On the way to the next village, I thought that Ling Ruxue would say something to me, at least the answer she knew, but she didn't say anything, she told me: "You just put yourself in the village as a hostage anyway, you know what to do so much?" ”

"Why can't you know? At least knowing something, I'll feel at ease. "The strangeness in the village made me feel the urge to know the answer, especially when Ling Ruxue said that these villagers were pitiful, and I wanted to know why.

I asked myself if I was not the kind of person who was very chivalrous, and that it was my mission to save the world, and that I cared most about the people around me. However, people always have to have a bottom line of conscience, and this bottom line of conscience can at least touch you and make you do something.

Otherwise, you live insensitively in the world, and you are sitting on money, power, and unlimited scenery. The essence is the same as that of the walking dead, and it doesn't make half a point.

This is also the righteousness that Master said, to sacrifice one's life to become benevolent, so that life can bloom brightly.

Just like before the national disaster, there were so many soldiers who were willing to use their flesh and blood to defend the country, one after the other, which is also the bottom line of conscience. Yes, maybe before the bottom line of conscience explodes, they may be just ordinary people with some little selfishness.

I didn't really ask Ling Ruxue for peace of mind, but according to the clues I knew, the answers I guessed had faintly touched the bottom line of my conscience, and I wanted to confirm it.

But Ling Ruxue seemed to have guessed me, she said: "Chen Chengyi, I can't tell you, sometimes I know the truth, and then I feel powerless, it's very painful. Instead of thinking about things that you can't solve at all, you should think about how to solve your own hostage dilemma. ”

I sighed, I have experienced enough of this feeling of powerlessness and enthusiasm, and the lessons I have received are enough! I don't know if Ling Ruxue is concerned about me, afraid that I will impulsively put myself in a more dangerous situation.

Or does she think I'm unreliable, too impulsive and lacking enough ability?

I can't guess this woman, but the feeling of being guessed by her makes me feel bad, but I think she may have guessed only me three years ago, not me now, I said, "You seem to know the feeling of pain and powerlessness?" ”

"I've always known it, I've known it since birth. Not only me, but the village has known it from generation to generation. When Ling Ruxue said this, she didn't look at me, her eyes just looked ahead, but the emotions contained in her tone couldn't be described in a thousand words, I could understand it, and then followed by sadness.

There was nothing to say all the way, only Hui Gen'er, this kid was very lively to look at this and that, and when he was tired, he relied on me to rest on his back, and I was very moved by the dependence and trust.

As I said at the beginning, I don't understand why Hui Gen'er is so dependent on me, but I can't bear this dependence, some feelings are already very heavy when you don't know it.

Once, I held these heavy feelings in my hands, I was afraid of losing, and once I touched it, I went crazy, and I can vaguely remember the sentence I yelled at Master: "I, don't let go." ”

Nowadays, it's the same, I'm afraid of losing, but I also understand a truth, being crazy and willful doesn't stop the feelings you value, the people you value are not hurt, maybe things can only get worse, don't good intentions do bad things? It's like the hard slap that Brother Sheng gave me!

Actually, I've learned a lot, like, if you really value and really care, then try your best to protect them, but there are many ways to protect them.

Master, I don't know this, I can be regarded as a little mature, in the face of my childishness, the most indulgent has always been you, you often say that a man cannot be said to be mature before the age of 30, if a man matures before the age of 30, it should be the result of being boosted by the seedlings. It means that after going through too much pain and having to mature, there must have been a lot of distortion psychologically, which is a pity.

But you're hoping for me to mature sooner, right? I can feel the pressure of you, you can't leave me, endure my helplessness to pull out the seedlings, maybe you have something to do with yourself?

In the silent walking, I thought too much, and finally my eyes stayed on the little face of Huigener on my shoulder, I will protect Huigener, in some cases, Huigener follows me on this trip, it is the safest.

As if she had a heart, Ling Ruxue suddenly said to me: "Chen Chengyi, you brought Hui Gen'er this time is a very failed impulse, and it almost made me almost misjudge you." ”

I smiled and said, "Really? Did you think that I was going to make trouble in Heiyan Miao Village and then save the hostages because I brought Huigen'er this time? If I were Rambo, I think I could consider doing that. ”

"Who is Rambo?" Ling Ruxue looked at me incomprehensibly.

I suddenly felt very happy, it turned out that 'Yuanbo' was like Ling Ruxue, and she didn't even know Rambo? Hasn't she seen the movie? I said, "Haven't you seen the movie?" Don't know Rambo in the first drop of blood? A very powerful man. ”

Ling Ruxue said indifferently: "I haven't watched a movie, and it's too late to study in the days outside." ”

I suddenly asked impulsively, "Do you want to watch a movie?" ”

"I don't know, is the movie good?" It's rare that Ling Ruxue will be very curious about one thing.

But this kind of Ling Ruxue just made me very excited, and I couldn't help but say: "In the future, will I take you to the movies?" I'll also treat you to a Coke, I'll treat you, I don't want you to spend money. ”

"Huh?" Ling Ruxue seemed to be a little surprised, but she didn't give me any answer, turned around and walked to the front.

I carried Hui Gen'er on my back and shouted at Ling Ruxue's back: "Ling Ruxue, I didn't take Hui Gen'er impulsively, there was really a reason, you believe me." ”

"You don't have to explain anything to me. Your master also often said to my aunt and grandmother that Taoists act casually, and they don't need to explain anything to others, nor do they need others to understand anything, as long as they can be worthy of the conscience of heaven and earth. You Taoist people are free and loose, and you don't have any sense of responsibility. So, you don't have to explain at all. "This is the longest time Ling Ruxue has spoken to me, and she is helplessly saying bad things about my master and our Taoist family.

But I can't argue with it, because my master is such a person.

I carried Huigen'er on my back, standing on the path in the mountains and forests in a little stunned, and suddenly remembered Ruyue in my heart, I'm sorry, Ruyue, I also lied to you, but there are some things that can be said to crispy meat and Qinhuai, and I can't say it to you.

Although, I know that you are good to me, and you are willing to risk your life with me.

However, this time, neither you nor your sister had the intention of letting you get involved, all I wanted was for you to bring me here.

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This time, we walked through the mountains and forests for nearly 10 hours before we came to the last village, and when I arrived, I had the illusion that this village was the most remote village in China.

Because from here to the nearest town outside, it is at least a whole day of walking, and then you have to ride horses and cars, and you feel terrible when you think about it.

However, when I think about it, there are so many no-man's lands in my country, and this village is not the most remote, at least it is only a primitive ecology, and the roads are still difficult to walk.

After all, the natural resources here are not bad, could it be that the country has the intention to 'forget' here?

The situation in this village is similar to the last one we passed through, the same poverty, maybe a little poorer, because in this village thatched houses are rare, and most of them are bark houses.

Compared to the previous village, the people in this village are more lazy and indifferent to anything! Ling Ruxue and I walked in this village and found that almost the entire village had nothing to do, just playing cards together in a daze.

In the previous village, we could at least see the neglected land, but in this village, we didn't even see the neglected land.

Under my careful observation, I found that the whole village is very strange, the age is polarized, in addition to a large number of 'old people' in the village, there are a large number of children, these children are probably also affected by the attitude of adults, all of them lack the spirit that children should have, and even go crazy very little.

There are even children who sleep on the dirt roads in the village, and no one cares.

If this is modern times, I may think that this is a 'left-behind village', because young people have gone out to work, but it was the 90s, and there was no such concept at all, and I clearly knew that these so-called old people may be young and 'scary'!