said rudely, and couldn't help but "tsk", especially disgusted with himself.

"I'm so sad, it's not right, no, no."

Saying this, the expression on his face turned irritable, but the boredom in his heart was not less at all.

Bother.

It's just annoying.

Mourning.

It's mourning.

His mourning is not good, there is no way, usually he is optimistic and arrogant when it is good, but once he mourns, he feels the trough, and suddenly everything is meaningless.

He doesn't want to cause trouble for others.

He cares about Tong Yaoyao very much.

That's the same as:

He caused trouble for the people he cared about most.

As soon as Rude thought of this, his mood began to be irritable, and he subconsciously wanted to bite his lip and bite his lip fiercely...... Until blood runs down the lips.

He bit his lip.

In fact, Rude lips have been taking care of them, so their lips look moisturized, but fans in the Rude live broadcast room know that rudeness will always "get hot".

As soon as it gets on fire, it rots the corners of the mouth, so the lips always bleed.

Fans collectively turned into straight men and advised Rude to "drink more hot water", but the symptoms of Rude did not get better.

Because, not at all, it's not on fire.

It was bitten by him.

Rude has a slight bipolar disorder, and when he is in a good state, he is not too excited, but once he starts to feel sad, he will be weak.

"I felt like I wasn't lying on the ground, I was lying in a black hole. I'm falling, falling, falling to the bottom of the abyss that I don't even know about. ”

"Weightlessness, fear, and confusion."

"I know it's wrong, but I can't control myself, I'm just constantly falling, falling, my head is full of bad thoughts, I can't get rid of it."

"If you can't get rid of it, don't bring it to Yaoyao."

Mu Shao, who had not spoken, suddenly said, when he spoke, his eyes looked ahead, not knowing where he was looking.

Rudely tugged at the corners of his lips.

"I know, I won't, I'm just going to bruise myself and I'm not going to pollute my sun."

Speaking of this, Rude suddenly hooked his lips and smiled, he raised his hand, and then slowly opened his eyes, looking at his hand stretched out to the sun.

Sunlight shines through the fingers.

He squinted slowly, withdrew his fingers, and slowly grasped the sunlight.

"I'm a terrible person, I don't know how to describe it. I feel like I don't have love. I feel like I'm ...... Congenital shortcomings of what. I respect my parents, but I always have a hard time trusting them. ”

"Yaoyao said, my father loves me, I know, but I don't know how to love him, or rather, I don't know if I will love or not."

"Hey, it seems to get more complicated the more you explain."

"To put it simply—"

Mu Shao said suddenly.

"To put it simply, you haven't been loved well by your parents. It's not that you weren't born without the ability to love people, but you won't, you haven't met. ”

After Mu Shao finished speaking, he was rude for a moment, and then smiled a little helplessly.

"I know my father loves me. He loves me, just ......"

"It's just that he has been too strict with me since I was a child, and he has been too strict with our friends, which makes me feel very suffocated. Communication problems, we don't understand each other. ”

"So, I was very depressed, and when I was trying to find a way to digest this depression, I chose to self-harm."

Rudely said, looking at the tattoo of thorns on his wrist.

Very beautiful tattoo.

But it is.

To cover the scar on the wrist.