Chapter 694: Trick Love (53)

Blue Mandala: Trick Love

（53）

I had to flee, it was my instinct.

I said, I'm staying away to love you more deeply.

I know that no one understands even the cowardice that I don't even believe in myself, and even my husband spits on me.

When I was five years old, the boy said to me, "Why are you sitting next to me again, and they all say you like me, is it true?"

I immediately jumped up and scratched his face, and beat him until the teacher came and pulled him away, and I never looked at him since. Soon I was moving and transferring schools.

Mom never understood why I was like this, and when they felt good, they immediately became enemies.

Actually, I've always been very clear, everyone else knows, you still can't feel it, aren't you an idiot? If you don't like it, get away, why ask me, I think it's humiliating.

They say that in fact, it is just liking, not falling in love, and if you really fall in love, you will not be so arrogant and rude.

It seems that my humble state of mind now is very much like love. But I'm still awake, and I know that it's the people who like me who stimulate my soul with music, and the people I like who tempt my body with words.

It's just excitement and temptation, and they don't want to have it. So I was enjoying the thrill and temptation, and I didn't have to choose between obeying the call of the soul or the needs of the body.

I've always been resigned to fate, and what I say is that I don't change forever.

It's not flattering, but God will arrange for me to be the right one for me. I think he must be in a corner somewhere, looking at this qiē with pity.

Qing'er asked, "What percentage of the information you gave me?"

I said, "Don't care how much I've copied, don't you boast that you have a glimpse of the whole leopard? ”

"Isn't it? Didn't you also claim that writers write to change their fate, not to change their mood?"

Isn't it still in the Lu Xun Academy of Literature, when lying on the bed where many famous people have slept in it, and then talking about the "juvenile madness"!

Now, when you can only touch it with the mouse, you know how pale the text is.

In fact, if you can't even change your own state of mind, how can you influence others? Or can real power and money change a person's fate?

It is the season when the grass grows and the warbler flies and the flowers are red and willow green, and people's mood will be a little better, because they can see the scenery of their hometown in the south, reducing the feeling of drifting and desolation. He has been singing: The golden world on the horizon is the hometown of my heart, and when I wander away alone, it always shines on me quietly......

It's strange that I don't have a sense of wandering, I always call all the places where I can write a quiet diary "home", cafes, fast food restaurants, or parks, I say "my home"-

Kang pointed to the high-rise building in the night that outlined the entire outline with lights: "This, the tallest building in Beijing, will not be your house?"

"Of course it's my family. I said.

"It's my family. My sister said.

After that, I found out that Kang didn't have time to take my sister out shopping, maybe he thought that our sister had a brain problem.

But we're expressing the pride of being at home.

In fact, there is a place where a woman is quietly guarding is home. I guard my heart.