cpa300_4();“ My mother once said that if my father abolished you, he divorced you and no longer wanted you to be his wife. He gave you a divorce, but now he has gone to give happiness to other people, what about my mother and my father? Does my mother still like my father?"

I didn't expect that she would ask me this question.

I really didn't think she could ask this question.

Recalling that when I married Pei Yuanxiu, everyone was talking about whether I should marry or not, whether I could marry, whether I was worthy of marrying, but she was the only one who asked me if I liked it and whether I was willing to marry.

And now, she's asking me if I still have love for his father.

My daughter doesn't seem to care about worldly opinions, and she doesn't have too many shackles and shackles, she values feelings very much......

However, it seems that he also takes feelings a little too seriously.

I thought about it and shook my head at her: "My mother doesn't love him, just like he doesn't love my mother." ”

Her eyes flickered, and there was a faint hint of panic and nervousness in her eyes, and she asked again, "Then, does my mother hate him?"

“……”

I thought about it, but shook my head.

This time, the light in her eyes was visibly chaotic.

Perhaps, because as soon as this daughter appeared in front of me, she was so naughty and foolish, naïve and ignorant of the world, or maybe, because I wanted to make up for the lack of maternal love over the years, I have been carefully caring for her, and unconsciously, I always regarded her as the little girl when we first met.

However, she really grew up.

I want to perfunctory her with words again, but as soon as I look down, I can see her clear but serious eyes, which are flashing with maturity and wisdom beyond this age, but with a kind of innocence that is almost reckless, and put herself in her shoes, thinking about the unknown happiness she has experienced in the past two days, and she is silently suffering, and she can't say anything if she is perfunctory.

If you want to perfunctory her anymore, you can't do it anymore.

I said seriously: "Li'er, my father and mother have experienced a lot of things at the beginning, and a lot of things have happened between us. But now, my mother has married your father, and your father is also giving happiness to other people. There is no love or hate between us anymore. ”

"......" Li'er hesitated for a moment before asking: "Then, my mother doesn't love or hate my father, so what else?"

I smiled: "There's still Li'er." ”

"Then, apart from Li'er, how can my mother neither love nor hate my father?"

Looking at her big eyes, I thought for a while, and said gently: "Li'er, the relationship between people is not only love and hate, in addition to love and hate, there will be many other emotions. admiration, admiration, confidant, disgust, hatred, contempt...... There are too many, and even the relationship between people and people will not be just love or hate. These, my mother will tell you for the time being, and when you grow up in the future, you will naturally understand. ”

She said, "Mother, isn't it old enough to leave your son?"

I smiled and stroked her head, but I didn't answer her question, just said softly: "Mother hopes that my mother's son will never grow up." ”

“……”

She was obviously a little confused by me, but she seemed to understand something, and looked down and thought for a long time.

When she raised her head again, she asked me another question: "So, what about my mother and my father?"

“……”

"At that time, I asked my mother, and my mother said, you may like Daddy. And now—"

My heart felt as if it had been stabbed by a red-hot needle, and the pain that had been forgotten came to my heart again, and suddenly, the blood on my face faded, leaving only a miserable white.

I took a deep breath, suppressed the hidden pain in my heart, and said, "Li'er, why do you keep asking these questions today. ”

She was stunned for a moment, and was about to say something, when I said again: "You yourself say that you are already old, in fact, even if your father does not appear, you should be a famous lady by your father's side, Li'er, you should know what it means to be indecent for a girl." ”

“……”

I smiled faintly: "Li'er, you have to know that you are ashamed." ”

She seemed to sense something when she heard me say those words, and lowered her head.

I said, "Today is the last time you ask these questions, and in the future, don't ask them again." ”

“……”

"When you should understand, even if you don't want to understand, you will definitely understand, but when you shouldn't understand, no matter what your mother says, you won't understand. ”

Maybe it was because my words were a little heavy, or maybe she realized the meaning of these questions, her face flushed slightly, and after a while, she muttered: "Actually, in fact, Li'er didn't want to ask these things clearly, I just-"

"Just what?"

She raised her eyes to look at me, her expression was like a frightened kitten, and she said cautiously: "Mother, Li'er wants to ask her mother to promise one thing." ”

"......" I frowned.

Although Li'er didn't grow up by my side, after all, it has been so many years since we reunited, and I also understand that she grew up in pampering when she was a child, and there was no word "ask" in her world, but now, she carefully said the word "ask" to me.

I realized something immediately.

"Can my mother accompany me across the river tomorrow?"

“……！”

This question was like suddenly casting a heavy stone in my deliberately calm heart, which suddenly stirred up violent waves and ripples.

I took a deep breath: "Do you want your mother to accompany you across the river?"

