Xiong Xiong is a core member of my fan group, a regular reader, and a little sister I like very much. Everyone likes to call her the red panda.

She was a young and beautiful girl.

It is Qi Xiaoyu, the heroine in the Heaven Killing Blade.

It's everyone's favorite little sister and little sister in the Sword League.

It's hard to accept that such a sunny and optimistic girl has said goodbye to this world forever.

3:26 p.m. on August 18.

Bear has left us forever.

I just heard the news today, and my chest was very congested. Particularly sad.

Originally, I just wanted to be silent and sad like this.

But in the end, it was decided to write an article for her, a memorial and a farewell.

Because I have heard it said that a man dies three times.

The first time is when the heart stops beating, and biologically, the person is pronounced dead.

The second time was when he was buried, relatives and friends attended the funeral and remembered his life, and then he died in society and there was no longer his place in the world.

The third time, the last person to remember him, was no longer in this world, and at that time, he was really dead. Disappear from this world forever.

If that's the case, then I hope to be able to use words to keep her forever.

I remember that it should be 2013, when I was writing about the sword sky, the administrator suddenly said to me, Brother Dao, there is a very beautiful girl who likes your book.

I laughed, so good?

At that time, Xiong Xiong, in my impression, was a shy and sensitive and shy girl, because at the beginning, many things about Xiong Xiong were relayed to me by Youyou.

Including the sick thing.

At that time, Xiong Xiong, not long after he fell ill, came back from abroad, and experienced a series of major blows such as a breakup, which was the most vulnerable time.

Youyou told me that Xiong Xiong told her that when she was sick, she read my books and spent her days reading my books, and she gained great spiritual comfort.

I listened, a little overwhelmed.

It's a good thing that someone likes my books, and it's a joy for me.

But why is it a terminally ill girl?

Why can't it just be a pretty girl who likes my books?

After a long time, with the encouragement of Youyou, Xiong Xiong added my QQ and told me personally: Those most difficult days were to watch the sword and the sky to survive, and my books and words gave her infinite motivation.

I had mixed feelings.

Because my book has such a positive effect, I should be happy.

But I couldn't be happier to know what kind of illness she had.

Sick people are always sensitive, I didn't ask too much about Xiong Xiong's condition, just comforted her, be strong, everything will be fine.

I have experienced my father's illness and death, and I know the heart-wrenching feeling of watching a person die from birth to death.

Farewell to life and death!

It's good to be alive and leave, because I know that it's still there, and it's visible after all. Death is the saddest thing, because you will never see each other again.

Even if you don't think about it, it's unforgettable.

That's why I'm particularly reluctant to face this kind of thing.

Fear.

The most fearful thing is that suddenly, there is no news of her.

The Sword Alliance was probably formed at that time.

At that time, the core members of the Sword Alliance were careful to protect her, and they never dared to talk nonsense about her condition.

On the contrary, she herself, at that time, was very active and optimistic. I'm not very shy about my illness.

I can sing songs to everyone, I can tell jokes to everyone, and I will rush up and tear them up in anger because someone is attacking me.

He would also come to me cautiously to chat, for fear of disturbing me every time.

Suddenly I couldn't write anymore.

Actually, I would love to write a memory about Xiong Xiong with a smile, because I knew that she would have wanted me to face it with a smile.

But I really can't laugh.

There are so many memories about her, piled up in my heart, I can't say it.

Speaking of which, those people in the Sword Alliance have more communication with Xiong Xiong.

Over the years, I have been regarded as my brother, and I have not communicated with her so much.

But I know that in Xiong Xiong's heart, I, the author who wrote the book for her, and the person she called her brother, are different.

Whenever she wanted to give up because of her physical pain, Youyou would always come to me as soon as possible and let me comfort her.

And every time she responds to me, it is full of cheerful words, telling me that it is very good and still persistent.

Still optimistic.

I remember that it should be a year or five, before writing the Sky Slayer.

Xiong Xiong cautiously came to me and asked me if there could be a trick in the new book.

I laughed and amused her, saying that the heroine is okay?

The excited expression sent by Xiong Xiong at that time made the original joke come true.

Yes, from that moment on, as long as someone is still reading this book, someone will always remember her.

Write this...... The mood is getting lower and lower.

