In the morning, Feng Yuye got up and saw that Li Mu was already half-leaning on the head of the bed, looking at the front as if he was in a daze.

"When you wake up, I'll fetch water and wash you. Feng Yuye put on his coat, put on his shoes and went to the bathroom.

The ward is very high-class, a large suite of more than 70 square meters.

Li Mu said, "Open the window, I'll look outside." ”

"Good. ”

Feng Yuye walked over and opened the curtains, opened the window, the sunlight and wind poured in softly, and the air in the ward was clear.

Li Mu took a greedy breath, "Comfortable." ”

Feng Yuye smiled happily, "Wait, I'll go fetch water." ”

There are special care personnel, but Feng Yuye doesn't have a chance to let them enter the house at all, and she does all the care herself.

Today, it is already the thirtieth day, Li Mu has been lying in the hospital for thirty days, and it will continue for a longer time.

He couldn't leave the bed, and every day he needed Feng Yuye to massage the muscles of all parts of him, and every time he did this work, he saw that the places he pressed were all scars, and Feng Yuye always couldn't control his tears.

There is a waste person, and Li Mu's will is very depressed. Seeing that Li Mu was in good spirits today, Feng Yuye couldn't be happier.

After Feng Yuye finished washing, he brought a basin of warm water and wiped Li Mu's face as usual, his hands, body, feet, and every part of his body were wiped very carefully.

Li Mu held Feng Yuye's hand distressedly, looked at Feng Yuye, who seemed to be ten years old, gently touched the wrinkles on her forehead, and couldn't say a word.

Just this month, Feng Yuye was so haggard that he was judged to be like two people.

Li Mu was distressed, but his self-blame was getting deeper and deeper, and he thought that he was a waste person who dragged down his wife and children. I take care of everyone, but I can't take care of my small family. In many, many times, that might be a slogan. In many cases, Li Mu also made full psychological preparations.

Death is nothing, and the way it is now makes him uncomfortable. He never thought that he would become like this, and he might as well die. He can die ruthlessly, throw his family to Feng Yuye, and he has to pay. But he couldn't do what he was and still be able to take it with ease.

Yes, there are more than 2 million people, what is missing from you, and without your troops, will they not fight? Of course not, but if someone has to die, then what is the difference between going to yourself and going to others? If someone else has no family, will they have no children?

They all understand and have such a deep awareness.

Therefore, Feng Yuye babbled a few times in the past few days, and then stopped talking. To be precise, as a child from a military family, Feng Yuye has long had such an awareness, and as a military family member and an active soldier, she has even more such awareness.

"That's good, he can't stand up, so he won't toss, I will take care of him for the rest of my life. Feng Yuye said to General Zhang Ning.

General Zhang Ning, who had white hair, got into the car and left, leaving old tears.

"I'm going to have breakfast, what do you want to eat?" Feng Yuye asked.

Li Mu smiled, "I want to." ”

Glancing at Li Mu, Feng Yuye said, "You are more disgusting." ”

As he spoke, he helped Li Mu up with ease, let him sit in a wheelchair, then pushed him to the wide toilet, and then helped him sit on the toilet, and then said, "I'm going to have breakfast, you can solve it yourself." ”

"No problem, go ahead, wife. Li Mu's smile was very bright.

With the toilet door, Feng Yuye walked out, tears streaming down her cheeks as she walked.

In the toilet, Li Mu held his head, cried violently, silently, and beat his right leg hard, however, it was useless.

The couple seemed to have a tacit understanding, he didn't want her to see him cry, she didn't want him to see her cry. Going to the toilet is just an excuse for each other to know.

Li Mu raised his head to wipe away his tears, slowly lucked, took a deep breath, he raised his hands, and tried to stand up with the strength of his legs. He seemed to have exhausted all his strength, and his right leg remained motionless and unconscious. Again and again, and again and again, and again

He gave up and sat down heavily, staring blankly ahead.

Completely wasted.

He slowly closed his eyes, and slowly said to himself in his heart, don't toss, don't toss, miracles won't happen to him again and again, admit it, for the rest of your life, just deal with wheelchairs and crutches. Are there any regrets, yes, many, many regrets, many, many things that have not been done.

But what can you do, Li Mu, you are not a savior, you are just a mortal, and you also have times when you can't stand up.

So, so be it.

He was relieved, at ease, though he knew very well that it was in disguise.

Admit it.

With difficulty, he sat down on his arms in the wheelchair, slowly moved out, came to the window, and looked out. Outside, there were a lot of tall trees, grass and flowers, unknown birds chirping around, and the morning sun was very good.

There was a trumpet sound in the distance, and the troops were out of the exercise. Next to the army hospital is a barracks, and military songs are loud every day. Thinking that he could no longer follow the troops for exercises and training, Li Mu felt a burst of loss and extreme sadness in his heart. He is only 30 years old, and an officer of his age is the main cadre in the army, and he should be fighting on the front line of the army's training, how can he be accompanied by a wheelchair.

There was a sound of footsteps, Li Mu hurriedly wiped away the last bit of tears, adjusted his mood, and made himself look happy. Feng Yuye came in with breakfast, set it up on the coffee table, and said, "Rice porridge, millet porridge, pickles, steamed buns, soy milk, fried dough sticks, buns, eggs, and a few side dishes are all your favorite dishes." ”

After the placement, Feng Yuye walked over and pushed Li Mu over.

Li Mu said, "Eating like this every day, I'm about to become a pig." ”

Feng Yuye made him a bowl of porridge and wanted to feed him, he took it, his hands trembled a little, and he scooped and ate it little by little.

"I'll give you a massage when you're full, and make sure you won't get fat. Feng Yuye said.

