I went out to buy food under the arrangement of Qiyang, I did not go to the canteen of the hospital, for the sake of him being a patient, I forgave him for pointing fingers at me, I came to the small street next to the breakfast sold, it was very lively, most of them were family members who bought food for the patient, some of them were very happy with smiles, and some of them had obvious sadness on their faces.

I feel quite a big gain these days, because the ward is quite close to the intensive care unit, I can see all kinds of patients going in and out these days, the same is out, some go in and come out alive, and some don't open their eyes again, looking at those people, the chest does not rise and fall, at that time, the five flavors in my heart are more than afraid, or there is nothing to be afraid of, unlike the usual ghost movies, the atmosphere of the hospital is rendered, it is completely different.

I remember once I went to the attending doctor of Qi Yang, and I didn't knock on the door before entering the office, mainly because I was used to it, and the doctor was used to it, and there happened to be a patient there at that time, and the doctor happened to look at a watch, and his expression was a little solemn, and he looked at me and then continued to look at the watch.

"It's okay, doctor, you can say it." Although I can't see the face of that person, I can feel extremely dead when I look at the back!

The doctor took a look at it and continued: "The condition is confirmed, but you have been an orphan since you were a child, and you have no family, I can only tell you, you had better be prepared." The doctor spoke softly, and there was a heavy smell throughout the room.

The man's voice was also very low, and he spoke as if it came from hell: "Say it, doctor." ”

"Late stage of malignancy."

The sound is not loud, but it does touch the heart.

The doctor's office was quiet for a few seconds.

"Originally, your attending doctor announced this matter to you, but he has something to do today, so I announced this matter to you, that ......" The doctor said unhurriedly, but every word he said seemed to be a declaration of death, and each one represented the passage of this person's life.

Before the doctor could finish speaking, the man interrupted the doctor's speech, and I thought that the man would cry bitterly when the doctor finished saying the news, but no, nothing, just lowered his head and said, "Doctor, how long can I live?" "Sound has no color, but at that moment I can clearly feel the color of sound in my mind, it is gray, lifeless gray, bitter gray, irreversible gray.

"If you cooperate with the treatment, you can ......" The doctor seemed to want to say some words of comfort, but he still didn't finish it, and I forgot to leave, after all, this is people's privacy, but at this time I can't move, just want to see the development of things next.

"Doctor, how long do I have to live?" The tone of the tone was slightly softened, not as lifeless as just now, but it was still so sad, so it made people feel helpless.

"No more than a year."

Bang Dang! It was as if my brain had been hit hard, and I was suddenly awakened from a groggy state! My eyes widened!

It's only 365 days a year, and there are still a lot of wishes in life that have not yet been fulfilled, what if this happens to me!

My mouth was open, and I couldn't say anything, have you ever experienced that coldness? It's the kind of sudden coldness of the whole body, as if, as if a basin of water suddenly falls from the beginning in the winter! The whole body trembles! From top to bottom, from the inside to the outside, there was no place to be hot, and there was a sharp tension of the cranial nerves.

I suddenly wanted to see what this patient's expression looked like.

"Well, is there anything the doctor needs to explain?" He said, his voice was a little choked, but he didn't cry when he heard the voice.

"That diet is lighter, usually try not to drink, smoke less, rest on time, eat more fresh vegetables and fruits, go out for a walk, of course, mood is the most important, maintain a good mood and don't have too much burden, and then give you the medicine to take on time, don't forget," the doctor explained the precautions one by one, the man just nodded slowly and continuously, and then the doctor said, "It seems that you also understand people, unlike those rich people, Crazy as if let's give them a long life, anyone can understand, but there are really few who are really indifferent, they themselves understand that they can't live for a few days, smart for a lifetime, and some even believe some gossip in the end, saying that cancer can be cured, young man, I don't advise you to stay in the hospital for treatment, you will see if there is any wish to be fulfilled in your last days, if there is anything you want to do, just do it quickly, don't say these words to others, I am a doctor standing in the position of the hospital according to the saying should not say these words, It's just that as a clear bystander, it's really not unpleasant. ”

"Thank you, doctor," said this thank you sadly, it made me very uncomfortable, "if it's okay, doctor, I'll go first." ”

The doctor nodded, and the man went out. The doctor put down his watch and said to me, "Don't talk nonsense about that. ”

My mood was a little dull, I just nodded and didn't speak. I saw that face, it was a very young man, quite young, that is, in his twenties, that face naturally needless to say, lifeless and a little light, it was simply full of lingering haze! Listening to the doctor's words, he is still an orphan, is it true that good people have a short life since ancient times? Why should a boy who is really young and has such a bleak background suffer from this?

