Chapter 70: Keeping Money (2)

If the article can't be sold for money, I have no motivation to write, and I will never do that kind of submission and waiting, because I have seen that even in the era of small manuscripts, none of the articles I carefully selected have been paid. And I always have to be assigned by the teacher to pick up manuscripts from a certain university, a research institute, a state agency, or a famous writer.

Because ordinary people, if they do not subscribe to a study for a few years, will not understand its purpose and write a suitable article. And I, on the other hand, don't have that kind of infatuation and patience at all. After work, I got used to the reports that I was assigned to interview, and other prose essays were also related to reporting.

I suddenly found that I didn't know anything other than choosing words and sentences, and I didn't have any other survival skills, so I could only watch TV series at home, and I couldn't earn a little extra money.

(3) The Forgotten Decade

Lao Tzu once said that after ten years of hard study, if you don't touch it for ten years, then what will remain after that is your own things.

But searching through the ancient books and finding that he pointed out what to do in these forgotten ten years, is it to ride a donkey upside down like his old man?

I curled up on the couch and watched the travel channel.

In a daze, the fetus gave orders in my body.

I immediately went to buy a cassette of lullabies, and it is said that in the future, when the baby cries, all he needs to do is play the lullabies he listened to in his mother's womb!

There are only two tunes I've heard on the tape, and one is like this:

"Baby, your dad is living a turbulent life, my baby, he joins the guerrillas to fight the enemy, my baby......"

The other is: "In the middle of the night, I look forward to the dawn, and I look forward to the spring breeze in the cold winter, if I want to look forward to the arrival of the Red Army, the ridge will be full of red ......."

Nothing else feels like a lullaby. I tried to remember, but the fetus didn't buy it. Instead, as soon as I hummed these two tunes, it was quiet.

But what would Mr. Pei think if he heard it...... Baby, our team will be victorious, my baby, your dad will come back safely, my baby...... Isn't it Dad who is at home?!

It's really strange, why no one has written a nice lullaby for the new Chinese baby? No way, I had to hum with my nose, and after a long time, I was full of energy, and it was said that I had been professionally trained to sing.

Is it my forgotten decade to give birth to a child and raise it until I am nine years old? How many useful things will I have left in my mind after that?

This is not the era when Lao Tzu spread the Tao Te Ching. In this era, no one rides a donkey to enjoy the grass warbler and the song and swallow dance, and people are rocking and jumping across the ocean......

It would still be very rewarding to raise six children like my mother, but she still has to teach, which is so hard, and it seems that she is more tired than the women of the old society. I don't want to be able to do it, and if I can lie down, I will never stand.

I didn't think I had enough knowledge to fully navigate the picture of the future, nor had I learned to be proficient enough to deal with it in life, but I was already a mother of a fetus, and I had lost the satisfaction and pleasure of learning, and I was disheartened by this almost one-dimensional view of the world in a besieged city. I tell myself that this choice is not a beautiful somersault in my life, but another beginning according to the established conceptual order, so to speak, a turning point, from which I will lead to a completely different life.

(Dear readers, maybe you can't understand the choices I made, I know you will forgive me, thank you for the sincerity and romance you bring to the table, please don't forget to vote after reading the updates every day.) ）