She knew that what he cared about was the strength of his body, and that the muscles in his body were already showing signs of atrophy after a month-long lack of exercise. Feng Yuye insisted on massaging three times a day to alleviate this phenomenon.

"Daughter-in-law, you don't have to guard me every day, you should go to work, I have a nurse watching here, no problem, besides, it's not just a waste of legs, I can do it myself." Li Mu said.

Feng Yuye gave him a side dish and said, "I have already resigned from my job, and now, I am just an ordinary cadre waiting for arrangement." There are Liu's mother and Chen Chunying at home, and the children don't need me to worry about them. You can recuperate in peace, I am lame, I will take care of you for the rest of your life. ”

Li Mu drank the last bit and put the bowl down, "It's me who dragged you down." ”

Feng Yuye looked at him and said, "Then you will obediently listen to me and compensate me for the rest of your life." ”

After breakfast, Feng Yuye said, "Stay well, I'll go out for a while." ”

At the attending doctor, Chen Tao was already waiting and chatted a lot with the attending doctor. He arrived at the hospital early and asked about Li Mu's condition. Also coming with him was Shi Lei. The others wanted to come over, but were stopped by Wen Chaoyang. This is also what Li Mu meant. He didn't know how to face his old comrades-in-arms and subordinates.

Seeing Feng Yuye coming, Shi Lei was about to cry again, "Sister-in-law, they are going to send the squad leader to the Invalides Hospital." ”

The attending doctor said, "Master Li's recovery is good, the recovery from the trauma is good, and the problem in his left leg is not big, but his right leg is ...... Several surgeries were performed, and the shrapnel inside was removed, but ...... Judging from the current medical conditions, I can only say that there is a possibility of standing up, but the probability is very small. ”

Chen Tao said to the attending doctor, "Doctor, thank you." ”

The attending doctor went out.

Chen Tao looked at Feng Yuye guiltily and said, "Xiao Feng, Li Mu's current situation is no longer suitable for any position, and sending him to the Invalides Hospital is also the intention of the headquarters. ”

"Vice President Chen, you know, sending him to that place is killing him. He can't do without the troops, and the officers are getting bigger and bigger, but you see, when have you left the front line. You leaders should have stopped him, but you didn't. Now crippled, throw it at the Invalids and don't care. His will is very depressed now, and if you do this, you will make him completely abolished!" Feng Yuye stared at Chen Tao and said.

Shi Lei glared at Chen Tao angrily, his chest rising and falling violently.

"Xiao Feng......" Chen Tao said with difficulty, but the words behind him couldn't say a word.

He turned around and strode towards the ward, Feng Yuye and Shi Lei following closely.

Chen Tao pushed open the door, Li Mu sat in a wheelchair, and when he saw him, he smiled and raised his hand to salute, "Good chief." ”

Chen Tao, whose face sank into the water, walked up to Li Mu, looked at him, and said in a deep voice, "Li Mu, your third division is going to be handed over to someone else." ”

Li Mu nodded, "I'm like this, I can't be a division commander anymore." ”

"The reform of the establishment has officially begun in an all-round way, and the units of the three armed services will be reorganized on a large scale. Your old unit, the 9th Brigade, will be merged with the 107th Regiment you brought out to form the Army's first air assault division. The 701 Frontier Regiment you led should be changed to armed police. The Army Aviation Regiment of the Third Division of the Armed Police Force will be handed over to the Armed Police Corps. The Marine Corps should be expanded and the paratrooper units should be reformed. Li Mu, the biggest wave of reform has arrived. ”

Chen Tao stared at Li Mu and said slowly, "The doctor said that there is little hope for you to stand up, but as long as there is a glimmer of hope, you can't give up." Haven't you been looking forward to the day of large-scale reorganization, and now that this day has come, you, if you don't stand up, you will miss the best in your life forever!"

Li Mu's expression did not change in the slightest, he shook his head slightly, his voice was low and tired, without the slightest spirit, "I'm a little tired and want to rest." After fighting for so many years, it's time for the army to raise me. ”

"Let you fuck fuck-fuck-fuck-bullshit!" Chen Tao pointed at Li Mu, "Let me tell you, the headquarters has decided to let you retire, send you to the Invalides Hospital, send you to the sanatorium, and you will live with the retired old man and old lady for the rest of your life." ”

Suddenly, Li Mu, who was in front of Wushenping, turned his head to stare at Chen Tao, and anger gradually emerged from his chest.

Shi Lei wiped his tears and said, "Squad leader, they want you to take off your military uniform, if you don't stand up again, you won't be a soldier, squad leader!"

Li Mu said angrily to Chen Tao: "Why! Why should I retire! Why! I resolutely refuse to retire! I absolutely not! Chen Tao, I--you-mom-I said that I was born to be a soldier! You said that I can't do anything but be a soldier! Why don't you want me when I'm crippled! Why don't you want me! Why don't you want me! You lie to me! You deceive me! You don't want me when I'm crippled! Chen Tao, you---you are not a Communist Party member!"

Chen Tao burst out with the biggest roar in his life: "Then you--stand up!!"

"Chen Tao, I--you--!!"

Li Mu stood up suddenly, stood still, and stood there firmly. He pointed at Chen Tao and scolded angrily, "You don't believe in your words! You are a bastard! Lao Tzu will not retire! Lao Tzu will die if he dies!"

Chen Tao, Feng Yuye, and Shi Lei burst into tears and looked at Li Mu blankly.

Li Mu, who was angry, didn't get the answer he wanted, he cried, he cried and said to Feng Yuye, "Daughter-in-law, I don't retire, let me do anything, let me do anything, daughter-in-law, you tell your father, don't want me to ......"

Feng Yuye walked over and hugged Li Mu.

Pass

(End of chapter)