Chapter 852: I don't regret it
The sky and the earth were dark, Lu Lingxiao sat in the void, she was the only one in this lonely world—even she couldn't even see herself.
She didn't know how long she had been here, maybe it was just a moment to the outside world, maybe it was a long, long time.
But unlike many people in similar situations, Lu Lingxiao was not anxious, not irritable and angry, what she was when she came in, and what she is still like now.
In this void where even time seems to pass, she does nothing but reminisce about the past.
The process of cultivation is a process of constantly perceiving the Great Dao of Heaven and Earth, and in this kind of understanding, the divine soul will continue to become stronger, so unless it is deliberate, the memory will not become weaker and weaker, but more and more clear.
Lu Lingxiao remembered that many years ago, when she had just entered the Sword Sect.
At that time, she was just an ordinary little monk, because of her outstanding talent, she was highly valued by the sect, and after just a few years, she met the conditions for entering the inner gate and became an inner disciple.
One of the things that every inner disciple needs to go through is apprenticeship – some people succeed in worshipping under their favorite master, while others can't, so they can only choose again, or stop worshipping the teacher and practice alone.
There are countless Yuanying Zhenjun and Jindan Zhenjun of the Sword Sect, and they often appear in front of the inner disciples, either responsible for teaching swordsmanship, or teaching them to comprehend the Great Dao of Heaven and Earth, and it was at this time that she met Jingning Jianzun.
Thinking of the first meeting with Shizun, a smile appeared on Lu Lingxiao's lips.
To this day, it is difficult for her to tell if she left that figure in her heart when she first saw him, so that for hundreds of years to come, her life seems to revolve around this person.
She wanted to worship under Jingning Jianzun, but Jingning Jianzun was a true disciple of the previous generation, although he did not inherit the first position, but his disciple was qualified to compete with Jingli Jianzun's disciples for the position of the next generation of Biluo Peak - that is to say, there were countless inner disciples who wanted to worship under him.
Maybe in order to get Jing Ning Jianzun's attention, or maybe for the bright future of worshipping him as a teacher, Lu Lingxiao almost desperately cultivated—however, she had too many opponents, not only people of her generation, but also foundation building disciples, everyone worked the same hard, so it didn't show that she was special.
And it was at this time that she heard that the sect intended to select a successor for the Lingxing Peak lineage, and the head of the sect and several first seats would accept disciples because of this.
For this reason, the sect issued a volume of the Mind Method, and stated that if the Mind Method was cultivated to the ninth layer, he would be eligible to become a candidate successor of the Spirit Star Peak lineage and choose a first apprentice.
That volume of the mind is a simplified version of the "Book of Heartless Heaven", but it still has high requirements for understanding, talent, and mind.
At that time, Lu Lingxiao only knew that the first seat of Lingxing Peak seemed to have committed something, so that he had not returned to the sect for many years, and the sect also regarded this person as not existing, but he didn't know the inside story of this matter.
"Perhaps, even if I knew the inside story back then, and knew that Jing Chun Sword Venerable was a stranger to the sect because of the "Heartless Heavenly Book" and because of Ming Ze Sword Venerable, I would not hesitate to choose to cultivate that mental method. ”
Lu Lingxiao shook his head and smiled, once some people have a goal, no matter what they have to pay to achieve their goal, they will go all the way to the dark - she is such a person.
Some people say it's paranoia, some people say it's persistence, but in fact, it all means the same, and the distinction between good and bad depends on what the goal is.
Maybe it's because of her nature, her mind is very calm, and her understanding talent is not bad or anything, and she really cultivated that mental method to the ninth layer, and she has the qualification to choose the first apprentice.
When asked by the boss, she chose Jingning Jianzun without hesitation.
"Shizun probably didn't want to accept apprentices at that time......
Lu Lingxiao didn't understand it before, but later he knew, just as Jin Du Jianzun was a member of Lingxing Peak, he had never avoided her, and Shizun didn't want to see a new heir take the place of the person he loved, although the person he loved didn't love him, and he didn't care about such a first position.
But in the end, Shizun still accepted her as an apprentice, perhaps because he knew that Lingxing Peak must have a successor, so it was better for him to cultivate it himself than to let this heir come from someone else's hands.
