Xiaobai, Xiaobai, can you understand my feelings?

I still remember the first time I saw you in the gambling game of Caiyuan, at that time you were clear and elegant, as soon as you appeared was full of brilliance, my eyes have been inseparable from you, I know that you have a pair of amber eyes; later in the backyard of Caiyuan, I mind that you do not remind me that danger is coming, throw you with a waystone, although you dodge but still hit the door frame, that is the first time you were injured because of me, at that time you got carried away, the image was completely ruined, I know that you are actually very cute; later in the painting pavilion on the first floor of Caiyuan, you invited me to drink tea for the first time, I drank the tea you made for the first time, at that time you were as light as a chrysanthemum, and pearlescentAt that time, I knew that I actually liked to stay with you; then you said that you looked like a girl, and after I was seriously injured, at that time you were both crying and fussing, and you were leisurely, that night was the first time I touched your body, I knew that your waist was very thin; and then you laid out and burned Yanyun Villa, we watched the fireworks together, let go of the fireworks, at that time you were proud of the spring breeze, and calm and leisurely, I saw your means for the first time, but I knew that you have always been very lonely; and then I helped you transfer witnesses, that was the first time we separated after we met, you know that I sleep with our memories every night, I don't know where you areLater, you came back to Fangwailou, in the small courtyard where the first dye was on fire, it was our first reunion, at that time you were anxious to handle the case, I don't know how to say my ecstasy, but I knew that there was only one girl Luo in your heart; on the big mulberry tree behind the Linglong courtyard, we talked deeply for the first time, and I couldn't help but say what was in my heart to you, and we had a secret to keep together for the first time, I remember that the moonlight that night was very holy, and you were very beautiful. It was the most precious, beautiful, happiest, and most melancholy memory of my life.

Shi Xuan suddenly thought, if one day he really wants to die in front of his eyes, then will he have to get used to it from now on? In the future, no one will quarrel with him, no one will be worthy of being frightened, no one will be worthy of feeding him white sugar cakes, no one will laugh like a pear paste candy but his legs will tremble, no one will dare to take a candle to burn his hair and let him go out in public, no one will accompany him to climb trees to admire the moon and eat mulberries, no one will hold a rabbit and lead a sika deer to wait for him in the cold wind in the middle of the night, no one will shave his beard and shave his face to pain, no one will send a special light blue mint flavored aftershave to himself, no one will be so afraid of snakes for his own tea and dinner, and he will not be afraid of snakes and move forward bravely, even if he is about to lose consciousness, he still thinks about his own injury, no one will give a fan to themselves and laugh at the irony to draw a white-headed fox, no one will let himself dance a disgusting fox dance under the lamp in the lonely night, no one will persuade himself not to be a thief, no one will be so holy and beautiful and frozen like an ice cube that makes him feel distressed, no one will change an expression to judge the two of them, sometimes he is so shrewd that everyone in the world can't hide his pair of amber eyes, no one will open those pair of amber eyes and look at himself innocently, as if he is the most pitiful person in the world, and all the people in the world are sorry for him, then no matter what he did to himself, he would easily forgive him in an instant.

At that time, the color I hated the most should be white, the food I hated the most should be white sugar cake, the wine I hated the most should be amber wine, the flower I hated the most should be pear blossom, the animal I hated the most was the white rabbit, the ornament I hated the most was jade, the thing I hated the most was shaving, and the most hated thing was everything that could make me think of Xiaobai easily.

Again and again he described the scene when he died, maybe under a flower tree, the petals fell on him, his face was still like jade, maybe with a smile, and the clear water was flowing beside him, as if he had just taken a nap.

Maybe it's in a large pile of rabbits, and his face has tiny fur that can only be seen vertically in the strong sunlight, like a newborn rabbit, and he is like an awkward cry and curled up in a tired ball, or maybe there are still tears on his face, and a large group of white-eyed white rabbits perched quietly beside him, just like his ears will be like them at any time, vigilantly erected.

Maybe he will float away like a cloud and dissipate like smoke, but not a half-dead and scarred death like now. ,

The blood in his ear stopped flowing and slowly clotted. I don't know if it's black or red, as if it's just the beads hanging down on his jade crown. The vague patch on the back of his hand seemed to be just a rose on his pale body in the night.

It's impossible to get used to it. Never.

Shi Xuan hugged him and didn't move. Xiaobai, if you die, I will never live alone.

Li Ge looked at Shi Xuan's indistinct face, and suddenly wept.

Everyone standing in front of the car watched quietly, as if they had heard Sanskrit sounds in their hearts.

The big man suddenly coughed and whispered, "I think you're going to spend the night here." I'll take you to pick up some firewood and come back. ”

Xiao Shell retracted his thoughts, nodded gratefully, and whispered, "Thank you." But you better go home. ”

Dahan shook his head and said, "I know that you have cured Erhei's illness, and we are worried that we will not have a chance to repay you, let me stay, maybe I can help." ”

"It turns out that the black mountain monster is called Erhei," Xiao Shell sighed, smiled reluctantly, and said, "Then I'll trouble you." However, I wonder if there are any fierce beasts in this forest?"

Dahan smiled and said: "Then you can rest assured, there are only rabbits and snakes in the vicinity for hundreds of miles, all of which are raised by divine doctors, and now the poisonous snakes have all been killed by you, and there is nothing to hurt your son." ”

A feeling of weakness suddenly surged in everyone's hearts. Dahan said: "Let's go, let's go collect firewood and make a fire." ”

"Wait," Shi Xuan suddenly spoke again, he didn't look up, just stared at a corner in the dark, reached out and groped in the baggage in the car for a while, and found something and threw it out, the big man reached out to catch it, but it was a belt. Shi Xuan said: "If you change it, maybe Xiaobai will wake up soon." ”

Dahan was stunned, and suddenly said enviously: "You are so good to him." Only then did he untie the green bamboo snake on his waist, walked to the grass with his pants, put the snake down, and said, "You can go back first." As if he understood, the green bamboo snake nodded, swam into the grass and disappeared. Dahan tied his belt and pants and took Yuzhou Yingluo to collect firewood.