Xinlu lay on the couch. Seems to be asleep, not asleep. Thinking of Sun Shouyun's sentence "This motherless child should be owed to whom". I felt that my heart was heavy. Vaguely, it seems to have returned to Heng Mountain.

Then. I was still seven or eight years old. Leading a bunch of little sisters. All day long, the price is running around the legs of the master's cool sound. Among them, there is a little sister who was picked up by Uncle Shi. Not tall. People are not pretty. The right hand is still a little disabled. But he was born with a smiling face. There is no worry about giggling every day. The other little sisters gradually played with her more. Whenever I saw her coming, I would surround her. I was depressed again. Jealousy again. One day, someone scolded her and said, "A motherless child." I don't know where so much fun comes from. Unexpectedly, these words broke the little sister's heart. The man disappeared that night. Everyone couldn't find her for days. Later it was discovered. The small corpse lay at the bottom of the back cliff. Everyone hurried down the cliff to see. I saw her face turned sideways. Mouth half-open. One eye has been pecked out by a bird. Blood poured out of his body. I don't know if it was a stumble. There is still a heartbeat.

He was punished for kneeling outside the Thoughtless Hall. I thought I was going to be beaten badly. But Master didn't fight. Didn't scold either. It's just that after the evening class, when I walked away, I said lightly: "People are not afraid of having no father and no mother." I'm afraid of being ruthless and unjust. "After that. In the middle of the night, I always dreamed that the senior sister looked at herself resentfully. The scene of jumping off the cliff. I couldn't sleep after waking up. So he went out and swept the yard and cleaned the windows over and over again. Until the red sun rises. The east lit up. There are fewer smiles, too. Not even anymore. Since then, I have learned how to care, love, and discipline my junior sisters. With the appearance of a senior sister. I thought that the days would go on safely day by day. Who thinks. It was all so sudden. Master and Uncle were gone in the blink of an eye. All the junior sisters are not sensible. Panicked. I suddenly felt so heavy on my shoulders. I want to cry in my heart. but in front of people, you have to keep a straight face. Pretend to be calm. It is necessary to support the façade of the Hengshan faction. Whenever there is a problem, a conflict, a contradiction. I really can't get rid of it. Then he quoted some Buddhist scriptures to solve, prevaricate, and calm down. However. The Elysium, the Oriental Pure Glass World, and the Lotus Flower Sea Tibetan World. Do they really exist? Master and Uncle. What kind of world are you going to now? Where is the Pure Land. Can you still do it? Bring back the news of peace.

Her mind was in turmoil. I don't know how long it took to be so groggy. Footsteps in the courtyard were near. There was a soft knock on the door. Qin Juexiang walked in with a steaming casserole tray. Hooked the door with his foot. smiled and said, "Sister." It's time to take your medicine. ”

Xinlu propped herself up and sat up. Qin Juexiang hurriedly put the medicine on the table. Come over and hold on. Tuck a pillow behind her waist. He said, "Be light." Tap lightly. Xinlu looked at him so cautiously. I couldn't help but laugh: "Look." I didn't make glass. The injury is almost healed. You don't have to be so careful all the time. Qin Juexiang saw her smile. Happier than anything else. Cover the quilt for her. Said: "We are people who practice martial arts." It often depends on kung fu. Not paying attention to the body. When I get old, my arms and legs are not flexible. It's too late to regret it. It doesn't matter if you Buddhists pay attention to stinky skins. But I listened to what the old swordsman Xu said, and realized the true self. I think it's quite right. I don't have this body. How can you read the Bible? Not this body. Who knows who is the king of Hades and who is the Buddha. ”

Xinlu sighed. said: "You are by the side of Old Swordsman Xu. I've learned a lot. ”

Qin Jue said, "How can there be." It's just a meeting. Listen to what he says, only you and I can see this world. I can smell it. I can taste it or something. It is also said that people can think. There are feelings. It's amazing. It's a great power. No need to look out. ”

