Decisions about the future direction are the best way to calm the grief of the present.

At this moment, I still miss Master, but I know that in the future I will pursue Master, and with this goal, my grief will not be so obvious, and I can survive many years.

For example, for Ruxue, in the future, we have decided to bless each other and love without regrets, so the pain will slowly fade away with calmness, because we have no regrets in our hearts.

Just as Uncle Hui chatted with Master a long time ago, he inadvertently said: "Life is a process of living, and the ending that God lets you see is of course not death, but whether your state of mind can reach a certain state when you die, to put it bluntly, the process of life is a kind of experience." ”

Therefore, whether I can find Master and see Ruxue in the end is not the key to the matter, but that my life has another direction, and the moment I close my eyes, I have experienced it, and my heart is at peace.

This is the real dedication, An Tianfang.

I looked at Master's handwriting, was stunned for a while, put away my sadness, changed to calm, and then walked towards the futon in the room, naturally I don't understand the meaning of Master's words, of course I understand.

Pick up the futon, tear off the yellow cloth on the futon, I saw, the middle is indeed hollowed out, in the futon put a whisk, this whisk I am very familiar with, this is the ancestor left to the master of the magic weapon, the dust is inlaid with a special metal chain, with the dust of the 36 ways to use, is an extremely powerful magic weapon, but also the master of the most handy, the most 'proud' of a magic weapon, now he actually hid it in the futon, left to me.

I was already calm, looking at this dust, my heart was flooded with a sad emotion, just like I thought, the master is concerned about me, just like a father facing a son who is persistent and does not do things according to his own opinions, even if he is angry and helpless, but in the end he feels sorry for his son, and will quietly stuff a stack of money into his son's luggage, in this way to silently express, I don't approve of you, but Dad will always support you and worry about you.

Silently put away the dust, I took a deep breath, the cold air in my mouth was just enough to soothe some emotions in my heart, at least I understood, my heart was comforted, the master left my anger without saying a word at that time, and it had been gently brushed away by this dust.

Calmly putting down the dust, I turned around and took Ruxue's hand and said, "Let's go, I'll give you another ride." ”

Ruxue stuck to me closer, let me hold it, and hummed softly.

And Brother Chengxin sighed, silent and didn't say anything, the tragedy of love or comedy is all watched by others, and the real taste is like people drinking water, knowing their own warmth and coldness.

If you feel regretful, others may not feel regretful, and if you feel happy, others may not feel happy.

Brother Chengxin understands this, sighs and does not comment, which is the best attitude.

The three of us walked out of this quiet room silently, and the rest of the way was only three or five meters away, I just held Ruxue's hand tighter and tighter, and she responded to me in the same way.

The truth is understood, but it still takes some time to be sad, sensibility and rationality, no one can achieve a complete balance, as long as he (she) is emotional.

There are no permanent lights here, in the dark, our footsteps echo in this corridor, and soon we came to the shadow wall, we did not stop, silently bypassed the shadow wall, and continued to walk.

Behind the shadow wall, there is another corridor, but it is only ten meters away, and only a long lamp is lit alone, making the whole corridor dim and dark, and there is an unreal psychedelia.

And this light no longer affects us from seeing the end of the corridor, the bronze door is deadly closed.

The insects were flying behind Ruxue, just like there was a big dark cloud behind the three of us, but even if it was a real dark cloud, it turned into rain, but it couldn't play with the sadness in my heart, it was indescribable, so I had to endure it.

Walking hand in hand in this corridor, I said to Ruxue as calmly as possible: "Is this the last part of the road that you and I can walk side by side in this life?" ”

"Maybe it is, or maybe it isn't. I didn't say anything to you just now, and now I can't let go of it, I can't help but tell you again, if you really can't forget it, put it in the bottom of your heart, but you can still live a peaceful, happy and safe life, this is my blessing to you. Ruxue said softly.

I held Ruxue's hand a little harder, didn't look at Ruxue, just stared at the bronze gate that was getting closer and closer, and said: "I know, I also believe in a word, even if the sky collapses one day, it can't change the fact that I love you and love you deeply, it stays in time, I don't complain, I don't hate, that's enough, I gave you for many years in my life, in those years, I only had a girl named Ruxue in my heart." ”

"That's good." Ruxue said quietly, but in the blink of an eye we were already in front of the bronze gate.

Ruxue looked at me with a smile on the corner of her mouth, I looked at Ruxue and smiled the same, since it was to separate, why can't you give each other a smile, even if it is a sad smile.

"I'm leaving." Ruxue said to me.

