Looking back, this post was originally written randomly, and now it is close to 600,000 words, and I am amazed, how can I write so many words.

There is a sense of accomplishment, there is some.

Pride, there are some.

What is more precious is the friends who have accompanied me all the way, you are my motivation, I am touched, I am supported, thank you.

I said some with emotion, now let's get down to business, there are two things.

The first piece is about the recent episode.

Everyone thinks that I in the book should not make the same mistake a second time, without considering the overall situation, impulsively, and blindly entering the village. Such a plot is unpleasant.

How could Yang Sheng in the book care so much about a dead man's desire to abandon his wife or something.

Another question is why Master doesn't tell me so many things.

Let me answer them one by one.

First of all, as a book reader, I use the 'God's perspective' to gain insight into this matter, and feel that the protagonist should not be, and how it should be. But what if it's the person who is in it?

In 90, Chen Chengyi in the book was 23 years old, what kind of age is 23 years old for a man? Absolutely sanity? Aren't you impulsive, aren't you hot-blooded?

Chen Chengyi in the book is me, I am Chen Chengyi, so what kind of person am I?

Emotional, sensitive, soft-hearted, but with a fiery and direct temper, this is the kind of person!

So what would I do in the face of the plea of a friend who values me so much, and this plea is still the last wish of a teacher who nurtures him? Help him? Betraying him? What will everyone do?

I believe that many friends have watched the movie 'Crazy Boy', in that movie, what do you yearn for? I guess it's not the underworld, but the kind of touching friendship, and brothers! has also experienced indulgent and uninhibited and hot-blooded years.

Carefully experience it with your heart, during that time, I followed my good buddies to fight, I was obviously scared, and I knew that telling my parents and teachers that it would be better to solve it, but there were still a lot of people who went hard, right?

I was immature at that time, and my choice was a specific choice made at a certain age.

I may not handle it the same way when it comes to maturity.

About Yang Sheng's fanaticism.

What is the basis of this frenzy? Can you see it? It's based on love!

Do dead people, living people matter? I don't know everyone's answer, but I can be responsible for saying that the person I care about, even if she is gone, my feelings for her will not be less than when she was alive.

Even, it has to be deeper, because what you can no longer get is more precious.

I don't know what people are like, but there are people who I am willing to give my life for him (her), just like my parents, let me cut meat for them, it's okay!

Yang Sheng was like that at that time.

As for why Master didn't tell me a lot of things at that time.

There's a reason for that, why can't you give me a little patience?

Now for the second thing.

Why do I interpret the plot of the book in this way? It is said that I just write mine, and I didn't care too much about money or not, I just cared about everyone who accompanied me all the way.

And my original intention in writing this post was originally to write about metaphysics, to write deeper things, such as human nature, so that everyone can understand some of the essence of Taoist mind cultivation.

Why is it where it is now? I remember yesterday a book friend said in the book review area, why do you have to explain every chapter, why apologize, why do you have to put your posture so low?

I'll answer, because everyone paid, I feel that I owe everyone, I'm embarrassed to accept this money, I can only work hard to make everyone satisfied.

Actually, I'm tired.

Yesterday I was chatting with a friend, and I told him that everyone was not satisfied with my plot, or that my book could not make everyone happy, and I was very depressed and entangled.

He said, otherwise you can write yy a little bit and make everyone happy, can you?

I said, no, it can't be, that's not what I meant to be, and I'm not writing fiction.

He said, "Then you understand, that's it."

Another friend told me that some books are 100 points because he can YY, and in those books, the protagonist is the hero, and he can go against the sky.

What about you? How do you play? What did you write that you still don't know?

Yes, I know exactly what I wrote! What do you want when you read my book? I don't know.

Do you want to be authentic? Or do you want a satisfaction, to satisfy your heart's desire?

I'm sorry, I apologize to everyone again, really, I can't do that, I didn't want to write that, I can't do it.

Because the truth of life cannot be fulfilled in the first place, this book cannot be based on this, and it contains something deeper.

A sentence that disappointed me stinged me. One sentence at a time, I don't order, it stings me.

It doesn't really matter if you order it or not, what matters is that you go all the way and are disappointed? Maybe it's me who is too emotional.

I think everyone has paid for me, so I can't say anything like other authors, don't come if you scold me. In fact, such an attitude is good, very free and easy, wasn't it like this when I was in Tianya before?

But as soon as everyone spends money, I feel constrained, because no one's money is blown by the wind, what reason do I have to waste everyone's money?

Don't have the slightest patience? Read on to see what is going on behind the scenes, is there no patience for the repetition of the plot?

Self-denial, self-denial

Well, if I change myself, I can't do the breeze blowing the hills, can I?

Let me gather my thoughts, because I am not in a calm mood today.

But don't worry about anything, even if the book is left with the last person to support me, even if it doesn't, I'll finish it.

Or, it's not a book that caters to the market, and I didn't want to write anything like that in the first place. I will always insist on this.