Chapter 393: I'm Too Tired to Love
After Ye Zuhui and the others went back, only Zhan Shaoyin and Song Huayi were left in the ward.
She lay flat on the bed, but her mind tilted to the other side, looking out the window.
Zhan Shaoyin sat on the edge of the bed, stared at her and was silent for a while, and said in a dumb voice, "Really ignore me"
Song Huayi didn't move, nor did she respond, but his words entered her ears word for word.
The tip of his nose was sore, and his eyes moistened.
She didn't know who was ignoring whom.
She has obviously looked for him, kept him, and has been waiting for him, looking forward to it countless times, as long as he gives her a little sweetness, she can forgive him all the cold words in the past and continue to manage this marriage.
But the waiting and expectation in her heart were exhausted day by day, and she really gave up.
Now even if she goes to the Civil Affairs Bureau to apply for a divorce certificate with him immediately, she can sign her name on the certificate very calmly.
In order to love him, she gave too much, and tried to change herself and make herself what he liked, but in the end, he could still do what he said.
She felt that even if they reconciled again this time, one day, he would disappear from her face, ignoring her connection, and he would be a dispensable person in his life after all.
Song Huayi didn't say the countless grievances in his heart, he just pursed his lips and silently reddened his eyes.
Looking at her forbearance, Zhan Shaoyin felt very uncomfortable.
"When you get better, you can beat me and scold me, don't hold back your sadness in your heart, I know you have been wronged, I am wrong, don't be angry, okay?"
Listening to his gentle voice, Song Huayi's heart was no longer blindly moved and soft-hearted, he sniffed, and said in an indifferent tone, "I don't need you to pity me, the child is gone, anyway, I don't want to have your child, you go, what do you like, don't dangle in front of my eyes." ”
It didn't matter, but if he did turn around and leave, she might have to cry for a long time.
People are so conflicted in their hearts, blaming him and complaining about him, but they are always reluctant to let him go.
Although he knew that she was angry, Zhan Shaoyin also felt a little uncomfortable when she heard it.
You can imagine how much torment and struggle she has experienced in her heart during this time to be able to say such cruel things to him.
Without waiting for Zhan Shaoyin to say anything more, Song Huayi closed his eyes, turned sideways and lay with his back to him, and said, "I'm going to rest, please go out." ”
"Wife" "Out"
Song Huayi almost cried out this sentence, as if venting the emotions that had been accumulated in his heart these days.
She was irritable and irritable, but she didn't know who she was angry with, but the only one around her seemed to be Zhan Shaoyin.
It is also reasonable to sprinkle anger on him.
Zhan Shaoyin pursed his lips and stood on the edge of the bed and looked at her for a while, afraid that his words would cause her mood swings again, so he had to follow her to the door of the ward.
Song Huayi hugged the quilt and suppressed her crying, she complained that Shaoyin was inexplicably cold with her, and wished that she hadn't noticed the arrival of this baby earlier.
Because of insomnia, she drank every night, and she felt that even if she hadn't fallen down the stairs, the baby might not have come into the world healthy because of her own carelessness.
So she's more in the air->>
herself, but she also felt that it seemed that God had made a decision for her.
These days, she has been hesitating about her relationship with Zhan Shaoyin, if she is really pregnant with his child, she will definitely put down her dignity and beg him to maintain this marriage for the sake of the child.
And now that the child is gone, it seems that God helped her make a decision for her heart that has been shaking these days.
She was really tired, and she seemed to understand Luo Yiqian's mood when she chose to divorce Zhan Jinchen.
It's not because I don't love anymore, but because I'm too tired of loving, and I want to start a new life and live again for myself.
Song Huayi stayed in the hospital for three days, and during these three days, she didn't show Zhan Shaoyin a good face.
Zhan Shaoyin will be patient to coax her, but she is really fed up with his hot and cold and capriciousness.
She told herself that she couldn't be soft-hearted, and that the same thing would happen over and over again.
Why could he act as if he had eaten her?
Give her a candy to coax her when she wants it, and kick her away when she doesn't want it
The whole family is just such a girl, and the family treats her as a treasure, why should she die and beg to be wronged by him
In the past few days, the family also felt that something was wrong with their relationship, because Song Huayi didn't talk to Zhan Shaoyin for half of them, and when he spoke, he would kill him, or tell him to leave.
I just thought it was a child's business, which made Song Huayi feel bad, and everyone followed Song Huayi.
On the day she was discharged from the hospital, Song Huayi went home and found that Zhan Shaoyin was arranged in the room where she lived.
They are still husband and wife, and it is natural for them to live in a room.
In front of his parents, Song Huayi didn't say anything, and when he returned to the room, he listened to his mother's words and lay on the bed.
I couldn't blow the wind, I couldn't stand the cold, I came out to go to the toilet, and I didn't even let Song Huayi go down to the ground.
After settling down Song Huayi, in order not to disturb her rest, he also made a little bit of the two-person world with Zhan Shaoyin and her for them to deal with emotional problems by themselves.
After the door was closed, everyone pretended to go downstairs to do their own thing, in fact, the family sat in the living room, listening to the movement upstairs with their ears pricked up, and you and I discussed in a whisper what the situation was with Song Huayi and Zhan Shaoyin now.
In the room, Song Huayi sat up from the bed, stretched out his hand and pointed to the suitcase that Zhan Shaoyin put by the door, and said to him lukewarmly, "Put your things away and go out to find a place to live by yourself." ”
Zhan Shaoyin stretched out his hand and pointed to the wall, "I sleep on the sofa." ”
Song Huayi frowned, re-520 bi520, and changed some of the wording: "I asked you to go out to live, and you are not allowed to live in my house." ”
Zhan Shaoyin cheekily said, "What else do we share, your family, my family"
Song Hua didn't move, she lifted the quilt herself and was about to get out of bed, Zhan Shaoyin saw this, and hurriedly stepped forward and pressed her shoulder arm, "Okay, I'll go out to live, I'll go out to live, you lie down, I'll take things by myself." ”
Song Huayi snorted coldly, and then pulled the quilt again and sat against the head of the bed.
Zhan Shaoyin turned around and opened the door of the wardrobe, took out his clothes from the cabinet, stacked them in the suitcase, and said "Wife, I" while sorting out the suitcase, "Wife, I" Song Huayi interrupted him, "Don't call me wife, I have nothing to do with you from now on." ”
"Hmm"
Zhan Shaoyin stopped what he was doing, got up and looked at her, looked at her for a few seconds, and asked her uncertainly, "Are you serious?"