In the Sun Moon Lu, Lu Zheng's closest person is naturally Xin'er, followed by Mr. Le, and Zuihou is the teacher Li Yi. Of course, the teacher is very good to him, and Lu Zheng also understands in his heart, but the teacher always has a stone face, and it is not so easy for people to get close. Therefore, as long as he is in front of the teacher, unless the teacher speaks first, Lu Zheng rarely takes the initiative to speak, of course, this is also in line with the etiquette of the disciple.

Compared with the nervousness of facing the teacher, Lu Zheng felt very relaxed in front of Mr. Le, except that he was more serious when teaching his piano skills, other times, Lu Zheng felt that Mr. Le was similar to his playmate.

However, only in front of Xin'er, Lu Zheng had endless words, and he couldn't wait to tell Xin'er everything he had done since he was a child, even including the troubles he had since he was a child. For example, one day he walked on the street and picked up a copper plate, and he was proud in his heart, so he stepped into the pit with one foot, and fell into the pit solidly, and the copper plate fell out and couldn't be found, but Tang Xiaojiu laughed at it for a while.

Both of them are half-grown and not big, ignorant and ignorant, so they are naturally the most deed-cast. Xin'er is cute, her skin is snow-white, her eyes are as black and bright as paint, she always has a few small braids on her head, she likes to dress pink or white, and she is a little fairy in Lu Zheng's eyes. And she has a gentle personality, cute words and deeds, and is usually eccentric, but she always shows her intelligence that surprises Lu Zheng at critical times.

In addition to being coquettish, Xin'er's favorite thing is to tease the silly Lu Zheng, and then stand aside and giggle at Lu Zheng. However, Xin'er is also the most considerate and caring for people, and Lu Zheng is dedicated to caring and pleasing people, the two get along day and night, and they are very happy all day long, and there are no conflicts at all.

The two often run around in the Sun Moon Mansion, their little pigtails jumping and jumping, and they suddenly stopped every time they ran, and beckoned to Lu Zheng: "Little brother, come here!" or shout: "Little brother, come and pull me!" Or shout when you are tired of running: "Little brother, you carry me back!"

Xin'er also likes this little brother who has a weak personality, a delicate mind, and is a little stupid, and is willing to confide in the little brother if he has any little secrets in his heart.

One day, Xin'er couldn't find Lu Zheng anywhere, and wondered where the little brother had gone, so he went to ask the teacher Li Yi, but Li Yi said with a straight face that he didn't know, picked up a book and read it, and ignored her.

How could the teacher not know about the things in the Sun Moon Mansion? Xin'er Bingxue was smart, and knew that the teacher didn't want to tell herself, but this made her even more strange, so she ran to ask Mr. Le. Unexpectedly, Mr. Le, who has always been straightforward, was also hesitant, and said a few words that did not look for margins, which probably meant not to disturb Lu Zheng now. Looking at Xin'er's little face with a confused face, Mr. Le slapped his forehead, said loudly to change his clothes, and then fled his body and slipped away.

Xin Er screamed again and again, but Mr. Le still slipped away very fast, so angry that she pouted, her heart was strange and anxious, what happened to the little brother, why didn't the two gentlemen tell themselves? Could it be that the little brother was hiding by himself? Then you must find him.

Xin'er recalls the places she often goes with her little brother. I remembered that my little brother liked to follow him to the flower garden to water the flowers, which was the homework that the teacher Li Yi asked Xin'er to do. From the first day Xin'er entered the Sun Moon Mansion, Li Yi, as a teacher, took Xin'er to the depths of the flower garden, handed her a flower seed for her to plant, and told her to take good care of it and let her plant flowers.

I don't know what kind of flower seed this seed is, my heart has been planted for a year, and it didn't just break the ground and sprout until the day Lu Zheng came to Sun Moon Lu. In the past three months, only two leaves have grown, which makes Xin'er very happy, and feels that it is the good luck brought by the little brother. Therefore, the two often come together to water the flowers, pull the weeds, and take care of this strange seedling.

Xin'er walked into the flower garden for a long time, and sure enough, she found Lu Zheng there. When she saw Lu Zheng, he was sitting with his back to her and his knees under a tall golden polo flower. Xin'er was about to call her little brother, but found that Lu Zheng's back shrugged, and then heard his suppressed crying.

The little brother was crying! This made the heart startled, so he swallowed back the voice he had just shouted, walked forward carefully and slowly, trying not to make too much noise, and then reached out and patted Lu Zheng's back, and shouted: "Little brother!"

Lu Zheng turned his head, his face was full of tears, if it was usual, he would definitely wipe away the tears quickly and not let his heart see it. But today, for some reason, Lu Zheng didn't seem to see her, just glanced at her, turned his head away, and didn't say a word.

