At the end of August 2007, my grandmother passed away, and I hurried back to Jinping, only to meet the Golden Silkworm Gu that changed my life. At the beginning of October 2008, my grandmother also passed away, and after receiving the phone call, I immediately explained what I was doing, and after saying goodbye to the miscellaneous hairy trail, I took my cousin Xiaojing to the Dongguan Houjie bus station by car. And there, there is a direct long-distance bus to Jinping at two o'clock at noon every day. I originally wanted to go home again during the Chinese New Year and see Huang Fei so that I could decide for life, but fate seems to be reincarnated, but I didn't expect my grandmother, who has always been healthy, to leave so suddenly, without leaving me a little time for psychological preparation.

I mentioned my mother's family at the beginning of this article, but I said less about my father's side, for the sake of brevity and flow. However, when it comes to the intimacy of the relationship, it is still closer to my father's side.

The surname Lu is a big surname in Jinping, and I once saw a genealogy that my father pressed at the bottom of the box, with a variety of names and branches, forming a large family of houses. Not to mention the distance, my grandfather alone gave birth to four sons and two daughters - my uncle lives in the countryside, my father is the second, and the third uncle is in the nearest village of my family's Dadunzi Town (when I refined the "Nine Turns of Soul Rejuvenation Pill" for Duoduo, it was still completed at his house), and my uncle lives in the county seat, is an employee of the Forestry Bureau, and both aunts are married to this city (state).

This pattern is exactly the same as the situation of the miscellaneous little Taoist, otherwise how can we say that the two of us have fate?

My grandmother has been living with my uncle with her two great-grandchildren. She was also taken by my uncle's cousin to Hainan for a trip during the Chinese New Year last year, and she has always been in good health. The last time I saw her was at my grandmother's funeral, I was so busy that I didn't even say a few words to her old man, and then I was busy with all kinds of things, except for the occasional phone call, I really didn't remember her much.

I didn't think about it, but now it's separated by yin and yang.

Lying on the sleeper berth of the long-distance bus, I kept thinking about the things that my grandmother took me at my house when I was a child, and many details that had been forgotten came to my mind little by little, thinking of a little kid in this open crotch pants and a kind little old lady, some stories that have been sealed for a long time. There's nothing thrilling, just a touch of warmth.

Unlike my grandmother, who always had a serious face, my grandmother was a very traditional housewife in China, who worked hard in the fields all her life, was busy, diligent and thrifty, never blushed or quarreled with others, and smiled all day long, very kind.

So when I was a child, I liked my grandmother more than my grandmother.

However, in the past year or so, they have left me one after another.

I suddenly hated myself: I didn't even see my grandmother before she died, how unfilial I was? Last time, I remember my grandmother telling me to marry a daughter-in-law and give birth to a big fat boy, and she will help us bring it. But...... When we have it, we feel that it is unremarkable, and only when we lose it and experience the heart-wrenching pain, will we want to cherish each other and miss the benefits of others.

For example, grandma, for example...... Little goblins.

At noon, I took the car and arrived at Jinping County at five o'clock in the morning the next day, when the sky was not yet dawn, and it was the most dark moment. After getting off the bus, I took her to the public toilet at the station to wash up, and then pulled her suitcase, and under the light of the dim street lamp, walked slowly along Binjiang Road towards my uncle's house.

Halfway through, I passed by an alley and couldn't help but glance inside, Huang Fei's house was in the fifth house in the alley.

The sadness in my heart was diluted a little, and then I suddenly panicked for no reason.

There is a girl here, who is my rightful girlfriend, but there has been no contact for more than half a year, and I try not to let myself think about her. Now, I find that I don't know anything about her anymore: how are you doing now? Are you still thinking about me? Do you still love me? All the questions came to my mind, and I looked at the shadows of the trees swaying in the alley under the warm yellow streetlights, and I didn't have a bottom in my heart.

I found out that Huang Fei's father was really an old fox, and the so-called one-year appointment was actually a trap.

When the love is cooled down like ice water, what's left?

I don't know, but I have an urge to meet Huang Fei regardless of Na Laoshizi's one-year appointment. I would love to get answers to all the questions on my mind right away. Xiaojing saw me stop and asked Brother Zuo what's wrong?

I shook my head, sighed, and said it's okay, let's go back.

When we arrived at my uncle's house, my aunt had already gotten up and was waiting for us. My uncle is not here, he rushed back to his uncle's house in the countryside yesterday morning, and my aunt is waiting for us here. Because I was in a hurry to go back to the funeral, I didn't stop long, took a sip of water, and thought about going back to the countryside as soon as possible. My aunt said that the shuttle bus to Xinhua Township (my uncle's township, Dadunzi Township is a little bit past) will take more than eight o'clock at the earliest, so wait for a while.