As soon as I finished asking, I saw her slightly lowered eyes.

And I immediately understood, and I also regretted asking this sentence a little.

What else could it be - she already knew that it was her father, and she also felt the fatherly love passed on by her biological father for the first time, this child who had left his parents not long after birth, even if he had Pei Yuanxiu's pampering, Han Ruoshi and Han Zitong's care, but after all, she was not by her biological parents' side, she could not have no regrets, and she could not have no desires.

She hoped that I could cross the river and accompany Pei Yuanhao with her.

When I thought about it, I immediately felt a sour feeling in my heart, but my brows gradually wrinkled.

Accompany her across the river, with Pei Yuanhao?

Li'er said: "As long as it is one day, you and your father will play with me, okay?"

“……”

Looking at her longing look, I almost softened my heart and was about to agree, but intellectually I was pulled back.

I can forgive others, but it doesn't mean that I will forget the pain so quickly, I will never forget the more than two years that I was imprisoned in the cold palace by Pei Yuanhao, nor will I forget the days and nights when I hid in the water pagoda, and I will not forget the days and nights when I was by Chang Qing's side, every day I was afraid to see him, and every day was like walking on thin ice.

I can't forget who made me escape from that life.

He paid the price of almost his life and ruined half of his face, and now he wants me to cross the river to meet Pei Yuanhao, this is undoubtedly a sheep's mouth, although he looks so peaceful and gentle every day now, but as long as he has that thought, an order, I will fall into the original predicament again.

I can't spend the rest of my life like that!

I thought about it for a while, and said euphemistically: "But mother-"

But before I finished speaking, Li'er timidly said, "Dad may be leaving." ”

“…… What?"

"Dad, he might be leaving. ”

"He's leaving?"

"Hmm. She nodded, her eyes seemed to be slightly red, and said, "After shopping during the day today, my father took me to the restaurant to rest and eat snacks, and I also listened to books." When we were sitting on the second floor drinking tea, we suddenly heard a loud noise downstairs, as if someone was dropping something, crackling, but it was scary. ”

My heart chuckled.

Li'er said: "I thought that downstairs was singing Wusheng's play." ”

"What about Pei - your father, how is he?"

He just sat there drinking tea, like nothing. ”

“……”

The storyteller was terrified, and he had a silver ingot, and he told him to tell the story well. ”

“…… And then?"

"Later, the Lord Wu came up, with an ugly face, and asked him to 'move', and the two of them went to another compartment to talk, in fact, I also heard that Lord Wu said that someone was injured, as if he had said something -- 'there is a lot of danger', and asked him to hurry back to Beijing. Mother, going back to Beijing is going back to Beijing, right?"

"Somebody's hurt? Who's hurt?"

"I don't know, but it looks like it's his guards. ”

"......" I frowned.

Li'er's description isn't too clear, but I get it completely.

Pei Yuanhao was assassinated today!

However, his assassins were obviously not fully prepared, so they listened to the book on the second floor, and the assassin was only found downstairs, and after a fight, Wu Yanqiu came up and asked Pei Yuanhao to move, apparently under the orders not to reveal his identity in front of Li'er, just like the days he spent with him in Yangzhou Mansion when I lost my memory, he invited Pei Yuanhao back to Beijing, apparently aware of the strict nature of the problem.

Yangzhou Mansion was taken back by Liu Qinghan, and the imperial court itself had an assassin again!

What does this mean?!

And Wu Yanqiu said that "there are many crises" and asked him to return to Beijing, that is to say, he is going back to Beijing!

He's leaving!?

Although I don't know what the purpose of his coming to Jiangnan was, he was in Yangzhou, which did cause too much sense of crisis to many people in the south, and even the entire Central Plains became unstable.

But—

Will he really go?

We have been speculating before, what is the purpose of his southward journey, but now almost nothing has happened, is he really just going to sea, for the sake of the Franc machine artillery that "does not exist" at all, and now he is going to return to the capital empty-handed?

I was a little stunned for a moment.

When I think about it carefully, I really can't think of it, and I can't see that he has any other purpose in going south.

Moreover, after all, he is now the Venerable of Ten Thousand Times, and his status as a prince is different from before, even if he faces the Longtan Tiger's Den like the Huisheng Medicine Shop, he dared to go to the life and death appointment with Changming Sect in the Red Leaf Temple, but now, every qiē is different.

If there were assassins in Yangzhou, as Wu Yanqiu said, it would indeed be a crisis, and he really shouldn't stay outside the imperial city.

Well, maybe he's really leaving.

I looked down at Li'er, only to see that she was also looking at me, her big eyes were full of hope and expectation: "Mother, I hope that my mother will also cross the river before my father leaves, and the three of us will stay in Yangzhou for a day, is it okay?"