Where to go from here(1)

Bai Suye bought a pregnancy test stick and did not go back to Zhongshan, but went back to her bachelor apartment.

I haven't come back for too long, and the house has become more and more deserted and quiet. It was so quiet that it seemed as if she was the only one left in the world, and only her breathing could be heard.

She put down her car keys and walked into the bathroom. Two minutes later, sitting on the toilet seat, she looked at the two red threads on the pregnancy test stick in a daze, she was stunned, and she couldn't come back to her senses for a long time.

She is expecting......

Pregnant with a child of a night owl......

This should be a good thing, but ......

She clenched her legs tightly and curled herself up in a ball. Everything around her body was cold, and that coolness had been soaking into her skin from the soles of her feet, and then spreading to her heart.

Heart-deep cool ......

She sat like that, as if she had been drained of her soul.

I sat for I don't know how long before I came to my senses. She walked out of the bathroom in despair, took out her mobile phone from her bag, there were several missed calls from white wolves on the phone, she had no intention of replying, and only dialed the phone to Secretary Chen.

"Secretary Chen, help me get a registration number in a hospital other than Bei Siyuan Hospital." She heard her own tone, surprisingly calm. It was almost unusually calm.

"Ah, okay, but, what department?"

"Gynecology."

"......" Secretary Chen was stunned for a while, and only after a while, did he realize that he would respond with the word 'good', but Bai Suye's phone had already hung up.

So......

I didn't talk nonsense at all, Minister Bai is really pregnant?! However, who is the child's father?

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Bai Xiaoye hung up the phone, opened the medicine box in the room, and poured out all the sleeping pills and antidepressants.

White and yellow pills were scattered indiscriminately on the table, scattered everywhere. A mess.

She flipped through the instructions and looked at them again and again.

Do not use in pregnant women.

Four words, it couldn't be clearer. Like a sharp blade, it pierced her eyes, causing a layer of redness to appear in her eyes.

What she knew, she always knew......

These drugs are quite harmful to the human body, not to mention the immature fetus?

She collapsed weakly on the sofa, holding the pillow hopelessly with one hand, and pressing it her lower abdomen with the other, only feeling pain.

She couldn't find where she was hurting, or was there anything else she wasn't hurting.

This kid ...... Will she and the night owl's children be able to survive? She couldn't even think about it.

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One night, no sleep.

Finally, at dawn, she got up from the bed and washed. The calendar hanging on the wall made her pause.

There are 8 days left, which is his wedding with Nalan......

She lowered her head and looked at her lower abdomen, which was still flat.

She wondered, if the night stalker knew that she was pregnant, would she at least not marry Nalan? Even if they can't be together, he won't marry someone else......

Although it is a shame to use an unborn child as a bargaining chip, it is difficult for her to restrain that selfishness......

However, the premise is that the child exists......

Bai Xiaoye stopped his thoughts, changed his clothes, and went out with the medicine he had taken during this time. In the hospital, from blood drawing to B-ultrasound, it took her almost the whole morning.

When she waited for the results, she sat alone in the cold corridor of the hospital, looking at the young couples around her, either lost or happy.

At this moment, even if they were lost and crying, she was indescribably envious in her heart.

At least, they still have each other......

"No. 2302, White Millet Leaf!" The nurse's voice rang out in the corridor. She came to her senses, got up, and walked to the doctor's office.

The gynecologist is an old doctor who is very experienced.

"Well, the fetus is about to turn 6 weeks old (a simple science for children: the pregnancy date algorithm is not the day of fertilization, but after the relatives come), what do you think? For the first child, I recommend that it is better to give birth. Where's your boyfriend? Have you discussed it? ”

Bai Xiaoye took a deep breath and said as calmly as possible: "I don't have a boyfriend. ”

The old doctor looked up at her, and she seemed to be surprised by this situation. He only pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, flipped through all the test results, and continued: "Your progesterone value is too low, you have to check the HCG value again the day after tomorrow, whether you have birth or not, you have to prepare early." The older the child is, the more troublesome the surgery will be. ”

Bai Xiaoye nodded slightly. Dig out some of the medicine from your bag and gently place it in front of the doctor.

The doctor looked at it suspiciously, and his expression became more solemn.

"These medicines ......," she asked, looking at the white millet leaf.

"I've been eating almost every day for the past month."

"That's bad. The damage of these drugs to the fetus is considerable. Well, as far as your antidepressant medication is concerned, the doctor who prescribes it usually reminds you that you should never have children within three months after taking the drug. ”

Bai Xiaoye's breathing tightened a little, "So, this kid ......"

"Let's do the HCG test the day after tomorrow." The doctor sighed, "I can't say absolutely, but no matter what, you have to be mentally prepared." After all, the dose you are taking is too large. ”

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Bai Xiaoye came out of the hospital in a groggy manner, and outside, it was snowing heavily. She looked at the whole depressed world in a daze, and for a while, she didn't know where to go.

For the rest of the day, every minute of her life was extremely tormented.

On the third day, after the examination, I returned to the old doctor.

"You'd better go back and prepare for surgery." The doctor flipped down the value and handed it to her, "HCG is normally doubled, and there is no problem with fetal development." However, your HCG value is not normal, and it is completely untouched. That is, your fetus is not developing normally. ”

"Is there any medicine or injection that can increase HCG? Doctor, as long as I can keep the child, I can bear as much suffering and sin as I suffer! For the first time, she was so eager, so eager that she took the doctor's hand.

The doctor sighed and shook his head, "We never prescribe this medicine to patients because it is in vain. Even if the HCG value is increased by artificial drugs now, your fetus will be eliminated naturally, but sooner or later. ”

Even though he had made all the mental preparations, when he heard these words and knew the result, Bai Xiaoye still felt a heart-rending pain.

The eye sockets were red without warning.

She looked at the doctor helplessly and asked worriedly, "Really...... Is there no way to keep the child? ”

I choked up.

The doctor couldn't bear it, but he was also helpless, "What you have to do now is to take good care of your body and adjust your mental state." Make sure that when the next child appears, your body can give the child a healthy cradle. If you are depressed all the time, getting pregnant will also have a great impact on the child. ”