Zhong Siyuan took the initiative to invite me to her house for dinner, according to her meaning, now I need to calm my mind and experience the life of a normal person, only in this way can I get rid of the psychological shadow, I don't know if what she said is right, I can only choose to believe it now.

After separating from Zhao Yun like this, although the relationship is much easier, but there is no emotional pressure, it becomes less safe, sometimes people need a little pressure, if not, it is likely to be empty and lonely, and even low self-esteem and loneliness, which is easy to get sick.

"I really want to be alone now, to be honest, I'm too uncomfortable, I still haven't adapted to it, after separating from her, I basically have no relatives, if I had known that I would lose all my friends and relatives if I got all this now, then I definitely wouldn't have chosen this path, I shouldn't have returned to China in the first place, and I shouldn't even have been on the same boat with Zhang Xuanxuan."

I really want to complain about Zhang Xuanxuan now, but she is dead, how can I complain, I still watched her die with my own eyes, and she died so miserably and comfortably in front of me.

"These are all things that have happened before, and no one can change them, so you don't blame yourself, why can't you get along with fate, there is no way to escape fate, you have a lot of capital that you can be happy and happy, you don't have to worry about money, you have a woman who really likes you, you are very successful, but you can't see it, you just want to live in the previous world."

Zhong Siyuan patted me on the shoulder, she asked me to hurry up and get in the car, the language was very serious, this was the first time she was angry in front of me, I was not angry at all, I think girls have a little temper and character, which is a good thing, there are many women who are obedient, they are all acting schools, Nana is that kind of woman, with her, at most she lives in a dream.

I don't want to live in a dream, so I can only find a way to live in reality, this time Zhong Siyuan is in charge of driving, I sat on the co-pilot, watching her drive, suddenly felt that she has a good character, the car started slowly, she is still very stable, not in a hurry to do things, very afraid of something.

"No matter when, I remember to be careful when doing things, especially when driving, you can't drive with your emotions, life is like a car, no matter what the price of the car, ordinary car or luxury car, if you drive according to your emotions, something will happen, especially a sports car, the speed is so fast, you can't brake the car at all, so many big bosses will react in advance, if you don't know the road, just stop and inquire, you can't go on a rampage, it's easy to have problems."

Zhong Siyuan said very vividly, I can hear it, she is teaching me how to behave, in the past, the two of us talked about everything, but now she said this to me, so I seem to have found the feeling of having nothing at the beginning.

I smiled and said, "Maybe I have too many things, so I blinded my eyes, but in fact, I should see clearly, I don't have nothing, I at least have you, right?" ”

Zhong Siyuan recently raised a smile and said: "You still have Xu Jiao, and Dong Qiushui, including Zhao Yun, in fact, Zhao Yun just can't accept that you have so many women, but this doesn't mean that she will hate you, I think after a while, she will accept you, of course, as for how to accept it, I don't know, maybe she and you will return to the original distance." ”

"As long as she doesn't hate me, I'm already very satisfied, as for letting her forgive, I don't feel that qualified, and I don't have that ability, now I can only resign myself to fate."

The car was very stable all the way, Zhong Siyuan's driving skills were also relatively good, when the car stopped, I felt very comfortable, as if I had arrived from this other shore.

The familiar community is still the same as before, because I haven't been here for too long before, so it looks a little intimate, I went upstairs with Zhong Siyuan, and she held my hand all the way, which seemed more intimate.

I still remember that at the beginning, we were very poor, and we didn't dare to accept the gifts given by Zhang Xuanxuan, we were afraid of being nervous and panicked, and we were all young at that time, after all, we had not been in the society for a long time, we didn't understand the society, and at the same time, we felt terrible.

But now it's different, I've been crawling all the way, and after I get to today, almost all levels of people and things can have a simple understanding, so I don't know until now that I was just being used at the beginning, so I don't have to worry about taking things, there is no need to be so scared at all.

If something should happen, it's useless to be afraid, if something doesn't happen, even if you do something, no one will know, this is a magical world, and many things are obscured by dark clouds.

After coming to the door and stopping, Zhong Siyuan frowned and said, "What's wrong with you, you don't look good, did you think of something unhappy?" ”

"No, I'm just a little nervous, your parents are home, right?"

