Chapter 222: Silent (4)

(4) A mad dog who talks nonsense

If I have the impression I give others, just the word "alternative" is appropriate. Poetry recitals of the Chinese Department have always been held in the school assembly hall, and many students from other departments came to the stage, and everyone sang the praises of the new era of high spirits, and I went to recite "Mad Dog" by the index finger.

I remember that the department rewarded me with a copy of "Selected Poems of Pei Duofei", and I guess the applause of my classmates was frightened by my horrible nasal voice.

Walking off the podium, I was still silent, I sat quietly by the pond of the Wuhou Temple, watching the kingfisher fly over the water, over the red wall, and into Liu Bei's tomb.

I followed open a mossy stone door and walked in......

I'm always turning dreams into words, but someone always says it's true.

When I sat quietly reading a book, people seemed to be unable to see me, and they were pulling and pulling and talking about me, and when I was a child, I described to my mother that I would always be beaten by her, so that I could remember it for a long time, and don't say it.

When I grew up, I plugged my ears with my index finger and didn't listen. Because there are always strange things that I hear, for example, Hu Tu's sister is half-father, Ping is not his father's biological son, and it doesn't even matter who the brother and sister get married, because the brother's father jumped into the river after being criticized by the students, and his mother disappeared, he was adopted by his father's colleague, in fact, this adoptive father is an informer, and it is okay to say that he is his father-killing enemy......

Just as I haven't figured out for seven years how many secret doors and tombs there are in that round mound tomb, and what little-known intricate relationships there are between them, I can't figure out the distant and close relatives of my family in my life, and I can't figure out the complicated relationship between other people's families.

I could only watch silently from afar, watching with heartache as Hu Tu's sister was called a platypus by her classmates, and many years later by her students. I was determined to live in seclusion from the world, far away, in a distant land.

I don't want anyone's sympathy and pity, I don't want anyone to live, I don't want any nonsense to reach my ears.

I really did it in life, I could not turn on my phone for a month, I would not say a word to outsiders, I would shop for things, and I would not even have to go to the supermarket.

There are always people on the Internet who pretend to know me and say some cool things, but in fact, my words pierce the hidden pain in their hearts. When I laughed at Xiao San'er with the crowd, someone said, "Why bother, didn't the ice-clear and jade little dragon girl let the stinky Taoist priest?"

After a few days, she simply sent a message to me and asked: Who are you, Honghong, she won't let me send you comments, and she also blackmailed me and I can't go to her space, what's the matter? Cut, stupid person! How do I know who is who, I want to treat netizens as neighbors, and I will really be scared away! In life, as long as a neighbor comes to visit the door, I will move immediately. I'm especially afraid of people who talk nonsense, and I'm afraid that one day I accidentally hear someone say that I'm an alien and that I'm here to spread **, bird flu and swine flu.

Addendum: Mad Dog (Index Finger)

After enough of the merciless teasing,

I don't see myself as a human being anymore,

It's like I've become a mad dog,

Wandering aimlessly.

I'm not a mad dog yet,

Don't take the risk of hunger and cold,

For this I want to be a mad dog,

Experience the hardships of survival more deeply.

I'm not as good as a mad dog!

The dog is anxious for it to jump out of the wallyard,

And I can only endure in silence,

I have more bitterness than a mad dog.

If I were a mad dog,

can break free from this merciless chain,

Then I will not hesitate,

Renunciation of so-called sacred human rights.