It was a dream, and I knew it well in my heart. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

However, this is not necessarily the case when it is said that it is a dream, because I have memories of these things, but the memories are masked, and at this time they are presented in the form of dreams.

After being rewinded more than ten years ago, all dreams shattered and changed into a different scene.

Back to the edge of the little grass hut where the old man and I lived in seclusion, the old man and the child still lived, but the child forgot about the poisonous eye bite......

Looking at the old man's older face, the remorse in my heart was even stronger, and the tears did not stop from the beginning.

It seems that the weakness in my heart is completely revealed at this time, and I am a crying coward through and through......

As night fell, the old man and the child were sitting by the fireworks talking something, and the child was giggling at the old man's words.

At this moment, the old man sitting directly across from me, through the fireworks, suddenly stood up and stared straight at me, as if he had seen me.

He stared at me like this, and I felt like I had forgotten everything around me.

The jungle, the firelight, the children, the grass hut shattered into small pieces and disappeared, and the heaven and earth became pure white, as if only my old man was left.

With a long sigh, the old man looked at me and spoke.

"Bastard, stupid?"

The moment the old man's familiar words rang in my ears, I felt as if the shackles of my whole body had been broken, and the originally suppressed emotions exploded directly.

"Old man, I'm sorry for you, I'm really sorry for you......"

Tears rolled down my face, and I fell to my knees in front of the old man, with only pain in my heart that would never die......

The old man just smiled at me and shook his head, and said, "Silly boy, I never blamed you!"

The emotions in my heart exploded completely, and I stared at the old man and shouted: "I know you don't blame me, but so what, I killed you with my own hands, how can you let me bear this kind of guilt!"

"All of this is hard to change......"

When I finished speaking, the old man was silent, and doubts flashed in my heart, and I looked at him, and found that he was looking at me, and the expression on his face froze.

"Silly boy, you are a disciple of the Sword Emperor, can it be said that you were defeated by guilt like this, if this is the case, then you are not qualified to be a disciple of me!"

"A lot of times, some things have to be done, some people have to kill, and some crimes have to be carried. ”

"People live in the world, except for happiness, the only thing left is pain! Even so, you still have to live down, don't you, even if you eat and wait for death, you still have to live, don't you?"

"When you really need to shoulder it, you can only do it if you live, so please forget all the guilt before you shoulder it. ”

"You can't move forward with the baggage of the past, you know what I mean!"

Looking at the old man's smiling face, I asked, "After you killed my father with your own hands, have you forgotten this kind of guilt?"

When I asked this, he just smiled and shook his head, but there was no answer, and after a while, he slowly spoke.

"You know, when I stabbed the Falling Sword at your father, he just looked at me and laughed, saying he didn't blame me for it. ”

"I used to be like you, carrying this kind of inescapable guilt, and I also thought that this kind of guilt should not be forgotten, but I understood it when I saw you......"

"Got what?"

"Your father said he didn't blame me, he didn't blame me at all, at least he still had a smile on his face when he was stabbed by my sword. ”

"In that case, why should I take it with me, and use it to influence you!"

"This incident really shouldn't be forgotten, but it shouldn't be kept in your heart, buried in your memory, and move forward with this feeling, which is the best tribute to those who have gone......"

As he spoke, he walked up to me, slowly extended a hand to me, and smiled and nodded at me.

My hand went up, but halfway through it it it went down uncontrollably.

"Old man, don't you really blame me?"

When I asked, the smile on his face did not fade, but he just shook his head.

Looking at that familiar face, a fire seemed to ignite in my heart, and then a solid ice melted away.

When this feeling appeared, there seemed to be a throbbing that was transparent to the initiation, and my originally sad emotions were contaminated with tranquility and peace.

I reached over and shook the old man's outstretched hand, and the familiar warmth in my palm made me lose my mind.

Being pulled from the ground by him, I stood face to face with him, looking at him, and I laughed uncontrollably, a feeling that came from the depths of my consciousness.

The old man also laughed with me, and his old voice was full of sorrow, and at the same time, it seemed to be relieved and relaxed.

At this time, the original white surroundings began to evolve, and returned to the edge of the water.

I remember very well that the old man had led the water down from the mountain, but there was a clear spring, and the old man and I were sitting in front of it.

Pointing to the flowing water, he whispered, "Silly boy, do you know why this water keeps flowing?"

Hearing this kind of question, I rolled my eyes helplessly and replied, "How would I know?"