She successfully apprenticed, and then won over other candidate heirs, becoming the successor of the first line of Lingxing Peak, and even became the first of Lingxing Peak after receiving the true inheritance.
originally thought that this was enough, everything she wanted had been obtained, and the future was promising, but why did the more she cultivated, the greater the demons in her heart, and finally came to this point?
Lu Lingxiao knew that she loved her master, she liked her master's appearance and bearing, his talent and talent, and his meticulous patience when he taught her......
Perhaps it is precisely because of this master-apprentice relationship that her heart has become no longer satisfied, from just worshipping Jingning Jianzun as a teacher, to if the master can let go of that hopeless love and respond to her, she is becoming more and more greedy, so she has demons.
More than ten years ago, in a life-and-death battle with the demons, she used the method of entering the demon on the "Heartless Heavenly Book", and in the end, although she turned defeat into victory, she was also deeply trapped in the demons, if she hadn't gotten a secret treasure to wake her up before, she would have fallen at that time.
That accident, like a hammer, completely woke her up in a dream of love - it was at this time that she realized that "Wuxin Heavenly Book" was far more dangerous than she thought.
In the process of cultivating "Heartless Heavenly Book", Lu Lingxiao has also encountered all kinds of inner demons, and the realm has stagnated due to the obstruction of inner demons, but she can still deal with the former, and the latter is not in a hurry, although she has been confused in her heart, she still thinks that her original choice is not wrong, and her current persistence is not wrong.
But the truth is that she is too naïve.
The demons in the past and the stagnation of the realm are nothing, as if the "Heartless Book of Heaven" has its own "spiritual wisdom", it is cunning as a fox, with sinister intentions, at the beginning with those small fights to paralyze her reaction, until the critical moment suddenly sacrificed a killing move, in an instant let her past countless efforts all go down the drain.
Now, Lu Lingxiao gradually figured it out, but it was too late.
After that use of the Demon Method, her inner demons have been out of control, and sooner or later she will explode one day, when she will become the rumored first of the crazy seats of Lingxing Peak, and the sect - or her master will personally take action to wipe her out.
After realizing this, Lu Lingxiao temporarily woke up from his confusion, and as soon as he returned to Jingxi City, he chose to go out to explore the secret realm for the Righteous Path Alliance, and rarely returned to the Sword Sect after that.
She didn't want her master to find out that she was now in a desperate situation, and she didn't want to ...... In the end, he will die under the sword of Shizun.
If she could, she hoped that she would die silently in the secret realm, no one would know that she had fallen into the devil, and in the memory of the master, she would always be beautiful.
Thinking about it this way, even she felt that she was really sad and ridiculous.
This time, in the exploration of the secret realm, she met some Yuanying True Monarchs of the Righteous Path Alliance, and escorted them away, preparing to wait until they reached the vicinity of Jingxi City before leaving, and continued to go to other secret realms until they fell.
Unexpectedly, she encountered several waves of pursuit and killing in the middle - and it was because of this that she suddenly had an idea.
Perhaps, dying at the hands of demons is also a good choice. Number Seven
"I'm not Jingchun Sword Venerable, my reputation was tarnished back then, and I was expelled from the door wall by the Sword Sect, and I didn't care, and I left in style. Lu Lingxiao smiled, there seemed to be a flash of water in his blood-red eyes, "I am just a layman, even if I have cultivated for many years, even if I am called Sword Venerable and Shangxian, I am ridiculously vulgar, and I must choose a way to die that can last for future generations......"
"I want me to be beautiful in the eyes of others, to be brave, to be a great hero - no one can see my cowardice, my humility, my unbearability. ”
"What made me who I am?" she murmured, "Is it my almost paranoid love for my master, or have I been like this since the beginning?"
No, she's not, she's not that kind of person, but she ends up turning herself into someone who is obsessed with the opinions of others.
Her fault is not to fall in love with someone who doesn't love her, but to make herself less like herself for the sake of love.
The cultivator's cultivation is the way of heaven, but it is also her own heart—she has moved her own heart, how can the path she cultivates have a solid foundation, and how can there be her original heart and perception in the way of the seven feelings?
When I consulted Ming Ze Jianzun that day, Jianzun said that she was wrong, and that was the fault here.
"Unfortunately, I didn't really figure it out until today. Lu Lingxiao sighed, tears finally flowed, "I wasted so much time, wasted the kindness of Mingze Sword Venerable......"
In the haze of tears, she saw a figure slowly walking in the distance, that was her inner demon.
