Chapter 163: Happiness Walks Through (4)

(4) The pain of falling in love with someone

It was only years later that I understood the true meaning of what my ancestors said.

He said, "In my life, I will experience all the sufferings that women have suffered." And the most bitter thing about it is that you will fall in love with someone.

You ended up dying for his broken heart. Then he can be reborn as a man, and for 200 years he will experience all the suffering of men, and finally become the child with the legendary star on his forehead.

I really went through the hardships, and I thought the most bitter was having two miscarriages the year after the child was one year old. The first time I was pregnant with a ring, there was no pain in the removal of the ring or the abortion, but when the doctor covered me with a quilt and told me to lie down for a while before leaving, I learned from their jargon-filled conversation that it was an embryo that could grow into exactly the same twins, and my heart ached sharply. That day was August 19, 1997, and a typhoon landed in Shanghai, where I was, uprooting hundreds of trees and crushing several people.

The second time was a medical abortion, and the doctor called me over, pointed to something like a white jellyfish in the blood water of the porcelain basin, and said, "Look how beautiful he is!" I saw his white tentacles tremble and stretch out, as if to say, "Why doesn't my mother want me?" I saw that most of the other basins were filled with black blood clots, which were poured out by the nurse at once. So when the doctor said that if you saw a 39-day-old embryo specimen at the museum, maybe it would be your child, he nodded and burst into tears.

Once again, I went against the will of my ancestors when he said that the child I gave birth to at the age of twenty-eight would become kings. Since then, my ancestors have left me and have never been seen again.

Maybe it's the first time in 800 years that I've made my own marriage, and it's such a rational choice. Doomed to lose my rational love when I lost my child. will be many years later, unscrupulously fall in love with a singing person.

I don't know his name, but I don't know what kind of face he has, but I say, "It is your handsomeness that seduces me to be my pen, and it is you who make my pen shine incomparably." I hope you will never know that it will always be a symbol of my innocence, and that I will be an eternal prince on the battlefield where strength and softness are combined.

The boy who sang in his childhood has long been blurred. Now that I have never seen him sing, I have written down the song of kissing you a thousand times, and played it all day long, letting the tears flow freely, so that the walls can learn to sing.

I dreamed that he was playing and singing beside me, just for me. My fingertips touched his singing voice, and the emotion spread from my fingertips through my body, making me tremble......

Because we will never be able to see each other, my dream will never come true, and I know that falling in love with someone is really the most bitter one in my life!

The pain of childbirth and abortion will disappear, but the pain of falling in love with someone seeps into the bone marrow and stays in the heart forever.