92 You are not dead

When I arrived at the retreat garden, the pavilions and pavilions, the red rock and green tiles, and the color on the red lacquer oil under the eaves, it was really an antique courtyard, and Lu Xiaoman patronized Brother Xiao who was fluttering in clothes last time, and he didn't care much about the scene layout here.

The wooden benches in the courtyard are quietly placed, as if the scene of drinking tea and chatting here last time is still vivid, but now he and Brother Xiao are still separated.

But from beginning to end, Lu Xiaoman didn't want to hurt this kind big brother, she still hurt him unintentionally, in the end, she still blamed her for being too willful, why did she think of using him in the first place?

Now, it's hard to end!

"What are you thinking?" Xiao Jingshuo watched Lu Xiaoman staring at the small stool in the courtyard in a daze, and guessed a few points, but he didn't say it clearly, "Do you want to hear other stories?" ”

Xiao Jingshuo also has a story, but his story has nothing to do with Xiao Jingtian's story, maybe two completely different stories, but it is the different fate of three people, the entanglement of fate, or these irrelevant stories are involved, and finally it becomes one thing.

Saying different things in his mouth is because he has his position, just like Brother Xiao always thinks that his mother is not wrong, Xiao Jingshuo, in his eyes, his mother is also right!

Who's wrong with that, is it fate?

Resentful?

Fate can never be resented by you, your resentment, those hatreds, are just your regrets, your resentments, your attachments.

It was also a long time ago that there was a kind and gentle woman, because of the family marriage, she married a person she didn't like, and later in the relationship with his husband, she slowly got close to his heart, and when she fell in love with his husband, she gave birth to children for him, she thought that this was the happiest life, but one day she knew that his husband never loved her, he had a good first love, they were not together, just because of the marriage imposed by the family. She regretted that her appearance had disturbed his happy life, but she had nothing to do, and then she figured it out, after all, she already had her own life, and her own children, and she thought that one day her heart could influence his husband, but in the end she didn't, until she died. ”

"This story seems to be very sad!" Lu Xiaoman listened to him quietly, bowed his head silently and said, how can you not be sad, how similar this story is to her and Xiao Jingshuo, isn't it a family marriage between them, but Xiao Jingshuo will have a deep first love?

"Silly girl, if you don't like it, don't think about it, never be sad by my side, I want you to spend every day happily." Xiao Jingshuo took her into his arms, "This is the story of my mother and father, and my father's first love is Xiao Jingtian's mother." ”

"Hmm......" Lu Xiaoman only felt that something was not quite right, as if she understood the relationship between Xiao Jingtian and Xiao Jingshuo in an instant, they are half-siblings, no wonder the personality difference is so big.

That's why!

She secretly glanced at Xiao Jingshuo in his arms, and saw his chin slightly raised at this angle, at a forty-five degree angle, it was not the tearful literary angle that a great writer once said, with the most handsome young master Xiao Jingshuo this year, she was really dizzy, so beautiful, she could be eaten, not to be missed.

"It's long, what Xiao Jingtian said is not necessarily wrong, her mother has her story, it's just a tragedy when two things are put together, I just hope you can understand, I don't want to lie to you, Xiao Jingtian and I have always been separated by some barriers, from the day my mother left, maybe from the day his mother left!"

"......" Lu Xiaoman didn't understand his words a little, but seeing that he was so serious, it was hard to say anything, after all, it was someone's mother's business, she didn't say much, but she still sympathized with this pair of hard-working brothers, who should be brothers who supported each other, but they turned against each other because of these things.

Do you have a grudge? She wasn't sure if it was really an enmity, but at least in Xiao Jingshuo's eyes, what she saw was hatred for Xiao Jingtian, and it was from this time that she understood why Xiao Jingshuo's attitude towards his brother was always so bad, but she always felt that these things should not be counted on Brother Xiao's head, at least it was not very fair.

However, she didn't say it, she was afraid that Xiao Jingshuo would be angry if she said it, she knew him!

Xiao Jingshuo pulled her into the ancestral hall and stood in front of the tablet, Xiao Jingshuo bowed solemnly, this kind of etiquette is what servants do to her in Lu Xiaoman's eyes, and it was a little surprising to see Xiao Jingshuo like this, but after all, it was in someone's ancestral hall, and she also saluted, probably to follow the customs.

In short, she was very powerless to break the rules of the Xiao family, and when she bowed, Lu Xiaoman apologized to the ancestors in her heart, she had greeted these elders many times before, and she needed to pay a gift to show her sincerity.

After worshipping the ancestors, Lu Xiaoman stood silently on the side and watched Xiao Jingshuo light a sandalwood stick and insert it in the ashtray, only to see a photo of a beautiful woman posted on the wall on one side, with dark eyebrows, dark eyes as bright as mountains and rivers, a smile on her mouth slightly raised, a beautiful face, her eyes are raised and a little like Xiao Jingshuo's eyes, is it ......

Lu Xiaoman stared at the photo with wide eyes, she was surprised, it turned out that his mother was such a beautiful woman, a woman like her would be moved when she saw it, how could a man not be moved?

She couldn't imagine that Uncle Xiao would not love such a beautiful woman?

Of course, the current Uncle Xiao is simply a high-ranking monk who has traveled all over the world, and it is no wonder that he is the kind of person who completely sees through the Red City......

"That's my mom, and I'm here to hang this picture." Xiao Jingshuo saw that Lu Xiaoman was looking serious, and said with a slight smile, "Do you want to see Xiao Jingtian's mother?" ”

"Hmm......" Lu Xiaoman nodded, then shook his head, how could she feel that she had hit the muzzle of the gun, when did she become so ignorant, she hurriedly shook her head and explained, "No, no, no, it's not what you think!" ”

"You're not dead yet!" Xiao Jingshuo casually raised his eyebrows and asked, "Do you still have thoughts about him?" ”

He didn't want to confirm his guess, he even thought that as long as Lu Xiaoman shook his head, he could trust her.

It's just that he still asked, and he said that in front of her, he always couldn't help but want to possess her, and even wanted to occupy her thoughts.

……

Lu Xiaoman didn't know how to answer, she was just a little ashamed of Xiao Jingtian, she really felt that such a good person was deceived by her, and she had never been able to convince her to forgive herself, and she still was.

She didn't want to deceive herself, she shook her head and said, "I'm sorry, I ......"

But she didn't know how to tell Xiao Jingshuo, did she just feel guilty about Brother Xiao when she told him? Would he believe that then?

She didn't dare to think about it, just bowed her head silently.

Also, from the very beginning, when she encountered things, she didn't explain at most, but tried to forget and escape, she thought that only by escaping could she not face these things.