Even when I got to the countryside, and then transferred to the villager group where my uncle belonged, I still needed to find a car, so I thought about it, took out my mobile phone and called my friend Yang Yu at the Public Security Bureau to borrow a car from him. At this time, it was only six o'clock in the morning, and Yang Yu was a little stunned when he received the call, but when he heard my voice, he was very surprised and asked me where I was? I said I was back, and then I told him about what happened at home, and I wanted to borrow a car from him, and I ran away for the past few days.

Yang Yu agreed, saying that he would see you at the intersection in ten minutes.

I told my aunt that I was going back and asked them if they were going. The aunt said that there are still some things in the house, and an obituary will be issued at that time, and the county needs someone, so let Xiaojing go with me first. Because I took care of Xiaojing in the south, it turned out that my aunt's attitude towards me was much better.

I carried my luggage and Xiaojing to the intersection again, and after a while, Yang Yu drove his off-road vehicle over. After a long absence, the two shook hands tightly, and he asked me how I have been lately, why I haven't heard from me for a long time. I said it right, I didn't die anyway. The two of them talked for a while, and I asked if it was convenient for you to drive away in this car? He said that there was nothing to do, anyway, there was a public car driving, and he couldn't make a mistake.

I was in a hurry to go back, so I asked him to help me say hello to Ma Haibo, and then I was ready to leave.

Yang Yu's expression became a little strange, and he stopped talking, I asked what was wrong? He laughed and said Is there a break between you and Huang Fei? Why don't you care about people at all? I said no, but...... It's a long story, but I'll talk to you when I'm done with the next few days. Yang Yu saw that there was sadness on my brow, and knew that I was not in a good mood, so he patted me on the shoulder and said mourning, brother.

I sat in the driver's seat, waved goodbye to Yang Yu, and drove Xiaojing out of the county.

Xiaojing sat in the car, looked at Yang Yu still waving his hand behind, and said enviously Brother Zuo, do you still know this policeman? I said yes, what's wrong, you know each other too? Xiao Jing nodded violently, saying that in June this year, Yang Jie and they had a group fight, but when the police came, they all squatted on the ground. Later, this man came, and I heard the police call him Team Yang, so majestic.

Team Yang? It stands to reason that the little bastards fight in groups, and it is usually either the police station or the security team that comes forward, could it be that Yang Yu was transferred to the security team and then promoted? Half a year ago, he was still a criminal policeman, and he suddenly became a captain, and this kid hasn't told me yet, it's really. But think about it, Yang Yu's backstage is also big, and he has climbed to such a position after working for a few years, and to be honest, it can be regarded as low-key.

Xiaojing's eyes lit up a little when she looked at me: "Brother Zuo, I didn't expect you to eat so well in our county?" ”

I shook my head and laughed. Uncle is a strict person, he won't talk nonsense about me, and my aunt and a few of them are some of the people in the city, so they will look down on me more, as has always been. Of course, I don't care too much about these things.

It is enough for a person to look up to himself. If you have three or two like-minded friends, you are very lucky.

The road home was tortuous, the mountain road was winding, the road conditions were not very good, although Yang Yu's was an off-road vehicle, but I still drove very carefully, nearly two hours, before I arrived at my house. My parents were not at home, I went to my uncle's house to handle the funeral, I didn't have the key, so I didn't stay, and drove to Xinhua, and finally arrived at my uncle's house at nine o'clock.

Seeing a black plastic wooden shed built in the yard from a distance, surrounded by a bunch of people, I felt a little sour in my heart: Seven years ago, it was such a time period, and my grandfather had just left. Seven years later, his grandmother went after him.

We are always reluctant to let our loved ones leave, but we have to face this fact.

The arrival of Xiaojing and I immediately attracted people's attention, and soon, all the familiar faces I knew appeared, my parents, uncle, third uncle, uncle, sister-in-law, and a bunch of cousins. Led by my mother, I went to the funeral tent, where my grandmother had already been buried. In the middle of the coffin was a big black coffin, and in front of it hung a portrait of my grandmother, an old, thin, white-haired little old lady, who was looking at me kindly and kindly, smiling.

My tears fell in that instant, and I felt the pain of being hit in my heart.

I think the smile is so glaring that I can't feel ashamed.

Knocking my head to the end, I lay on the grass futon and cried in a low voice: Grandma, Lu Zuo is back, your favorite Lu Zuo is back...... Incense and candles linger in the mourning shed, and a speaker repeatedly plays the Buddhist music "Great Compassion Mantra". The lights in the mourning shed were dim, and at this time, Duoduo also emerged from the locust wood sign in my arms, knelt on the ground obediently, and kowtowed to the old lady lying in the coffin.

Of course, no one but me could see her.

But she was very serious, and her little face was full of serious sadness.

I felt a gentle tap on my shoulder, and when I looked up, I saw my father standing behind me. I haven't seen him for half a year, I have been struggling on the edge of life and death, and at this moment I saw my father's old face, and I couldn't help but stand up and hugged him and my mother next to me tightly: "Dad, Mom, I miss you......"