I don't want to tell Zhong Siyuan too much, so as not to worry her, so I can only change the topic and lead this matter to the point that I am more nervous, and people's mouths are really a tool for telling lies, and sometimes they are blurted out lies.

Even if Zhong Siyuan is smart, she can't always understand my heart, but her eyes tell me that she can see that I didn't tell the truth, but she didn't blame me, but let me not be nervous, and said that I was the benefactor of her family.

When the key opened the door, the moment I pushed the door open, I saw the dishes on the table that were full of dishes, all of which were some of my favorite foods, Xia Dongxue sat on the sofa and played with his mobile phone, Zhong Siyuan's father in the kitchen, and Xia Dongxue's mother were busy working.

After Xia Dongxue saw me, she stuck out her tongue with a smile, she didn't look angry at all, I don't know what she thought about Zhang Baoqiang's matter, the person she once loved deeply, has she really forgotten it now, or has he never liked it, or is it just hiding it now, in fact, she is still very angry in her heart.

"What are you doing staring at me, you should stare at Sister Siyuan, Yang Fan, I can tell you, you must not be bothered by me, I don't like you at all, and I even hate it a little."

Xia Dongxue always speaks so openly, but the more she says she hates me, the more I think she is more honest and reliable, and it is best not to hide anything in her heart, such a person is not terrible.

"You are so beautiful, so young, we are not suitable at all, but I think you should change your image first before I like it, first of all, you must be as gentle and lovely as your sister Siyuan, and you must have an understanding heart, your current appearance is completely a child, how can I like a child, let alone fall in love with a child, so tired."

I was also telling the truth, this time Xia Dongxue didn't refute me, she ignored me, Zhong Siyuan asked me to sit on the sofa to rest, and poured me a cup of tea.

The weather outside is relatively cold, and it is a good choice to sit in the room and eat shabu-shabu, especially with Zhong Siyuan and Xia Dongxue, these people who are very familiar, which makes me clearly realize that time flies quickly, and they have grown up.

Especially in summer and winter, the changes are the most obvious, she used to be just a little Lori, but now she is obviously a beautiful girl, and she is slim, she knew a lot about things when she was a child, and now I am afraid she knows a lot.

It didn't take long for Zhong Siyuan's father to come out of the kitchen, and when he saw me, he smiled at me and said hello, obviously he didn't treat me as an outsider, and I also greeted him, and now he is no longer the down-and-out man he was back then.

With my own company, I have made money, and I am very happy to live better than before, so the smile on my face makes me very envious.

I think about it, it's not as good as him, a person who was distressed by me at the beginning, and now he should feel sorry for me in turn, I originally had a home, but now there is no home, the family formed by Dong Qiushui and me basically exists in name only, and the family that Zhao Yun and I want to form is basically impossible.

Xu Jiao wants to form a family with me and leave it to God to make decisions, I think all this seems to be a bit ridiculous, why can't you make your own decisions and make your own decisions.

"Don't see outside, this is your home, just treat this place as your home, Siyuan has always wanted to have a meal with you, and also wants me to meet you, to be honest, I am also very grateful to you, if it wasn't for your help at the beginning, I wouldn't be where I am today."

Zhong Siyuan's father patted me on the shoulder, still more recognized me, not long after Xia Dongxue's mother came out of the kitchen, this woman looked younger than before, after putting on good clothes, she also changed, no longer the woman who ran to the hotel to do business that night.

Such a happy family, in fact, the most important thing is because of mutual tolerance and understanding, so it can be so happy and happy, everyone has shortcomings, including Zhong Siyuan, who looks a little perfect, she should talk about her boyfriend according to normal logic, but she just doesn't talk about it.

I've been waiting for me, a man who doesn't know if he can come together, if he has a normal family, he will definitely oppose it, but she is tolerated enough, no one will blame her, everyone understands her and understands the feelings between us.

Sometimes when I think about it, it's very moving, maybe it's because I haven't experienced the warmth of family since I was a child, that's why it's like this.

"Uncle, don't say that, in fact, you can have today because of your own efforts, I help you because I like Siyuan, if you want to thank Siyuan, thank Siyuan, she is really a good girl, really good."