able to be a Taoist priest in the future." ”