Rudely looked at his wrist and sighed lightly.

"To be honest, I thought it was cool at that time, I felt very presumptuous, very bold, and happy. In the face of opposition, it is always necessary to resist, right? ”

"The consequence of the rebellion was that I was arrested and sent home and not allowed to go to school."

"Sss

Rude thought of this, and obviously became very irritable, his eyes closed and opened, opened and closed, as if he was running away from some nightmare in his mind.

"I ......"

"It feels like I'm going crazy and breaking down."

"I'm afraid I'll be hurt, so the choice is to lock me up? Don't let me see people, don't let me have friends, just hire a few tutors for me, that's all I have to live? ”

"I'm also very rebellious, I don't let me play, I just want to play, I don't want to go where I don't want to go. I just want to do what I don't want to do. ”

"I want to say 'no' to everything I've been through, I want to live my life, but I don't know what to do."

"I'm really depressed, so depressed......"

"So, I went to be a streamer, and at first I wanted to have fun, but in fact, I also vented my emotions, played games, and met people."

"At the beginning, I was aimless, I think my life is like that, the path has been planned for me, although I dropped out of school, but after resting, what books to read, the students' skills are clear."

"It's like being pinched by the neck to live, and every step is careful."

"I ......"

Rude frowned, not knowing how to express this feeling, paused for a long time, and continued.

"I think it's a terrible feeling. It really sucks, I don't like it, I didn't even have my own preferences growing up. ”

"What you like to eat and wear, what you love, what you hate, your parents have to manage, and these must be regulated."

"Oh I remember, the reason for the first time I cut my wrists was what, it was because of a dinner party, I was greedy and secretly took a piece of pastry. When I ate it, it was a little crusty, and the cake rubbed on my nose. ”

"As a result, my father thought that I was not educated enough to eat pastries, and scolded me for half an hour in front of everyone...... I really don't scold, I can't scold and scold. ”

"When I went back that day, I took a knife and carved a small ninja character on my wrist, and the next day I felt too hypocritical, so I used the knife to scratch again."

"Well, I found out later that when I was like this, they were afraid, and they could compromise a little bit, so as not to treat me as a wooden man, so when I wanted to start the live broadcast, I scratched my wrist again."

"Well, this time I'm going to play e-sports, and I'm cutting it again. But I cut it with another hand, and no one seems to have noticed it, and Yaoyao didn't notice it either. ”

Before his birthday, Rude and Xing Quan deliberately lost a game to let Yaoyao come over,

At that time, the cufflinks of the clothes worn by Rude were tightly buttoned.

It turned out that it wasn't because he suddenly changed his style, but there was an injury on which wrist.

Mu Shao's expression changed slightly.

"You've always been like this?"

Rude nodded, looked at Mu Shao from the corner of his eye, and said with a smile.

"Ah, yes. It's really depressing, no way, this time, I thought that the birthday party, I had to fight for a little freedom, but I didn't expect Yaoyao to change my freedom directly. ”

"Hey, I don't want to."

Rudely raised his hand and untied the cuff of his left hand, revealing a smooth, white arm.

Just when he turned his arm over, he could see a shocking scar on it.

"I also know that my father loves me, but his love is so stubborn that I can't breathe. I'm grateful to Yaoyao for saving me once, but I'm still causing her trouble......"

Mu Shao said.

"Yaoyao won't mind."

Mu Shao said, "If you take care of yourself, she will be happy." Don't think about it so much, if possible, Yaoyao will come to you for your birthday in the evening. ”

Rude "tsk".

"Tsk, it's impossible, I'm so bad, I don't deserve ......"

As soon as he finished speaking, as if to slap him in the face, his cell phone rang.

Liu Rufu: Good night~