Xinlu nodded: "The old swordsman's words." It's not bad at all. I am a Buddha. That's why I call it Buddha. The way to the Tao is simple. However, people's hearts are too mixed. It's too much to think about. ”

Qin Juexiang smiled: "I see. Sister. I've been ignited by you. Maybe I'll wake up early tomorrow. It will be the first to have a bun. Feet from the green lotus. When the time comes, the dust will swing and drive the auspicious clouds. When you go to the Golden Palace, you will be able to take the top prize. ”

Xinlu chuckled. I thought that you would take the dust and take the top prize. In the end, it is a monk, a Taoist or a Confucian. Qin Juexiang saw her smile again. Rejoicing or something. I'm afraid she'll laugh so much. Touched the injury. and no longer funny. Return to the table. Remove the lid of the casserole and set aside. The left hand holds up the casserole with a thick handkerchief on the bottom. In his right hand, he took the white porcelain spoon next to it. Stir while blowing slowly. Xinlu still has to feed himself when he sees him like this. Hurriedly stretched out his hand and said, "Come." Give it to myself. Hands and feet can move. I always want you to serve like this. It's not a word. ”

Qin Juexiang hesitated for a moment. It seems that I can't bear to disobey. Nod and close the lid on the casserole. Poured a bowl. Slowly passed it to her.

Xinlu took it. It's weird. I said this a few days ago. Qin Juexiang has always been reluctant to give. Today is unusually submissive. She picked up the spoon and flicked it in the bowl. The concoction is a little too thick. The smell was no different. Look up. Qin Juexiang was looking at himself intently.

She lowered the medicine bowl a little. Slowly asked, "What do you see me doing?" ”

Qin Juexiang's face turned red: "It's nothing." I...... I'm afraid you're unstable. I sprinkled it and burned myself. ”

Xinlu said: "My body." It's not that weak. Scoop up a spoonful and blow it to your mouth. His eyes never left him. A moment later. Slowly put it down again. "Alas. Drink medicine every day. I really can't drink it anymore. ”

Qin Juexiang said: "Hate illness and eat bitter medicine." If you can't drink it, you have to drink it. How can it be good otherwise. ”

The rhythm is on the lips. The eyebrows are astringent. It seems to feel that the smell of medicine is pungent. He lowered his voice again: "Today's meal will be spared." Qin Juexiang snatched half a step: "How can that be done." The injury is so bad. Your body is thin and ......" Xinlu looked at him: "My body." I know it myself. It doesn't matter if you eat less than one pair or two pairs. It's night. Go back and rest. Qin Jue said hurriedly: "You vomit so much blood." I was shocked again. How can internal injuries be good. Don't let your temperament fool around. ”

Look at the way he was in a mess, unscratched. Xinlu suddenly felt that she had guessed right. His eyes flickered. Said coldly: "Qin Juexiang." You tell the truth. There's something in it. ”

Qin Jue was stunned. Shake your hands together: "What are these words?" I love my sister like a god, a fairy, and a bodhisattva. How could you put that kind of thing in medicine? ”

Xinlu said: "What kind of thing." ”

Qin Juexiang's eyes suddenly straightened in shock. Fell to his knees with a thud. He kept kowtowing and said, "Little brother should die." Little brother should be damned. ”

Xinlu was so angry that her face was even more bloodless. Said angrily: "Okay, you little thief." Sure enough, I didn't have a good heart. ”

"Wronged. Qin Juexiang raised his face. A line of blood flowed down his forehead along the center of his eyebrows: "The little brother misses his sister in his heart." I really wanted to take the drug. Then the raw rice is cooked into rice. But it's coming. But I really can't do it. I really slipped my mouth just now. This medicine. There really is nothing else. "I burst into tears.

