Chapter 60: Dreams (18)

(18) Disasters arise from the heart

But my mother came to stay with me for a while every school year.

The roommate was very friendly and pooled the money to buy a mirror to block the paper of the school rules and discipline that were not allowed to stay overnight.

Happy chatting with my mom every day.

But my mother still said that I would not behave in the world. If I really didn't know how to behave in the world, I'm afraid I would have been punished for violating the school rules. My mother always said that Yanmei was very good at dealing with people, but she had never lived in Yanmei's student dormitory once! In fact, it was Yanmei's classmate who told her about the school discipline and school rules, and my roommates all know how to be convenient with others, and no one is sure that they will have no relatives or friends to stay overnight in three or four years.

Later, I haven't seen my mother for eight years, so I don't think I can be counted anymore, right?

As a result, on the first day, I said that I was talking to someone with the wrong expression, talking to whom I gestured too much, laughing ugly, paying attention to something, I really wanted to cry without tears!

I dreamed of living in a deserted place, and never told me how to behave in the world, no one saw my ugly smile, and no one said that I would not behave in the world.

At that time, I took my ten-year-old son back, and my mother said that the child is so thin to see what you have developed!

The son was very angry, he was chased and beaten by a 3-year-old girl, and an iron rod was thrown on his son's ear, and the whole ear was blue.

I asked the little girl, "Did he bully you, and you were going to hit him?"

"No!" said the little girl, looking at me defiantly.

At that moment, I suddenly had the idea of strangling her, and I was startled.

I'm going to go to the girl's parents, and Mom says forget it, you'll be gone in a few days. It's okay for a child to be injured a little, just grow up on his own.

They said that the girl had just come from Wenchuan and had not yet been sent to kindergarten, and that her parents had opened a laundry nearby.

Since then, the son has been disobedient and has shouted several times but does not answer. Speaking on the side of his injured right ear, there was little response.

He is busy raising QQ pets on his laptop every day and selling them to his classmates. Seems unusually attentive.

That day, I saw a message of the Wenchuan earthquake pop up on the avatars of several little penguins he raised, and suddenly thought: That girl should go to primary school, is she going back to Wenchuan to go to school?

I dream of staying away from people and not having any conflicts with them.

Because I see other people's eyes as if I can see what they are thinking, and when I look at them, they will apply what they think to themselves.

I saw that he wanted to hit me, and I stared at him, and he got down on his knees and punched himself in the face.

I'm scared of that.

Ah Ping said that I am usually listless, but as soon as I talk about the photographer, I will change.

I can only bow my eyebrows and refuse to look at others. Who knows when other people will have evil thoughts! That's why I'm so scared to see my relatives.

I like people who are open-minded, the kind of people who think about everything in a good way and only want to be good to others, so that I can look into his or her eyes and speak, and I don't have to be afraid that what he or she thinks will become reality.

All dreams will become reality.

All parents should take their children with them, and don't let them dream of seeing their parents when disaster comes, because many people dream together, which is a catastrophe that shakes the earth and mountains.

(Chapter 4: Dreams, 2008.7.―2009.5.12, A Lan in Beijing)