"You used to say what end we could have? I said that a person's life is death from birth, and if he cannot die at the same time in the same year, month, and day, then the end is either birth or death, so the time together is the end. Like snow, we have an end now, right? I looked at Ruxue and said, although she was smiling, my throat was sour.

"Well, it's the end, for many years, you love me, I love you, and each other is the only one. The difference is that we didn't die at that time, and when the world saw it, they thought it wasn't the end, but what did it matter, for the two of us, it was enough to be the end, and we were very happy and had no regrets. As I said this, Ruxue's hand gently touched my face.

I held Ruxue's hand, and finally pulled her into my arms, hugged her tightly, and whispered: "Actually, I am always unwilling, I can't bear you." ”

"Do you have to wait for the time when you are willing to give it?" Ruxue said a rare 'naughty' sentence, quietly let me hold it, and left my arms for a while, looking at me and saying seriously: "Chengyi, I'm leaving." ”

"Hmm." Finally, tears welled up in my eyes, as well as snow.

"You go back the way you came, climb the stairs, and you'll get out of this place, and I got that information in the ashram just now." Ruxue whispered to me.

I nodded, stared at the ceiling, and fought back tears.

"Chengyi, I have a request." Ruxue continued.

"Huh?"

"Wait a minute, when you open this door, turn around and leave, and don't look back."

"Why?" Even if I tried my best, my tears still slipped from my eyes, and the sadness of this moment was like a sea, and I was a drowning person, I could only let it surround me, and I could only sink into it.

"In the past, you and Brother Chengxin sang a few lyrics, you are very sad, you don't want to see my back, so, in the end, I don't want to leave a back for you, just remember me now." When Ruxue said this, the tears fell silently, but her voice was as calm as ever.

I didn't answer, I don't know if I could be ruthless and not look back.

But Ruxue was no longer willing to wait, and whispered to me: "Open the door." ”

After saying that, she had already begun to push the door, I gritted my teeth, let my tears and snot flow, lowered my head, and helped Ruxue push the door with Brother Chengxin.

I thought it was a heavy door, not as heavy as we thought, but in fact, I didn't want to push it open, so I wanted it to be heavier.

Opening this door is like opening a door in the life of me and Ruxue, inside and outside the door, we can no longer be a couple who can let themselves 'groggy' love, we have to 'go on the road'.

After all, the bronze gate with a dull sound was pushed open by us, and at that moment, I smelled an indescribable smell that should belong to the vicissitudes of life, and the insect cloud behind us couldn't wait to fly in.

And when I looked up, I was shocked by the back of the gate, is that the 'universe'? Or not, because there were no stars, only a thick darkness, with an indescribable distortion and mystery, which appeared before my eyes, and by the light behind me, I could not even see through this darkness, and I did not know what kind of existence it was, how big and how wide it was.

All I could see was a shocking being, floating in it - the bones of a dragon! The bones of a real, Chinese mythological dragon!

I can't describe the feeling of this moment, as if I was standing in the void, and the only thing opposite me was the huge skeleton, which seemed to face me with a great coercion, but it did not force me in the slightest, peaceful but immense!

"Chengyi, you can go." Ruxue whispered, and at the same time let go, I was holding her hand just now.

I'm indifferent, I can't move!

"Brother Chengxin." Ruxue shouted softly.

Brother Chengxin understood, pulled me over, pulled me back, he tightly strangled my neck, pulled my head, pulled me away, and said to me: "Chengyi, don't look back, you listen like snow, otherwise you will be sad, she will be sad, don't look back." ”

Am I not looking back? Am I not looking back? My tears seemed to be like I didn't want money, and they were sliding down my face one by one.

I heard footsteps behind me, and my whole body, my heart, seemed to be pulled farther and farther away with the footsteps!

"No!" I shouted, and then punched the innocent Brother Chengxin hard, breaking free of him at once, and turned back suddenly.

When I looked back, I saw her figure, which had slowly disappeared into the darkness behind the door, and it was as if the darkness was swallowing her, and the bronze gate was like a person, and the two doors were slowly closing.

No, don't! All of a sudden, I felt like I couldn't breathe, and I ran madly towards that gate, I was going to pull Ruxue, or I was going to be with her, I loved her so much!

Brother Chengxin hugged me tightly, and his voice sounded from behind me with a crying voice: "Chengyi, don't make her feel uneasy!" When she became heavier and heavier on my back, and there was no movement again, believe me, I was no less sad than you. ”

"Like snow!" I cried out in tears and fell to my knees at once, and at last the sea of sorrow had drowned me, and I no longer had the strength to hold back my crying.