The demon in her heart is the same as her appearance, but it is also deeply paranoid and evil, "Do you understand?
Lu Lingxiao didn't wipe the tears from her face, she barely showed a smile, "I figured it out." ”
The heart demon showed a pleasant smile, "Don't you like Shizun, what does it matter if he doesn't love you, many things in this world are inherently unreasonable, and his mind is the same." ”
It stretched out its hand to Lu Lingxiao, "With me, I will become you, and you will become me, we will have enough strength, as long as we are temporarily dormant for a while, we can get what we want." ”
"Doesn't Shizun like that Jingchun Sword Venerable, just let her not exist, people die like lights go out, and when they die, they will be a hundred - you are the same, so don't think about dying, only by living, you will have the opportunity to get everything you should get. ”
Lu Lingxiao closed his eyes, and also stretched out his hand, shaking the hand of the demon.
However, before the demon could smile at the success of the plot, she suddenly opened her eyes again.
This time, there was no blood in these eyes, it was clear and clear, unstained with dust, like the blue sky of autumn. The entanglements and struggles of the past years are all in this pair of eyes, and they are gone.
"You!" the demon's expression changed drastically, and he couldn't understand why she had gotten rid of herself and regained her clarity.
Lu Lingxiao held the hand of the demon in his heart, and from the place where the two of them held each other, a colorful sword qi rose, gradually expanded, and spread along the hands of the two to other places on their bodies.
In addition to shock, the face of the heart demon was more frightened - this sword intent ...... When did Lu Lingxiao have such a powerful sword intent?
"What are you going to do?!" the heart demon said angrily, "Now that you are in a demon state, you are related to my life, I am dead, you don't want to live alone!"
"I wasn't going to live. ”
Lu Lingxiao's calm voice fell into the ears of the heart demon, but it was even more terrifying than the Nine Heavens Thunder, "You...... You're really a sword cultivator?! You don't deserve to be a sword cultivator!"
"Have you forgotten, the first lesson of sword cultivation said, sword cultivation should rise to the challenge and move forward!"
"Now that you can't get rid of me, you're ready to die...... You incompetent coward!"
Lu Lingxiao laughed, extremely wanton, the image she cared about in the past is now shattered into slag, "Whatever you say, I'm a coward, I'm a coward, I just don't want to live anymore, what can you do with me?
The heart demon simply suspected that the Lu Lingxiao he knew in the past was a fake Lu Lingxiao - how could she, how dare she say such a thing!
"Whether I am a sword cultivator or not, isn't it up to me, the sword cultivator, but by you, a demon in your heart?" Lu Lingxiao sneered, "Sword cultivation should rise to the challenge and move forward, but sword cultivation - in the final analysis, is also a monk." ”
"Since you are a monk, you can't go against your heart. ”
"My heart now is to kill you. ”
The speed of the sword intent spread extremely fast, and in a few words, the two of them were almost swallowed up, and the heart demon wanted to escape, but as it said, in the state of entering the demon, it was related to Lu Lingxiao's life, even if it could escape, Lu Lingxiao died, it could not live alone.
In the end, the heart demon also gave up the struggle, and mocked: "You are crazy, you are even more hateful than me." ”
Lu Lingxiao said: "If you are not a madman, who will cultivate the Book of Heaven?"
The heart demon just sneered a few times, "Then do you regret it? Do you regret cultivating the Heartless Heavenly Book for a man?"
"If you're cultivating other mental methods, maybe you have a chance to ascend to the Dao, right?"
"Regret, how can I not regret it. Lu Lingxiao smiled on his lips, but his tone was sighing, "However, what made me what I am now is myself—everyone is responsible for their own choices......"
The heart demon looked at her, and suddenly asked again, "Do you regret falling in love with Jingning Sword Venerable?"
This question seemed to be no different from the previous one, but Lu Lingxiao heard the difference.
She smiled faintly: "I don't regret it." ”
The sword light drowned the two of them, and in the next moment, it completely exploded, tearing this lonely dark void to pieces, and came to the barren realm of yellow sand.
There is no beautiful bright sky here, no romantic stars and moons, only a piece of wind and sand.
But even with such wind and sand, the female cultivator who said that she did not regret it could no longer be seen.
Maybe it's the end, maybe it's liberation, but in the end...... This is all her story, a story that has come to an end, and it can't be said whether it is good or bad.