Chapter 578: Halo

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I found myself craving more and more for that dizziness, that trance, that I hadn't felt 40 years ago. I felt like my body was being injected with something that made me want to die.

I closed my eyes and propped my head in the palm of my hand, trying to figure out what was wrong. In less than a minute, I woke up from my dizziness and immediately regretted it, and I longed to never be sober. Stupidly, I wrote a sentence like this: "I am obsessed with the feeling of being with you / A dizziness of leaving the world / / The sorrow that sweeps through my heart / The sorrow that wells up in my heart / I don't know where it comes from"

I remember the first time it was when I was saying goodbye and I sent a goodbye emoji and then I fainted and I started to feel scared...... I didn't dare not reply to his conversation, I didn't dare not open those links he sent, and I was even more afraid that if I said something wrong, my heart would be full of sadness...... I even secretly shut down my phone in the middle of the chat.

But immediately I regretted it, and I longed to be with him.

He is a real person. It's not the so-called "fans" who sing praises who can change their identities at will under different nicknames.

My husband said that those people were so smitten about you that they should fall to the ground and not be able to get up when they saw you. I think he must have been the kind of fainting that was shocked, and the man's words became more and more unpleasant.

I want to be fascinated by someone, not an idol on stage, not a dream lover, but a real person. I miss him.

There was a day when I couldn't access the internet, so I said in advance that I wasn't online. Tell him I don't dare to offend him, and he says I know. Does he really know? I'd rather believe that the dizziness was my own imagination and had nothing to do with him.

What's even more ashamed is that at first I was still teaching him how to chase the girl he liked, just like my husband's wholeheartedness, and it was done in half a year. But he didn't need to chase at all, he just typed a few words casually during work hours, and he got me done.

Now I know that Bing'er's ex-husband is not wrong, who can't resist the temptation of youth when he is middle-aged, right? Maybe that girl didn't deliberately tempt him, but she couldn't resist Chu Chu moving? It was a real person, working together, seeing each other every day. And what am I, I don't even know what he looks like or where he lives, just a few pages of chat history to get my heart moved?

Bing'er was married when she was at her most beautiful, married to a man twelve years older, and originally thought that she would be down-to-earth for the rest of her life, and it was me who should be worried. "Your little man doesn't want anything but looks," Bing'er said, "and being good-looking is a man's fatal wound." ”

As a result, she was happy for three years, made trouble for five years, and left for three years, from the first Olympic bid to the second Olympic bid to host the Olympic Games. The cruel thing is that her aesthetic leap is also too big, this time she married a man twelve years younger, and it was too risky for anyone to think about it with his heels.

But why do I have a ** for someone I have never met and don't know the details? At that moment, I wanted to hug him.