Chapter 1141: How to Abandon
Obviously, the corridor of the hospital was very busy in the early morning, and everyone was constantly fighting for this terrible flu, but at this time, Tang Ling's ward was extremely quiet.
Tang Ling had been thinking all night with her head stuffed in the bed, and she kept thinking about how to face Fei Langxuan.
She carefully lifted the quilt a little slit, so small that she could only see a slight light in the sky outside.
She moved the pillow up, sat up, and turned her head to look out the window.
What should she do, this kind of thing really makes her very desperate, she doesn't know how to face it, but she has to face it.
She pulled out her phone, thought about it for a long time, and finally pressed the button.
"Can you come over for a moment?"
"Okay." Hearing Tang Ling's voice, Fei Langxuan quickly got up from his chair and ran quickly towards Tang Ling's ward.
I don't know what happened to Tang Ling, she didn't let anyone take care of her for so many days, why was her voice so low just now, did something happen? The more he thought about it, the more he quickened his pace.
"Huhuhu." When he arrived at the door of the ward, he was already out of breath, he held on to the door frame with his hand and looked inside, and when he saw that Tang Ling was fine, he slowed down and walked to the bed, and his brows were relaxed.
Seeing him like this, Tang Ling lowered her head even more, and now the guilt in her heart became stronger and stronger.
"Are you alright?" Fei Langxuan took a chair and sat next to Tang Ling, looking at her weakness, her heart was full of distress, and her hands kept helping her cover the quilt.
"I'm fine." Tang Ling still kept her head down, fiddling with the infusion tube in her hand, wrapping it in a circle and loosening it, over and over again.
Fei Langxuan gently took her hand away and put her hand on the bed peacefully, "Take a good infusion, don't play with this." ”
Tang Ling still didn't look up, probably afraid that he would see her moist eyes, "You're really good." ”
"Of course." As he spoke, he picked up the kettle next to the bed and poured a glass of boiling water.
"Then let's break up." When Tang Ling said this, her voice was not loud and there was some trembling, but she was very firm, and she could hear that she had thought about it for a long time.
"What!?" Faced with Tang Ling's sudden proposal to break up, Fei Langxuan was very excited, and even knocked over the cup that was pouring water.
The broken cup seemed to make it all still, and Fei Langxuan looked at her in disbelief.
She also hasn't looked up, it can be said that she doesn't dare to look up, she really can't look directly at his kind of eyes, if she looks up, she won't be able to make up her mind.
However, this was the best ending for them that she had thought about for a long time, and she quickly wiped away the tears that were about to fall with her hands, and looked up at the person in front of her with a puzzled face.
At this time, the nurse who came to change the infusion bottle broke this terrible and unfaceable scene.
The nurse measured her temperature with an electronic body temperature, stepped forward to look at the hanging infusion bottle, skillfully removed it, and then wrote the name of the medicine on the list.
The nurse didn't say a word during the whole process, because she was also exhausted by her recent busyness.
"Now that there are not enough people, I asked this gentleman to go to the pharmacy with me to get the medicine, and take it according to the previous dose, and I have to rush to other wards to check."
"Okay."
The two of them didn't say anything more, until Fei Langxuan and the nurse went to get the medicine Tang Ling moved, she buried her head in the quilt and kept shaking her head, she really didn't have much courage to say it again, she was afraid of losing, but she had to say it, the events of the last few days rushed into her mind, and she was about to be driven crazy.
Hearing Fei Langxuan's voice not far away, she quieted down again, she didn't want him to see her like this, she didn't want to choose because of her pity.
After a while, Fei Langxuan didn't seem to hear what he had just said, but he couldn't believe that he had ever heard such words from her mouth.
Tang Ling pinched the corners of the sheets, struggled in her heart for a while, and thought about it again, even the tone she should use practiced many times in her heart, how not to hurt him, but how could not, how sad this sentence was, I could think of it.
She finally regained her courage, which was also responsible for him, "Yes, let's separate." ”
Tang Ling said it again, which proved that he had heard it correctly just now.
"Why?" Now she should be the most in need of him, why is it proposed to break up now, "is it ......"
He could probably guess that she had broken up because she couldn't have another child after her miscarriage.
"Yes." Tang Ling lowered her head again and looked at her stomach sadly, "Now that the child has been miscarried, I, too, I can't get pregnant anymore." This time, Tang Ling's tears flowed uncontrollably.