"Hmph. Xinlu said coldly: "It's still rhetoric." He handed the medicine in his hand forward: "If you are telling the truth." Let's have a drink. ”

Qin Juexiang straightened up and looked at the bowl. The gaze is moving up again. Xinlu's eyebrows are like slanted swords. A pair of flying phoenix eyes are staring at him. He wiped away his tears. Use your knees as your feet. Walk two steps forward to the edge of the couch. Trembling and outstretching out his hands. Took it.

Xinlu stared at it nicely. I saw him holding the bowl with both hands. Look at the medicine. Swallowing saliva as if his mouth was dry. Suddenly, he took a deep breath. He raised his head and drank it.

I drank more than half a bowl in the blink of an eye. Qin Juexiang put the bowl down. Rubbing his knees back a bit. Kneeling there bowed his head and did not move.

He knelt quietly. Xinlu watched quietly. The night is falling. The candle on the table burned down an index finger-length section. Look at Qin Juexiang's complexion. It still hasn't changed. It doesn't look like I'm sleepy and want to sleep.

Xinlu is proficient in medicine. Self-knowledge**,** both have faster seizures. If you eat a little. He wouldn't be like that now. Breathed a sigh of relief at the moment. said, "I blame you. Get up. Qin Juexiang heard this. Tears poured down and fell again. Kneeling straight. Neither moves. It took a while. Xinlu sighed, "Forget it. Good and evil are all in one thought. You can restrain yourself. Didn't really get drugged. It is not considered to be evil. Qin Jue didn't say a word. I couldn't stop shaking my head. Tears fell from his face. Immediately followed by a sudden left and right bow. Even pumping his own mouth.

Xinlu looked at it with a cold face. After more than 30 strokes. I saw blood oozing from the corners of his mouth. "Don't smoke it." Save it. Qin Juexiang also listened to her. Don't hit the mouth. He stretched out his hand and twisted it on himself. Every single stroke made a real effort. For a moment he grinned. I don't know if it hurts. It's still hard to use.

Originally, I figured out the problem of medicine. Xinlu didn't blame him. The reason why he didn't stop him was because he had such obscene thoughts. I thought it would be better for him to punish himself. At this moment, I saw him so ruthless. I don't let go of it. I saw him open his fist and go to dig his chest and beat his stomach. It's getting heavier and heavier. Hurriedly said: "Stop." "I can't stop the words. She lifted the quilt and snatched the ground. Catch Qin Juexiang's two little wrists. Fiercely: "This kid." You're angry with me. Still crazy. ”

Qin Juexiang threw himself into her arms. Wow Wow burst into tears.

Since beating that little sister off the cliff. Xinlu doesn't care about people before and after. It's all when you have a cold face. On the surface, there is majesty and a city. He will no longer go to the Master's arms to weep. No one came into her arms to cry. Now he is rushing into it. Crying heartbreakingly. I suddenly felt panicked, and my whole body was sour and weak. Frozen there. I don't know what to do.

Qin Juexiang cried breathlessly. I couldn't stop talking with sobbing and panting. Uriu smeared in the mouth. Speech is slurred. Xinlu barely understood that he was talking about Datong since the separation. How to miss yourself and so on. I couldn't help but feel a sour feeling in my heart. Sigh: "He's a kid after all." I'm angry with him. He pulled his hair at the moment. A pat on his back. Coaxed: "Okay." All right. Sister doesn't blame you. ”

After a while. The crying weakened. Qin Juexiang entrusted a committee like a cat in her arms. Said softly: "Sister." I never saw my mother when I was a kid. Grandma is long gone. Because naughty. Always scolded. No one came to hug me. Even Reason is not loved. I'm angry. He threw things and beat people. was scolded by their grandfather. The heart is indescribably happy. ”

Xinlu had a headache in her heart. Look straight away. "When I was a kid, I loved to be surrounded by people. I am jealous of that little sister's popularity. Isn't it also a general mind? No mothers and children. It's always empty. I long for someone to hurt me and pay attention to myself. At this time, Qin Jue's voice became softer. continued: "Since that time, you have been pulling you to wash your hands. I don't know how. Always miss you......"

