"There are countless ways for a man to kill himself, and the abundance of this choice is at least far greater than that of the Commonwealth protein meat breeds.

A straw rope, a fruit knife, and a string of gold chains are enough to end a person's life, even if you don't have a straw rope and shoelaces, you can pick a rusty nail without a fruit knife, and there are always metal blocks without a gold chain, not to mention that in this world, there are high-rise buildings, low buildings, deep pits, shallow pits, mountains, small mountains, big trees, and small trees, and the height and depth are enough to kill people.

Even if, even if your luck is so bad that you can't find anything and can't see anything at the moment of begging for death, you still have a tongue

- Biting your tongue and committing suicide may have too much resentment, but in the face of death, in fact, all means are equal.

So, suicide is not a difficult thing to do.

Huaicao poems were as dazzling red as the scorching sun in the imperial garden when they were young, and after adolescence, they walked between the military headquarters of the palace with their own glory, and in recent years, they have silently and secretly presided over the work of the Royal Intelligence Agency.

For such a character, an event as suicide, which is not difficult, should not cause her too much trouble, but when she saw Xu Le's mouth spurting black blood and falling straight down on her, her strong heart couldn't help but throb a little.

Because the timing is wrong.

After carefully studying all the information files about Xu Le, Huai Caoshi never doubted that this person had the courage to kill him, but before the last moment, why would he choose to end his life so resolutely?

"You should still have a lot of questions to answer, why did you commit suicide?"

Her eyes narrowed as she looked at the federal man in the center surrounded by the medics.

"Your Highness. The medical officer of the Emperor Army reported in a low voice: "According to the results of the examination just now, his pulmonary hematoma is very serious, and his respiratory failure is severe, and if he needs to live, he must be immediately sent back to the ground for rescue." ”

"Then what are you still hesitating?" said Huai Caoshi as she frowned and looked at the medic officer, "What is needed on the execution ground is a living Federation battle hero, not a corpse. ”

"But the problem now is that even if he is lucky enough to save this man, there is no way for him to get back up. ”

The medic wiped the sweat from his forehead, and his medical team was well equipped to check the situation, so he knew very well how heavy and ...... the wounds of this Union prisoner were Weird.

"The nerve bundles in his body are intact, and there is no problem with the nerve junction under the double fiber bonds of the muscles, but for some reason, his nerve channels seem to have lost their function at this time, as if they were broken, and we can't find the problem, so ...... There is simply no way to fix it. ”

"What's the best outcome?" asked Huai Caoshi, with her eyes slightly lowered.

"The whole body is paralyzed. The medic replied in a low voice.

Huai Caoshi was silent for a moment, walked to the bedside, the busy Imperial Garden military doctors hurriedly got out of the way, listening to the sound of Di Di, she slowly put her hands behind her back, looking at Xu Le, who was on the verge of death, her straight eyebrows frowned slightly, and suddenly her fingers poked out like lightning and pressed Xu Le's chest.

There was a muffled pop, and Xu Le, who was heavily unconscious, did not react.

"Ignoring my warning, he tried to reconnect the broken meridians, and he was really not afraid of death...... You're a bold guy. ”

Huai Caoshi withdrew her fingers and gently rubbed her fingertips, confirming that the judgment of the military medical officer was correct, and the small-eyed man in front of him would probably never stand up again in his life.

She remembered the endless escapes and battles in the mulberry sea, and she was not nostalgic, let alone sad, because she had never had the slightest sympathy for the enemy, and only felt that there was something to borrow.

There are not many people in this universe who are qualified to fight side by side with her, and the only person who has fought side by side with her is Xu Le, who vomited blood and fell into a coma.

"Send it to the First Imperial Court and transfer the Royal Special Battalion to be responsible for guarding. Huai Cao Shi thought for a moment and then decided, "Save him as much as possible." ”

The first aristocratic rebellion in the empire in a hundred years, which began with the nobles' suspicions and shock of the royal family, and this sentiment began with the mysterious death of King Catonshire, and now this rebellion is about to disappear, but it is necessary to completely dispel the deep doubts and fears of the large aristocratic class, especially those who are neutral...... ，

The royal family needs to play a living Xu Le, and then die for everyone to see. Many popular science books of civil science or the Academy of Sciences will mention near-death experiences, saying that human beings will look back on the past as quickly as possible at the moment of death, feel the present, look forward, sorry, there is no future here, only a high-speed retreat hole formed by the black wall, and the other end of the cave is a pure white holy world, which is completely different from the blood stain of human beings at birth.

Xu Le never believed in this statement, this semi-literate mind that had not completed the federal legal education was full of mechanical principles and mechanical worldview, in his opinion, there was not much essential difference between humans and wild cats eating leftover beef outside the mine except for aesthetics, how could they have the privilege of rereading life before death? What would be the near-death experience of wild cats? Countless fat-headed and big-eared mice?