A tear fell on the quilt, although she had been crying all night and sad for several days, she still couldn't control herself when she thought about it.
Listening to Tang Ling's sad and trembling voice, his heart seemed to be pulled by something, he didn't know how to comfort him, "I ......" He was speechless for a while, not knowing what to say.
"I know that not being able to have children is unacceptable to many people, if you mind, it doesn't matter, I won't blame you."
Tang Ling raised her head and forced a smile, she didn't want Fei Langxuan to have too much burden.
After listening to Tang Ling's concerns, Fei Langxuan hugged her, and at the moment she was hugged, she couldn't bear it anymore and cried out loud.
"I'm sorry, really, I, I probably won't be able to be with you anymore." No one would be willing to give up the person she liked so much, but she couldn't help it.
Fei Langxuan buried his head in her hair, let her go again, and got up to stand up.
thought he was leaving, even if she was reluctant, but she couldn't stop it, but she still had a lot of loss in her heart.
Fei Langxuan stood up and picked up the scraps of the cup that had fallen on the ground, and went to the cabinet to take out a new cup and pour it full of water.
"Fei Langxuan, you ......" Seeing this, Tang Ling was a little puzzled, and even more moved.
"I still talk so much, don't hurry up and drink the medicine." He took the poured water and put it on the table closest to the hospital bed, opened the table again, and took out the amount he had to eat every day, one by one.
Tang Ling's tears slipped silently again, this time the tears were hot.
"Why don't you go, we're all separated." It sounds like she's complaining, but in fact, her heart is full of happiness, she wants him to leave but she selfishly wants him to stay.
Fei Langxuan brought the water that had been blown warm by him to her face, and took the medicine over, "Hurry up and drink the medicine, who said that we are going to separate, it was you who said it, and it is not me, if you want to go, I won't go, anyway, if you leave, I will chase after you." ”
Tang Ling laughed suddenly, "How am I going to go like this." ”
"Yes, you can't go like this, and I don't want to go like this." Tang Ling's smile made the feeling of being picked up in his heart disappear in a flash.
He put Shui Heyao aside first, put his arm around Tang Ling's shoulders and looked directly at her with sincere eyes, so that she had nowhere to hide, and she couldn't avoid it.
"You listen to Tang Ling, never want me to stop pestering you for this reason, impossible!"
Seeing Fei Langxuan's serious appearance, she stared at the sun that was about to rise.
It's been a long time since I've been here, the sky is gray every day, and lately it's been even more depressing, and the sun today seems to be shrouded in dark clouds as always, but it seems to show a little light from time to time.
"Fei Langxuan, I'm telling you one thing solemnly now, I, I'm no longer able to have children, even if there is a one percent chance that it won't necessarily happen to me, it can be said that it will definitely not happen to me."
Tang Ling looked at him and saw him frowning, "I know how important a child is to a family, and how important it is to a father. At this, her voice kept chopping.
"You ......"
Before she could continue, Fei Langxuan stopped what she wanted to say.
"Enough, I know what you want to say, I'm with you because I like you, not because I like you to give me a baby, a child is a child, we are us, a couple who like each other will have a child because of their feelings, and they won't lose their feelings without children."
Faced with such an answer, Tang Ling didn't know what to say, she still loved Fei Langxuan, but was she too unfair to him.
"But don't you feel unfair that you lose the possibility of being a father like this?"
"Unfair? I like you so much, I love you so much, in the past few days when you don't let us visit, I have been worrying about you day and night, worrying about whether you are washing your face with tears every day, worrying about whether you are stuffed in the bed and can only cry silently, you know, whenever I think of this, my heart is so sad. ”
Fei Langxuan hung her somewhat messy hair behind her ears, and picked up a tissue to wipe away her tears.
"I received a call from you this morning, and my mind was full of thoughts about whether something would happen to you, whether there was something uncomfortable, I ran over with all my might, and you are now discussing the breakup with me, this is the unfairness I feel."
Fei Langxuan's words were obviously very gentle, but at this time, she felt some sourness in her heart, she didn't know how to face such a person, the more he was like this, the more Tang Ling felt that she was selfish.
Fei Langxuan also knew that no one wanted the occurrence and outcome of this incident, not only would he be sad, but even more sad should be Tang Ling herself, she was obviously looking forward to the child in her womb.
"Don't worry that I'm going to leave you because of this, it hurts my heart more than saying you don't love me, don't ask me if I don't mind not being a father, I don't mind not being with you."
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