Chapter 359: A Letter to Myself
"Berlin, this is my letter to you, and it is my letter to myself."
"I know you're going to have a lot of doubts when you read this letter, why I know you're going to cross over and still write to you at this exact time. I have memories of the future, memories that are exactly the same as yours. I also have a lot of memories from the past, memories that you don't know... Actually, it's all complicated, complicated... I can't explain it to you. ”
"I don't think I need to say much about things around me. Soon you will understand everything..."
"Whether it's Zhao Ruiming's, Lin Manman's, Jiang Ran's, or Le Yao's."
"What happens in the future has been framed and has become the future as you see it now. If you want to change, then strengthen your determination to change. If you don't have enough courage and determination, then don't change anything...."
"I know you're confused about Le Yao. Yes, all this is developing according to the future, I hid it from Le Yao, said that I broke up with Kexin, and then secretly got together. Only by doing this will Le Yao not pass away... But I didn't do anything deviant with Le Yao, and I didn't feel sorry for Kexin. It's just that I'm entangled between the two of them like this, and I'm starting to lose my feelings for the two... I know that sooner or later it will be revealed. ”
"I can't struggle between these two relationships, so I selfishly run away and leave everything to you to choose. Just like the future you chose to be with Le Yao in the first place, you left the pain of breaking up with Kexin to the developing 'Berlin'..."
There are many, many words in the letter....
Berlin slowly looked at it. It's probably the life with Le Yao in the past two years, and the emotions with Le Yao.... Since it was him, it was not difficult for Berlin to understand his emotions.
In ten minutes or so, Berlin read it back and forth twice, and finally finished reading it.
He sighed heavily, not knowing how to calm his complicated feelings for a while.
"At least I understand the reason why I am with Le Yao. I'm not as bad as I thought..."Berlin comforted himself with self-deprecation, but then sighed "Why does the other one I know everything?" Why? Even I know I'm coming... Has he already been through what I have been through? ”
Berlin was speculating, but he felt that he could not guess the outcome, and he also cut off the problem that annoyed him.
So what to do?
How easy it was in the letter... Leave it to him.
Berlin suddenly felt a little disgusted with his character... How good would it be if there was more responsibility and more choices? But when you think about it, how much can he understand himself? Do you want to choose Le Yao? What about Kexin... She is the one who has really been together for the longest time, even if Le Yao is the perfect other half, isn't Chen Kexin? She's too... 78 Chinese Net
Can you choose Chen Kexin and give up Le Yao? This is probably the best option. How much reluctance? That's the original goodness... The original hope...
As it will evolve in the future?
Be... That's for the best.
There is no need for choice, perfunctory and deception. There are two people who are hurt, and only he is relaxed.
"Don't choose either, I choose Jiang Ran?" Berlin suddenly made himself laugh with a joke. This is the most unlikely... Make yourself more embarrassed and miserable? What's more, Jiang Ran has never felt for himself in this first future, in the present and in the past...
"Forget it, don't think about that... Don't think about it yet. Let's start by thinking about the current situation. I don't know how long I haven't worked, and my family seems to rely on Chen Kexin to work... It's time for me to make money, too. Berlin sighed.
Whether you start a business or not, you don't have the capital to think about without money.
But how easy is it to find a job? In this day and age, jobs are even harder to find than in the future.
Berlin went downstairs.
He decided to wander around in this dreary noon, not to look for a job, he just wanted to go downstairs and relax... Let the depressed mood dissipate a little.
Last night's rain came and went suddenly. As it approached noon, there were no remnants of dark clouds in the sky.
The rusty iron staircase had been washed away by a night of rain, and the dirt footprints, dust, and even the crumbling rust on the staircase had disappeared cleanly after a night of rain. The high temperature in the air has dropped a little at this time, even if the sun is still so hot, it is no longer as hot as the previous two days.
Summer rain is also sometimes pleasing....
As long as it brings convenience, it is pleasing. 166
Berlin walked up nearby.
Faced with this strange place of residence in the future, Berlin wanted to familiarize itself with these paths while the temperature was right and time was free. So as not to be like the last time I went to see Zhang Mei, I had to get on a motorcycle for a few minutes away, and I had to get lost when I came back.
The living environment here is not bad, it is not bad, but it is not good.
After a few rounds of walking, Berlin can be considered to know where it is. It's hard to describe it, it's not an industrial area, and it's not a lively urban area. All in all, like a hodgepodge, vegetable market, supermarket, snack street, commodity street, everything. But the environment is so poor that people can't look at it directly, and there are no high-rise buildings that can be seen....
"Maybe it's convenient to live nearby." Berlin thought about it for a moment and decided that this was the only reason to live in this neighborhood. As for why it moved here, Berlin still hasn't found a definite idea.
"I'm not going to look for Le Yao today." Berlin hasn't replied to Le Yao's text message yet, he originally thought about going over to find Le Yao today, but after reading the envelope, Berlin's mood is more complicated, and he can't find an idea of how to deal with it for the time being.
As for Zhao Ruiming, let alone ...
The only thing that made Berlin a little concerned was that the letter mentioned Lin Manman.
The absence of Fang Yuan and Lin Manman makes Berlin seem a little puzzling. Why is it missing? Berlin felt that it could not be unintentional ... In other words, it has nothing to do with Fang Yuan, it's just that he Lin Manman?
Yes, think about what Berlin can figure out.
If it weren't for what happened to him and Lin Manman, I think the two would not be so embarrassed and stiff in the future. Something must have happened... It's just that it hasn't happened yet, and it will be in the near future...
What could it be?
Berlin pondered, but the midday scorching made his mouth dry. He didn't plan to go back to cooking, after all, the weather was so hot, he didn't bother to pour a few mouthfuls of porridge. In addition, Jiang Ran will not be at home now, and it is even more pointless to go back to cook. After thinking about it, Berlin walked a few streets in the shadows, and then came to a place that was barely familiar...
The drink shop where I met Zhang Mei yesterday.
"Have a drink, and after noon, I'll go around in the afternoon to see if there's any decent work." Berlin muttered, and then walked in.
The cool air-conditioning was still echoing in the store, and Berlin ordered a cup of his favorite mango and prepared to find a corner seat to sit down. But there was someone in the corner he liked.
Berlin sighed lightly, ready to shift his target and sit down somewhere else, but when he looked at the woman's face in the corner, Berlin paused. Stunned, he walked over to the woman and sat down across from her.
I saw Jiang Ran, who was looking out the window in a daze, didn't notice that Berlin, who was sitting lightly, was still wandering...
What are you thinking?
Berlin looked at Jiang Ran with interest...
Her brow furrowed slightly, and her pretty face was full of tangles...
Finally, she sighed softly and shook her head, as if helpless. Well, it's annoying... But it shouldn't be an emotional thing. After all, she sees this aspect more clearly than anyone else.
"What's bothering?" Berlin asked.
"I'm annoyed back..."
Jiang Ran replied subconsciously, but as soon as the words came out, she was startled. Stunned, he looked at Berlin, who sat down in front of him at some point, and asked, "Why are you here?" ”
Berlin smiled, "I want to ask you, didn't you go out for something, how did you come to this place for a drink?" After asking, he also explained himself, "I'm bored and want to come down and take a walk, take a walk by the way, take a walk, and look for a job." Before I knew it, it was noon, and I didn't bother to go back to cooking, so I came here, and it just so happened that I bumped into you who were in a daze..."