When the album "Don't Mind" was first released, it had no lyrics, and Kurt sang it very vaguely, most people couldn't hear the lyrics clearly, and the song "Teenage Heart" was even more difficult to understand, and many people didn't understand what the song was about.

So, in the beginning, many TV stations refused to broadcast the song, and even a professional rock radio station replied, "We can't play this, I don't understand what the fuck that guy is singing!" Even if the radio station later agreed to play the song "Youthful Heart", it did not cause much waves, and it was not until the TV station began to play the music video on a loop that the song really became popular, probably because of this reason.

Kurt's lyrics have always had a referential meaning or deep meaning, and years later, when people studied Nirvana's music, they always liked to understand the deep rock spirit from Kurt's lyrics. The song "Youthful Heart" is one of the best.

"Load the gun with ammunition, bring your friends, and even if you lose, you have to pretend, that's the fun." In fact, this is a call for the younger generation to gather together and participate in the rebellion and revolution. If you hit, don't be convinced even if you lose, on the contrary, you should take pleasure in it, and use the non-mainstream entertainment spirit and game spirit to fight against those orthodox, rigid and indifferent mainstream spirits, which is a typical juvenile spirit.

"She's extremely bored, she's so confident, oh no, I know a dirty word. Harrow, Harrow, Harrow, Harrow? Harrow, Harrow, Harrow, there are many. Flow? Harrow, Harrow, there are many downs. Stream, there are many down. Flow? ”

Here is a metaphor for challenging the mainstream authority by accosting a beautiful woman, the kind of arrogant beauty who is "extremely boring and extremely confident" is the most difficult to talk to, as if it were the mainstream idea. Therefore, in the face of her indifferent height, young people should not care more and more, and deliberately say dirty words to her to tease her, this is the spirit of the game and the spirit of entertainment!

Actually, this is something from Kurt and Courtney Love. love) can be seen in this anecdote.

1 At the Music TV Awards, Kurt meets their mortal enemies, Guns and Roses, and Curtney deliberately confronts Xel-Roth (AXL). Rose) joked, "Would you like to be our daughter's godfather?" ”

The pinnacle of rock 'n' roll of the Guns and Roses collapsed because of the birth of Nirvana, and the huge transformation from a top superstar to a rising star made the hot-tempered Xsol directly enraged, and he yelled at Kurt, "Why don't you let your." Shut up your stinky mouth? ”

And Kurt didn't get angry at all, but deliberately smiled at Courtney and said, "Shut your stinky mouth,." Child! ”

Kurt's cooperation made Xel know that he had been tricked, he raised his fist and was about to use force, and cursed Kurt for being "gay", but he was backstage at the awards ceremony, so he was stopped by the people around him.

"I couldn't help but laugh out loud because I hadn't been in a situation like that since sixth grade." ”

"When the lights go out, the danger is reduced. We're here, entertain us! I felt stupid, but it was spreading. We're here, entertain us! ”

In fact, this is the mentality of teenagers when they participate in the pie, which in the eyes of the mainstream is a dangerous, stupid, and boring party; But in Cotter's view, it is precisely because of the weirdness and stupidity that it will be shocking and infectious, and let more people know about the existence and efforts of the non-mainstream. The focus is not on the way of expression, but on the true meaning of behavior, which is the true spirit of youth.

"A Mutola! An albino! A mosquito! My libido! Yes! Hey! Yes! ”

This lyric is also the most controversial part, as several unrelated nouns are listed here, but they are clearly not chosen at random.

Mutora is a Spanish word meaning mulatto, a word that bears the color of the early Spanish colonization of America, derived from the Spanish word mule, which means miscellaneous. Delivered.

People with albinism have white skin due to a lack of melanin, and they can't see the sun or they will be burned. But they are under greater pressure from society, because they are seen as aliens, discriminated against and ostracized by mainstream society, and in some parts of Africa they are even killed - because the bodies and organs of people with albinism are widely used in witchcraft and sell for a good price.

Mosquitoes are considered to be the shady character of vampires and are also spurned by people. Libido is sex. Impulsiveness means, meanwhile, in psychology it also refers to excitement and impulsivity towards other activities.

In fact, it is very simple, the first three words are all in the same situation as the non-mainstream, not accommodated and recognized by the mainstream society, and the last libido seems to indicate that the non-mainstream is a new force, full of energetic excitement and impulse, and releases energy in the subsequent roar.

Of course, there is also a common saying that Cotter uses these words to refer to the non-mainstream, primarily to rhyme and fill in the gaps in the syllables, and has no deeper meaning. This statement was echoed by Dave, the drummer of Nirvana, because it only took Kurt five minutes to complete the lyrics after figuring it out.