Xin'er saw that the little brother's face turned numb, and his eyes showed infinite sadness. That kind of sadness reveals a feeling of despair, which makes the heart sad. She remembered that one day she broke into her mother's room and saw her mother sitting alone on the edge of the bed, crying with one of her father's clothes in her hand.

Xin'er cautiously asked, "Little brother, what's wrong with you?" Why are you crying, have you been scolded by the teacher again?"

Lu Zheng didn't answer her, there was a silent aura around him, which made her heart feel a little heavy, she was inexplicably a little scared, but she still mustered up the courage to ask: "Little brother, you speak, are you ignoring your mind?"

Lu Zheng opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something, but Zuihou only moved his lips a few times, and didn't say anything, tears flowed down from the corners of his eyes.

Xin'er didn't know what to do for a while, so she stood silently next to her. It took a long time before Lu Zheng spoke, his voice was low and hoarse, with a trance: "Weishenme is not me, but the ninth brother, so I won't be so uncomfortable, right?"

Xin'er realized that the little brother hid and cried because he was sad for the little ninth brother, so the teacher and Mr. Le were embarrassed to say it. No wonder the little brother's eyes just now looked exactly the same as when her mother was crying before, so she followed Lu Zheng's words and said, "Little brother, it's not like this. If it were you who died, Brother Xiao Jiu would be as sad as you, so would Little Brother rather Brother Xiao Jiu be so sad or would he rather be so sad?"

Lu Zheng was stunned by Xin'er's words, he had never thought about problems like this. Ever since he knew that Tang Xiaojiu was dead, he always felt as if he was being pressed by a big stone, and he couldn't break free. Sometimes, that uncomfortable feeling even made him feel that Brother Jiu was too bad, worse than that monster, so he left so suddenly, without even saying a word, leaving him alone in this world.

Now that Xin'er asked this, he remembered that if the dervishes hadn't saved him that day, he would have died first. If that monster was killed by the dervish that day, then it would be the ninth brother who survived like this. If it was Brother Jiu who survived, would Brother Jiu be as sad and sad as he is now?

Lu Zheng thought of Tang Xiaojiu's character, and knew in his heart that Brother Jiu must be as sad as himself, and he would never be a little less than himself. However, Brother Jiu is a very strong person and has a big heart, and he will not cry all the time like himself. How he should live, how he will live, but it doesn't mean that he won't be sad. Thinking of this, Lu Zheng's heart came to mind Tang Xiaojiu's hippie smile again.

But when it comes to making yourself sad and painful like this, or simply dying a hundred times and letting Tang Xiaojiu survive and be sad? Lu Zheng couldn't think clearly for a while, because if he really died, maybe he wouldn't know if it was painful or not, and he might forget everything.

Lu Zheng once heard a story that said that everyone had to drink a bowl of Meng Po soup after death, and after drinking that bowl of Meng Po soup, people would forget all the things in this life. It's just that in this way, wouldn't he forget the ninth brother? In this case, Lu Zheng is unwilling, the ninth brother must never forget, even if he is dead. In that case, it's not good to feel like you're dead.

But to be alive, to remember Brother Jiu, it will make him feel so uncomfortable, so uncomfortable that he feels that it is better to die, forget everything, and feel less uncomfortable. There are contradictions on the left and right, if you are alive and always make people feel so painful, then what should you do?

If we had known that this was the result, it would have been better for the two of them to be little beggars on the streets of Qinglong Temple in peace, so why should they go to Qinglong Temple to steal money? It is better to listen to the words of Leper Qi, at least live a peaceful and stable life, and not become a life and death as today. But thinking of this, Lu Zheng thought again, if that was the case, it would be impossible for him to be heartbroken, which was very bad.

After thinking about it, Lu Zheng's heart was like a mess, he couldn't think clearly, and he always felt that what he did was wrong. He remembered that on the Mountains of the Two Realms, the dervishes had said that people suffer because they asked for too many things. At that time, he didn't understand very much, but now that he thinks about it, isn't he asking too much, and he wants the ninth brother to live, and he wants to yujian's heart, no wonder he is so painful. But then again, is it a mistake to want Brother Jiu to live and to think about Yujian's heart?

Xin'er is usually eccentric and seems to have no worries, how can she ask such a difficult question to answer? Lu Zheng thought for a long time, but still couldn't think of how to answer, and when he looked up, he saw Xin'er staring at him, Xin'er's eyes were very beautiful, like two small crescent moons.

Xin'er saw that the little brother was stupidly staying there, frowning for a while, pursing his lips for a while, and seemed to be stumped by his own question, so he said again: "Little brother, don't you be afraid, okay?"