I couldn't help but flipped through the WeChat chat records between me and Xiong Xiong in the past two years, and a sour feeling came from the bottom of my heart.

On February 19, 16, my lunar birthday, she sent her birthday wishes.

On May 13, 16, she said: Brother, brother, don't forget to wish me a happy birthday hahaha!

There are also five tooth-baring expressions underneath.

If you just look at the chat history, it's hard to believe that this is a terminally ill patient.

I said how could I forget, and then at the back of the book, blessed her birthday.

She must have been very happy to see it.

In July of 16, I posted a few crying emojis and asked if I had deleted her.

I said how could it be.

When I asked her how she was, she told me that she was stable and that she was almost fine.

On February 10, 17, he asked me when I would open a new book, and said that he would continue to read my new book.

At the end of June 17, Yuyou told me that the bear father was hospitalized.

I asked her on WeChat, and she was still optimistic and said it didn't matter.

On October 4, 17, the Mid-Autumn Festival, she came to wish me a happy holiday and told me that she was going to get ready for surgery.

Tell me that her dad put two braces in place and it's getting better.

Ask me if I remember the bear if the operation was unsuccessful.

I didn't answer her directly, I just told her that it would definitely succeed, and you are the heroine of the Sky Killer!

I was still thinking to myself, maybe one day it will be put on the screen, you will be very happy to watch it then, right?

I talked a lot with Xiong Xiong that day, which is a relatively large number of chats over the years.

She told me that there are many surgeries that are successful, and many of them will die of postoperative rejection.

I said, "We're not those. ”

On January 1 of this year, New Year's Day, I sent my blessing and asked her if she had any surgery.

She replied to me, "No brother yet, happy new year brother!" Congratulations to my brother on winning the award.

Well, and a little heart.

When I read this text, I almost forgot what award I had won.

Recalled, it should be an academy award.

In the chat log, I told her to work hard.

Xiong Xiong said: I will work hard, brother, do your best to obey the destiny of heaven. I don't regret doing my best, do I?

At that time, I could only say pale comfort to her: it will be fine!

Tell her that medical care is much more developed now than before.

February 15 of this year should be the thirtieth day of the Chinese New Year's Eve.

The last message from Little Bear to me.

"Happy New Year to my brother, happy new year, lots of blessings. ”

From 13 years to 18 years.

From the QQ era to > I have gradually run from a young online writer to not confused.

In the past six years, everyone has actually changed quite a lot.

There are many members of the Sword Alliance, from high school to college to graduation to now working, getting married and having children.

If he hadn't been sick, Xiong Xiong would have graduated abroad a long time ago, returned from school, and perhaps already entered the marriage hall and had a small family of his own. It should be very happy.

So if there is a if, I would rather Xiong Xiong has never read my book, and I never knew that on the Internet, there is an ordinary writer named Xiaodao Sharp.

Last month, Youyou suddenly came to me and told me that Xiong Xiong couldn't be contacted!

I tried to send a message that > showed back, but it was rejected.

I panicked like Youyu.

We're all afraid, afraid that it might come true.

Then I waited in this panic and sent some text messages.

Until today, the bear's phone has responded.

It's her family.

Informed us of the news and exact time of his death.

And thank you for our concern for the bear.

For a while, my mood became extremely heavy, sad, regretful, and sighing.

This commemorative essay is very scattered and messy.

There are even some who don't know what to do.

We always joke that if you die in the future, will anyone on QQ and > still look for you?

Will anyone remember you?

Will anyone else talk about you and worry about you?

When this incident became a reality, when there was no longer a message from a little girl named Xiong Xiong, it turned out to be so sad.

There are too many regrets, such as not having the opportunity to visit her in the hospital because she is always refusing, saying that she wants to get better and goodbye because she is sick now that she does not look good, for example, not having time to give her a signed book and write words wishing her a speedy recovery.

For example, the promise that will never be kept, to visit you.

Xiong Xiong asked me if I would remember Xiong if the operation failed.

I didn't answer you positively at the time, but I will answer you today, even though you can no longer see or hear.

But I'm still very serious to tell you: Yes! All my brothers and sisters in the Sword Alliance and I will always remember that there was a girl named Xiong Xiong.

You are a good girl, a good girl who is kind, optimistic, cheerful.

May there be no sickness in heaven.

May we see each other again in the next life.

Listen to you call again: brother.