He didn't pay any attention to my answer, and continued, "Because the water is alive!"

"Because of being alive, this water is constantly flowing, even if it is mixed with other things. ”

I saw him pick up the small clod of dirt on the side and throw it into the water that flowed past us.

The water that was running on the ground was already a little dirty, and when it was thrown into a small clod, it was even more filthy, but the water was still flowing.

"Everyone is a piece of water, even if it is contaminated with many crimes such as killing, even if the water has become dirty, the flow will continue. ”

"There is no one who can walk the rivers and lakes without blood, but when the water becomes dirty, there are things that have to be thrown down. ”

"Otherwise, this flow will stop sooner or later!"

At this time, he threw a small stone into the water again, but it was washed forward by the water, and the small stone still sank to the bottom and did not move.

Pointing to the small stone grains underneath, he smiled and said, "This is what should be put down after killing!"

"Killing may not be forgotten, but in order to live in place of the deceased, to pay more reverent tribute to the dead, these things should be put down. ”

When he said this, everything in front of him shattered in an instant, and the picture shifted to the Fanyin Temple I had seen earlier.

A monk meditating on the ground, with a blurred face, was smiling at me, as if he had something to say to me.

After a pause, the monk spoke, speaking in the same voice as Abbot Huishan.

"Master Li, long time no see!"

I immediately clapped my hands at him and responded, "Master Abbot, long time no see!"

He beckoned to me, and he said, "Master Li, sit with the old man." ”

"Hmm. ”

Nodding in affirmation of his proposal, I followed his example and sat down on the futon that appeared behind me at some point.

As soon as I sat down, there seemed to be a cool feeling coming up from below, which quickly spread and shook my spirit.

Seeing me like this, the abbot smiled inexplicably and said, "Master Li, do you know what kind of place this is?"

When he asked me this, I immediately raised my head and looked around, and found that there were still stupas here, so I replied, "Master Abbot, this should be Fanyin Temple!"

"No, no, no......"

I shook my head in confusion, and he said very mysteriously: "All appearances are false, if you see things that are not appearances, you will see them as they are." ”

"What is hidden under this surface? Master Li, the old man wants to hear the answer in your heart!"

I was so confused by his Zen words, but he wanted to hear the answer in my heart, and I had to think about it.

Unfortunately, the situation here is a bit strange, and when I want to think about it, I find that my mind seems to be blank, and I want to think but I can't think of anything.

I couldn't find a clue, so I had to look back at the abbot, and I found that he was smiling, and he was smiling strangely.

"Master Li, Lao Gao's words just want you to point to your heart, I hope you can recognize yourself clearly, not let you think. ”

I'm also a little embarrassed, is it because he didn't make it clear, or if I was wrong......

Just as he was about to speak, Master Abbot spoke again and said, "Master Li, it is not a strange thing for people to have evil thoughts in their hearts. Even if the monks jump out of the Three Realms and are not in the Five Elements, there will be times when their hearts are uneasy!"

"The Buddha has a saying, but the human heart is gradually enlightened, greed, hatred, hatred, love and evil desires, and the disasters in the world all originate from this! The Buddha is also a human being, but he is a detached person!"

"Since ancient times, many lay people have escaped from the empty door when they are in danger, but you must know that a good thought will make merit, and the Buddha and the devil are only in one thought!"

"If all the people of the world are sincere to the Buddha and have good thoughts in their hearts, then there is no need for Vajra Veda and Dharma Protector Kalan. ”

Although I didn't understand the Zen words spoken by the abbot, my impetuousness still tended to become calm.

When I was stunned by the feeling in my heart, the abbot suddenly got up from the futon, stood up straight, and faced the south side of the temple.

I didn't know why, but I heard him say, "Look, it's about to dawn!"

I was confused and confused when I said this, could it be that the sky had been dark all the time before?

Slowly turning around, he saw a purple light shining in the extreme distance to the south of the Fanyin Temple, and then an extremely pure white appeared.

When the white slowly expands, it evolves into a thrilling bright red, and after several changes in color, a rising morning sun emerges.

Seeing the dawn of the sky and the first rays of light shining on my body, I suddenly had a feeling of rebirth, as if life had opened a new chapter at this sunrise.

Call......

It was so comfortable that I closed my eyes and let out a long breath, and my body was revived.

I hadn't opened my eyes yet, and the voice of the abbot master appeared in my ears.

"Master Li, let's go meet the Buddha!"

"Uh...... What the hell?"

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To be continued......