Chapter 19: Love and Hate
"What about the other woman?" Suddenly, Ah Duo asked softly, in a low voice, as light as a breeze blowing.
I calmed down the complicated feelings that were surging in my heart, and lowered my gaze: "I hate him and want to die......"
A long silence flowed through the air, and looking at the figure among the flowers, my heart hated, but it hurt very much.
Can I really kill him?
I really......
Do you want to do it to him......
After he hurt my lover, after he broke my heart, my heart will still hurt for him.
When I first came to this world, I met him, saw him, and believed in him first.
When he put his shoes on my feet, when he lifted my body and said that he would take me back for healing, his name was already imprinted in my heart: Hoshikawa.
Why......
We can't always ...... Get along well......
I took a deep breath and exhaled a long breath: "In his life, he has never been loved well, he has been abandoned by others, his parents abandoned him, his grandfather abandoned him, the woman he loved abandoned him, he became unwanted, he is better than dead, but he wants to die now, but he can't, because he still has his value, he still wants to be here, and continues to be used by others." Ah Duo, I know I'm not qualified to let you let go of the past......" I looked at her, she immediately turned her face away, and finally after so many days, there was a reaction and a movement.
"But how many people in this world can have a good past? Many people have all sorts, tattered, and unbearable pasts, even Ah Fei lives in fear of being eaten by Margaery all day long......"
Ah Duo raised his face slightly and looked at Ah Fei's body, Ah Fei's body tensed in the air and tightened his fists.
"Look at him, he wants to die, but he doesn't even have the right to choose to die, he still wants to live here, continue to be used by others, and continue to suffer......" Ah Duo slowly looked at the pale figure in the flowers again in my voice, I held Ah Duo's hand on his knee, "You at least have the right to choose death, if you want to die, I can fulfill you at any time, but, is it really worth it?" It's about to have a good day, and the people who love you are by your side, we can start all over again, you still have a lot of good life, decades of good life, and now it's really worth dying......"
Ah Duo's hand clenched in my palm, and tears suddenly dripped down the back of my hand holding her hand.
"I, I don't want to go back...... I don't want to, I don't want to go back......" Ah Duo cried completely, Ah Fei hugged her anxiously: "Ah Duo! Ah Duo ...... "Ah Fei also choked up.
"Ah Fei......" Ah Duo hugged Ah Fei and screamed in pain, "I don't want to go back...... Don't want to...... Go back ......."
Ah Fei choked and nodded: "Okay, if you don't go back, we won't go back!" ”
I stroked Aduo's back, got up, and cried.
I turned my face to look at the figure among the flowers, but he had already turned to look at me quietly, I looked at him expressionlessly and coldly, he could still save someone before he died.
The breeze blew through the flowers between us, the colorful petals flew between us in curls, our hair was raised together, and the chaotic petals became more and more, covering his empty and lonely gaze, and also covering his slender and weak figure.
When the wind stopped and the flowers fell, there was no one there, and he was like an afterimage in time and space, completely shattered in time and space in the storm of time and space.
"Mom-Mom-" Xiaoka hurried over again, I looked at him, and he ran up to me, his face flushed, "Uncle Yin Si is calling, I want to communicate with you." ”
"Got it." I gently stroked Ka's head, and Ka was so cute.
I looked at the people who were still hugging and crying, smiling easily, if I could cry, there was still hope of living, I turned around and left silently, a better tomorrow is coming, now I am dead, how unwilling......
A transport ship flew past me, huge shadows falling around me, and I looked up and smiled as it went away. This is to pick up people from District 1, and Alexetta is in charge, as well as other people from District 1 to pick up their family. Only by the people of your own district will the people there who are trembling be reassured.
I look at that ship, there's a lot more to do. For example, uniform dress, this is still necessary, a handsome uniform will make people look spirited, and it will also produce a special cohesion.
In Noah City, the tooling is also unified, and according to the different positions, the face is * points.
I like shawls, I think shawls like Magister are cool, I can let Ah Gu design it another day, Ah Gu is quite talented in designing clothes.
Then the ship will also be repainted and sprayed with our logo, so that it will be like a country, an army, and not a rabble.
I went back to the office and turned on the communicator, and Yin Si looked like he was sitting in a spaceship, and it looked like he had left the Oni King Capital.
He folded one leg and dragged his hand towards me: "Old girl, it's a war, go fight the airship of Lingbis, I'll make peace with you." ”
"No, no." I threw the two words directly, the almost fell off the seat, I ran my hand through the air, and the camera above turned out the window, "I'm busy, I'm going to build a country." ”
"Huh?!" Yin Si opened his mouth wide and his eyes widened, "The war hasn't been fought yet, what kind of country are you building?" ”
"Just because I haven't fought to build a country, and if I build a country, I can deal with a protracted war, I don't trust the big ghost king."
"The Great Ghost King doesn't trust you either." Yin Si said it all of a sudden, and hurriedly covered his mouth, and the scene was a little embarrassing.
I looked at him coldly: "I know, so I want to build my own country, build my own base." ”
"In the Oni Eater?!" He exclaimed, as if it was an incredible thing to build a nest in the Oni Eater.
I looked at him deeply: "That's right, it's in the Ghost Eclipse Clan!" Is it still in Silvermoon City? Aurora Army? The Aurora Army doesn't even have its own base, let alone supplies. But Margaery's area has everything, this broken world, occupying a place is my own, I will build a country here, and the big ghost king can't help me. ”
Yin Si sighed in admiration: "Ha...... It's terrible, it's terrible, old sister, you really have a vision. But you've got to fight anyway. Yin Si changed his sitting posture and his expression became depressed, "It's not because of your sentence: Yin Si is my person, as a result, now the Great Ghost King doesn't trust me anymore." You asked him to wipe out the Demon Destroyer, and now he has left this task to me, and besides, he won't come out alone! How do you let me fight? ”
I couldn't help but sink my face and raised my eyes to look at him: "He didn't come out alone?" "Sure enough, it's the style of the people of Silvermoon City, hmph.