This was said astringently, sweetly, and shyly. One into the ear hole. Suddenly ordered Xinlu to make a bullying. The whole person came to his senses. Shake him away from himself. said angrily: "You ...... such shameless words" in the middle of the conversation. I saw Qin Juexiang's handprints on his face stacked together. Red as a peach. The circles under his eyes were also brightened by tears. It is tender and swollen. I was shaken by this sudden suddenness of myself. Half frightened, half frightened. The little eyes looked over pitifully. I couldn't help but soften my heart again. I can't go on with the second half of the sentence.

Qin Juexiang was suddenly startled. Pointing to her feet. Twisted around and snatched the door.

Xinlu felt strange in her heart. When looking down. It turned out that he was stepping on the ground barefoot. Just now, I stopped him from talking. I didn't feel cold for a while. Immediately turn around and go to bed. Just sit down. There was a knock on the door. Qin Juexiang carried a bucket. Rush to the bed. Xinlu was stunned and didn't understand what was going on. Both feet had been caught by him. Hit the sideways. Pressed into the bucket.

A stream of heat came from underfoot. Xinlu then understood: it turned out that he was in a hurry to get water to warm his feet. lest the body get cold. Seeing that his little face was full of concern and anxiety. Indeed, it comes from the heart. Out of genuine friendship. I thought to myself, "When Master and Uncle are here." I serve her second elder. I wasn't so nervous. Looks like this kid just misthought me. It's not bad to be human. "I sighed. And I thought, "Life is in the world." Birth, old age, sickness, death. Love parting, resentment will, can't beg. Hardship is with you. All kinds of feelings. They are all poisons in bitter thirst. Drink like a drink. But when he was born, his mother was miserable. The warmth of holding in your arms is fake. Sluggish and lonely when you grow old. The youthful brilliance of youth is fake. It's hard to endure when you're sick. Spirited when you're healthy is fake. Separation, annoyance, and unacceptable suffering are true. The joy of keeping together, the harmony of love, and the joy of harvest are fake. Although all kinds of affection are born and destroyed, and some come and fall. The impermanence of separation is like the afterglow of the passing waves, the stone fire and the wind lamp. However, the scenery is in sight. Let it change as it may. People have their own unique mood. The human war is the transformation of karma. The Buddha cannot be changed. Master and Uncle are not unaware. But he still had to go down the mountain to stab me. What kind of feelings? Let her two elders not hesitate to be pretentious. Such a decision was made. ”

Dafan internal injuries. I am most afraid of the cold. Qin Juexiang stretched out his two hands in the bucket and pressed them. Feel the warmth of the feet of the rhythm from the ice. From warm to warm. Only then did I relax a little. However, my mind turned from hand to eye. I saw that her nephrite-like pair of plain feet were pressed into her hands. My heart was beating unkemptly. His face burned hot.

Xinlu has been wary at this moment. On the occasion of sighing. I saw that Qin Juexiang's face was red and swollen. I thought he was swollen from his slap. Take a closer look. Even the roots of his ears turned red. There was still an ambiguous light in his eyes. Momentarily stunned. Thinking of his feet being held by him. I couldn't help but blush my face. Shyness, his heart suddenly alarmed: "No." The poison of this feeling. How can I drink. He leaned over and patted his hands. Qin Juexiang was reluctant to let go. The hand was still pressed in the bucket. Xinlu can't shoot it again. Pumping and pumping, can't pull back. He shook his hand in anger. "Smack". Pumped him in the mouth.

There was silence in the room. The two looked at each other. They were all stunned.

looked at Qin Juexiang's haggard face and aggrieved eyes. Xinlu felt that he couldn't stop for a while. Subconsciously reached out and touched the side of his face.

There was a sound of rushing water. Qin Juexiang pulled out his hand and stood up. A tap on her shoulder. The wolf pounced.