Even though the uncle taught him the ten postures, the scorching magical trembling power passed through his body like countless fat-headed and big-eared mice, he still maintained an absolute materialistic view of fluttering, and he sadly and persistently decided that there was no heaven above his head, only the sky and the stars.

Heaven can only be found in life.

Sure enough, there is no black hole and holy white light, but there are black dreams, very uninspired black dreams, but the old things of the charter computer do not appear in the dream, wearing an elderly housekeeper uniform or really wearing a black silk skirt to tell some mysterious things, only the halo of pain in the black dream is torn, the breath is scattered, and it will never be reborn, and it will gradually fall silent.

......

......

Suicide is a very simple thing, and surviving is actually a very simple thing, especially for a young man who has experienced countless tests of life and death, and his body muscles and organs have been polished, all he needs to do is to try to open his eyes.

Xu Le opened his eyes with difficulty, the light in the gap between his eyes gradually dimmed and clear, and there was only a dignified oil painting on the wall, and the signature underneath was so scribbled that people did not have any impulse to identify it.

"Wake up!"

With this cry of surprise, dense and noisy footsteps sounded in the ward, nervous smelting and treatment collegiality, and all kinds of advanced medical equipment were connected to his body.

The metal tentacle should be very cold on the skin of **, Xu Le, who had a very unpleasant past in the Federal Army General Hospital, thought silently in his heart, and then his body was subconsciously ready to tremble.

Yet he could not tremble...... He didn't even feel a hint of coldness, and it was only then that he realized that his body was completely out of the control of his brain, and no sensation came.

He frowned.

Fortunately, the brows can still move, so the eyes should be able to squint Xu Le, who was lying on the hospital bed, grinned his lips and smiled happily.

The smile that returned from the Grim Reaper instantly shocked the imperial people in the ward and were collectively speechless.

......

......

A few days later.

"I warned you, your true qi has been dispersed by me, the meridians of the upper circulation have been blocked, and if you try to force a breakthrough, there is only a dead end. ”

Huai Caoshi stood on the side of the bed with her hands behind her back, looked at Xu Le on the bed, looked at the extremely thin cheeks, and said expressionlessly: "I really didn't expect that you would actually use this as a means of suicide." ”

Xu Le smiled and didn't say anything.

Now he is paralyzed, only able to move from the neck up, except for speaking, he can only express his thoughts with expressions, and can no longer learn to wave his right arm as hard as President Pabul did to help his emotions rise.

Human expressions can only choose between laughter and crying, joy and sadness, happiness and frustration, calm or depression, two opposite camps, so Xu Le naturally chooses the former.

"According to the judgment of the doctor and me, you will never be able to stand up again in your life. Huai Caoshi looked at him and said indifferently: "How does it feel to be paralyzed?

"Why do I feel like Your Highness, you have more regrets than me?"

Xu Le, who had thin cheeks, finally spoke, his voice was hoarse and weak, and said, "The feeling of paralysis, well, is a little fresh." ”

"You can't tell from the file that you're a hopeless optimist. Huai Caoshi turned around, made herself a cup of coffee, and said casually.

"That's because I've never been in hopeless despair and can't show my talent for it. ”

Huai Caoshi turned around with her coffee, and after a moment of silence, she suddenly asked, "If you die that day and are paralyzed at this moment, can you really be willing?"

Hearing this, Xu Le was silent for a long time, staring straight at the snow-white ceiling, until a complicated and inexplicable smile appeared on the corner of his lips, and then replied hoarsely: "Of course I am not reconciled, I still have a lot of things to do, and there are still many secrets that I don't know." ”

"For example?" said Huai Caoshi. Coffee.

"You have seen my file, you should know Zhang Xiaomeng. ”

"Your first love. ”

"Not bad. Xu Le's eyes narrowed, and he said softly: "I used to think that I had to have sex with her again before I died, but now it seems that I have no chance, which is probably the biggest unwillingness."

Hearing this unexpected answer, Huai Caoshi was rarely moved, and asked, "Why not your eye-populating girl Jian Shui'er?" Of course, in my opinion, among your ambiguous federal stupid women, the female engineer of Guohu is worth dating. ”

Without waiting for Xu Le to answer, Her Royal Highness Princess Dimu, who had never been in love, thought she understood something, shook her head and said, "Stupid first love plot." ”

Xu Le smiled and didn't explain, in the entire universe, only the prince of the Tai family knew the real reason for this first-class unwillingness.

"If you are unwilling, why commit suicide? Since you are a hopeless optimist, I always thought that you would persevere to the end, at least until the execution ground. ”

"The federal proverb says that the Grim Reaper tells you to report at three o'clock, and you will never see the first ray of sunshine again. But I'm a soldier, and even in the face of death, I have to compete with him. ”

Xu Le was silent for a moment and then replied: "You want me to go to the execution ground and let many people watch me die, I don't know the specific reason, but what you need, I will let you not get anything, at least the method of death, the time of death, I can choose freely." ”

"Until the moment of death, a soldier should fight. ”

"Suicide is actually a kind of fighting. ”