Thirty-eight, revenge
A strong sense of hatred prompted me to dig day and night in this dark hide, just to dig out that invisible exit.
The nails of my hands were all rotten, and I couldn't even straighten my waist, so I had to lie on the ground and gnaw with my mouth, and gnaw at the mud, and gnaw at the rocks, and the rotten grass and sewage.
The reason why I worked so hard and tortured myself like this was that I wanted to dig an exit quickly, get out of this ghost place quickly, and take revenge.
However, when I really didn't have the strength to dig and lie down and wait for death, I suddenly realized that all my efforts were in vain.
Because since they have left me here with a screed mind, and left me to fend for myself, of course they will not leave an exit here for me to return to the world again to seek revenge on them.
So, even if I dig for another 100 years, 1,000 years, until I die, until there are no bones, I'm afraid I won't be able to dig out any outlets.
At that time, as long as I thought of this, I despaired, I was sad, I was sad and angry, and at that time, I even thought about death.
As he said this, the dim torches on the stone walls on both sides jumped gently, as if he was also feeling sympathy and grief for what had happened to him.
However, there was no trace of grief and indignation on Bai Qinghou's face.
He sat quietly in the dim light of the fire, whispering about his suffering, his misfortune, the expression on his face was calm and relaxed, as if he were telling a very ordinary thing, as if he was telling someone else's story.
And Bai Qingyi also sat down on the stone next to him at this time, listening to him quietly, and no one could tell what the expression on his face was.
Bai Qinghou fumbled on the ground again and picked up a small stone, and then casually threw it into the dirty pool not far away, splashing a long series of splashes.
In this dark basement, this seems to have become his only pastime.
When the stone hit the water and made a crisp sound, he nodded as if he was very satisfied, and continued the topic just now:
Later, however, I was exhausted, my wounds were inflamed, like a ripe papaya on top of my head, my whole body began to rot, and my whole body fell into a state of complete despair.
At that time, I had completely given up the urge to find an exit out of this cave, and I just lay motionless on this pile of stones, in this pool, like a tired dog, not eating, not drinking, not even thinking about anything.
I just want to starve myself to death, to drown myself, to let myself rot slowly, rotten to the point that there is not a single bone left, a little dross.
But in fact, I still didn't starve myself to death, because there was enough food stored in this underground store, which they probably prepared for me.
Because they don't want me to die, they just want me to live, and the more miserable I live, the happier they are, and the less I live, the more they fulfill their wishes.
In the beginning, I insisted on not eating and not climbing up from the stinky pool, but when it suddenly occurred to me that I was going out to seek revenge on them, I never wanted to die again.
At that time, I secretly told myself that I wanted to live well, and the more they didn't want me to die, the more I wanted to live well for them if they saw me in pain.
Bai Qingyi listened to him quietly, his brows suddenly wrinkled, as if he still didn't understand something, he also picked up a stone from the ground, followed Bai Qinghou's example and threw it into the pool, and said:
However, I still don't understand, since they know that you want to escape and seek revenge on them, why don't you just ...... Why don't I just kill you?
Hearing this, Bai Qinghou actually laughed, although the smile was very relaxed and free, but there was a slight sourness hidden, and he muttered:
Why didn't they kill me? Maybe they suddenly found out in their conscience that I had been their best friend, their best husband.
Although we have not been together for a long time, after all, we have truly loved each other, which is probably the so-called one-night husband and wife.
There was no expression on his shriveled face, and if his eyes were still there, I wonder if there would be sour tears flowing out?
Hearing this, Bai Qingyi was suddenly stunned, and looked at Bai Qinghou with a surprised expression, surprised that he would be so calm when he said these words.
Then, as if he suddenly understood something, his heart suddenly shook, and he couldn't help but exclaim, and said loudly: What......? The two people you're talking about...... One of them turned out to be ...... Sister-in-law?
Bai Qinghou did not answer.
He even smiled, and then threw a small stone out of the water, making a few splashes on the dirty, even black, rumbling water.
Although he could not see, he could hear the sound of the water drifting, and when the stone had risen and fallen on the water for a few times, he jumped back to shore again, and then, picking up the topic he had just said, continued:
In this way, I lay in this dark place for an unknown amount of time, not eating, not drinking, not even moving.
But all of a sudden, one night, actually, in this kind of place, I don't know if it's day or night, in fact, you can see, here, it's so dark day and night.
Anyway, one day, my heart suddenly hurt inexplicably, and it almost felt like my internal organs were about to jump out.
This is a symptom that I have never had before, and as you know, my body has always been very healthy, and although I like to practice martial arts, I will never force myself to practice martial arts that I am not familiar with, so as not to go mad.
However, that day, my heart hurt as if I had gone mad in practice, and I don't know why this happened suddenly.
At this he let out a long breath, as if he were in the throes of the sudden turn of events that day, and as if he was trying to organize all his thoughts.
Then, he gently patted his shriveled forehead with his hand, and continued: That night, all night, I was so painful that I rolled on the ground all the time, rolling around, and even digging hard into my mouth with my hands, filling my mouth with stones and mud, as if I wanted to stop the pain that drilled my heart in this way.
After a night of pain, it suddenly got better, as if nothing had happened at all, and although I was a little strange at the time, I was relieved to finally know what was going on.
Because that day was October 15, and since then, whenever it comes to this day every year, my heart will inexplicably hurt all night.
In the beginning, I wondered why my heart kept hurting during this time.
It was a puzzling thing to do, but one day after that, I also didn't know what time it was, I finally figured it out.
Speaking of this, he groped on the ground for a while, touched Bai Qingyi's cold, even a little trembling hand, and said lightly: Second brother, do you know what this is for?
Bai Qingyi's face suddenly became ugly, as if he had been hit by a thunderbolt.
Although he didn't know why Bai Qinghou's heart suddenly ached inexplicably on this day, he knew what day October 15 was.