"I forgot why I went to taste it, oh yes, I guess it made me smile, I found it difficult, hard to find. Oh well, whatever, don't mind. ”

This passage is most in line with the adolescent mentality: we try something new just to taste it, and it doesn't have to be a strict, noble, or great reason. If you have to give a reason, it's because it's forbidden by the mainstream, so try it. This is a typical rebellious mentality.

It is precisely because of this strong rebellious psychology that it has inspired the rise and prosperity of non-mainstream underground culture. And once the non-mainstream rises, it gradually occupies the territory and becomes the new mainstream, and then when we look back at the original non-mainstream movement, we will forget that our original intention is not to become the new mainstream, but a kind of rebellious psychological struggle.

That's what the hippie movement is, it's like the punk movement, and so is the rise of Nirvana.

Here's a very famous example of the famous "simley" of Nirvana. face)" pattern. There is no definite conclusion as to the origin of this smiley face, but the most widely said is that it comes from Axel Ross of Guns N'S Roses: when Nirvana was recording "Don't mind", Kurt casually drew this smiley face when he had nothing to do, and said that he drew Xel Rose. At that time, someone told him that it was better to draw his eyes as a fork, so that it would mean that Aix was shy. The medicine is hi. So Kurt did so, then put the smiley face on the table and left.

Later, a staff member discovered the graffiti and put it on the leaflet of the "Don't mind" distribution faction, and the smiling face gradually became a classic symbol of Nirvana after Kurt's death.

The reality is so ironic, those so-called Nirvana die-hard fans who wear this smiley T-shirt and even get tattoos on their bodies, they still think that this smiley face represents Nirvana or Kot, but in fact it is the lead singer of Nirvana's biggest rival, Guns and Roses.

When Nirvana released the album "Don't Mind", they didn't anticipate what would follow, and when they had become an epoch-making classic rock band, Kurt was so confused that he couldn't even remember what he had done with the album in the first place: not to be mainstream, but to rebel against it.

In the spotlight of the mainstream media, Kurt loses himself, and he escapes the poison. product in the world. Today, Kurt chose to sing the song "Youthful Heart", not only for the audience, but also for himself. He wanted to find himself.

In an instant, Hugo's eyes were occupied by tears, and he understood the reason why Kurt tried to commit suicide in Rome, he understood the reason why Kurt escaped from the drug rehabilitation center, he understood the reason why Kurt took the initiative to provoke, and he also understood the reason why Kurt sang "Youthful Heart...... This qiē thought is hidden in Kot's decadent, hoarse, vicissitudes, confused, and desperate songs, and that kind of difficult love is like a sharp knife slowly inserting into the heart, and the pain overflows little by little, but people can't cry out.

"Harrow, Harrow, Harrow, Harrow? Harrow, Harrow, Harrow, there are many. Flow? …… A refusal! A refusal! A refusal! A refusal! A refusal! A refusal! A refusal! A refusal! A refusal! ”

Nine times, nine times, nine times, over and over again, the lyrics of "a refusal" were repeated, and that strong resistance and uninhibited resistance slowly seeped out in Kurt's voice, as if venting his dissatisfaction with the whole world.

All the audience under the stage fell into a frenzy, everyone shook their heads wildly and shouted, jumped, and reveled, but no one noticed the despair and pain in Kurt's singing, the tearing pain dyeing the notes bright red, and the desperate gray overwhelming.

How ironic the world is, the self-proclaimed non-mainstream Nirvana Band has become a popular synonym sought after by the mainstream society, the "boyish heart" who shouts against the mainstream has become the crazy spiritual leader of the whole society, the grunge rock that has been given a derogatory label by the mainstream media has become the key to the revival of the rock dynasty, and the Nirvana Band has also been labeled as a "classic non-mainstream" performance, which is really extremely ironic.

Looking at Kurt standing on the stage and roaring to his heart's content, it was as if he was a natural luminous body, attracting the attention of the world, but Hugo saw Kurt's soul drifting away in the wind, lonely Kurt, proud Kurt, narcissistic Kurt, stubborn Kurt, domineering Kurt...... It was like fragments that were released little by little in the musical notes, disappearing into the wind.

Hugo stood still, motionless, as if he had witnessed the last moments of Cotter's life blooming unbridledly, like an epiphany. But what about the ending of Epiphany? Offer. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to Kazakhstan to read it, and vote for the work, and vote for the monthly pass. Your support is the biggest motivation for me to continue creating! )