"What's the matter, little girl, what are you looking for me?" The doctor told me again.

I was stunned for a long time just now, and when I heard the doctor ask me, I hurriedly replied, "That, I'm Yi Qiyang's girlfriend, I want to ask if he can go to the ground, and he was a little panicked." "I asked the doctor, and my mood suddenly had some indescribable feelings, either uncomfortable, not sympathetic, or blocked in my heart, I couldn't go down or up.

"Oh, that's right, okay, you can try to practice walking underground when someone is helping you, and it will also have some benefits for healing the wound." The doctor told me.

"Oh." I just said one word, but it was a bit rude, because I was in an inexplicably bad mood at the time, so I didn't care about it.

"What's the matter, little girl? Uncomfortable? "The doctor asked me.

I shook my head: "No." ”

The doctor said, "I've seen too many partings of life and death, and you little girl saw a sigh?" ”

"Doctor, is there really nothing that can be done?" I heard from the doctor's words that there was no way to do this, or the doctor would have given up the persuasion and let him go.

"No, this boy can be seen, I have been to my colleague's ward a few times, and the people there are all unrecognizable when they hear the news, but they all have the same attitude, they don't cry and make a fuss, they all listen quietly to the doctor's instructions, nod their heads without a soul, and feel like they are dead," the doctor said to me with great emotion, "At first, it touched me a lot, what are people busy in this life for, in the end there is nothing when a serious illness is gone, but after seeing too many things, I will be numb, But today touched me again, this patient I have been in contact with a lot, orphaned since childhood, helpless, now just after finishing college without working for two years began to get on the right track, a few weeks ago I felt a little headache, at first I didn't pay attention, until the frequency became more and more frequent before I came to the hospital for examination, so this is the result, it is really unfortunate. ”

The doctor is also a man who has seen many lives and deaths, and he can feel how unfortunate it must be to be unfortunate! I was silent, thinking about it, what would we do if it happened to me alive, would we watch each other die and be powerless? I feel like I can't handle this pain!

"Now that medicine is so advanced, can't he prolong his life?" I just don't think the world should be like this, and I still have hope.

"Yes, of course! Do you think it's better to live comfortably in the world for one year, or to live in pain for two years or less with various tubes inserted in the ward? The doctor threw me a question. I was speechless when asked, if it were my own, I would definitely choose the former, but if my most beloved person got sick! For example, if Qiyang is sick? I think I'll choose the latter, I'm sure I can let him live as long as I want, I want him to spend a little more time in this world, or to spend more time with me, and suddenly I feel like I'm selfish! Or I feel that family love is so selfish, but the originally beautiful thing has become a kidnapping, I don't care about other people's thoughts for myself, don't do to others what you don't want to do to others, I now vaguely understand.

"I'll choose the former myself." I say.

"It's old and old, what are you doing so much to tell a little girl, it's really too old," the doctor smiled, "Maybe you chose this, but many people can't see it, especially those who have enjoyed the glory and wealth, they really try to let us prolong their lives, let us use the best medicine, let us use the most advanced equipment, and struggle desperately with death before dying, but they all regret it at the last moment, and in the end they all regret why they didn't live well, Why do you want to spend the rest of your life in the ward," the doctor sighed, "even if I have seen people like me many times in life and death, I dare not say that I can see through life and death, and I can choose at the last moment a decision that I don't want to choose, or maybe the right decision." ”

I don't know what to say, I really don't know what to say, and the words of the doctor are imprinted on my heart word by word.

"Okay, girl, you go, I've said too much, I'm in a much better mood when I spit out some words, thank you, you can talk about that boyfriend too, look like a good guy, don't fight and kill all day long, isn't it good to live well, you told him about it, and I promise him to cherish you and life." The doctor let me go.

"Okay, doctor, thank you, thank you really for telling me so much, I learned a lot today!" I'm going to digest it, it's been a mess for a few minutes!

I pulled myself out from my memories, and I had already bought the rice, the Yongxu buns and the rising meat buns, all of which were bought.

(I'm sorry, readers, the updates must have been late these days, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!) If you really want to see it, don't stay up late.,Of course, I may also be sentimental hahaha.,But I'll still say it.,If you look at it, you can see it the next morning.,Definitely update.,I'm not going to break the update.,In the end, it's still that sentence.,Comment and ask questions! As long as you say it, I dare to adopt it! ）