(This month, a smile will still try to 3 more, in the last hour of last month, the monthly pass was overtaken by the people behind, to be honest, I was very unhappy.) I've been writing a book for four years, and I'm not much to say, but this supernatural monthly ticket list, if I want to fight for it, I'll fight for this month. This month, I want a monthly pass, and I beg everyone to vote for the kingdom. Ask your friends for support. ）

As the saying goes, if there is a first time, it is inevitable to have a second time, and with a second time, it will be natural.

Xia Qi had always had a string stretched before, and there was an unwavering principle standing there, but as he ate the fat guy and the monkey one after another, it can be said that his principle has been completely destroyed by himself.

Although he did not regret doing so, the desire for blood, for human flesh. Wang, but it has become his "addiction", which has been bothering him these days.

In the past, when he was hungry, he ate two apples and two bites of tomatoes, although they were not as good as big fish and meat, but at least they tasted a little bit, and he didn't eat them like now.

Resistance, to put it bluntly, is that he is no longer willing to accept this status quo of vegetarianism in his heart, or rather, he has no way to resist the desire to eat human flesh and blood by willpower alone. Looked.

If this is just a mental need, then he can still rely on his own perseverance to press on, but in fact this is no longer a mental problem, but a physical problem.

Ever since he swallowed the monkey and the fat guy, he obviously felt that his strength had increased a lot, and even the ghost qi reserves in his body had increased to a certain extent.

This undoubtedly shows that devouring flesh and blood has a great boost to his strength, and if it continues to develop like this, he doesn't even need honor points to complete his own strengthening.

The benefits are great, but so are the disadvantages.

Because I continue to suppress that desire. Wang, he still insists on eating tomatoes and apples every day, but he feels that his physical strength has decreased significantly in the past few days, and he is panting even when he walks a few steps.

I was listless every day, and I was so sleepy that I couldn't open my eyes, but it was really like recovering from drugs, not only mentally tortured, but also physically resistant.

If it is a monkey and they encounter him in this situation, then all the problems will not be a problem, after all, the three-legged toad is not easy to find, but the world is full of two-legged humans, so if you want to solve this problem, just catch a few people and eat it.

But Xia Qi is not a monkey, not the kind to make himself stronger, or to satisfy some kind of desire for himself. hope, they will do whatever it takes to kill innocents.

His body has become less human, and if even his actions, even his thoughts, have become less human, then what is the difference between him and ghosts, and the scumbag of monkeys?

This can be said to be his moral bottom line, he can't cross this line, but this line is pressing him step by step.

It was no longer a question of whether he could control it, because he found that whenever he encountered danger, this desire to kill. The desire will become more intense, even to the point of dominating his body.

So he is very afraid to face this reality at the moment, and he can't accept this reality at all, so he has been struggling strongly lately, and he can't extricate himself.

Sticking the remaining cigarette butts into the ashtray, Xia Qi sighed with a headache, looked at the gray sky outside the window, and explained to himself:

"Take one step at a time, or ...... What can we do? ”

Xia Qi has Xia Qi's worries, and as for Liu Yanmin, he also has a knot that he can't get around.

Except for today in the mall, when he squirmed and said some heartfelt words to Leng Yue and Xia Qi, at other times, he didn't mention anything about the last time.

It's not that he feels that the last incident has no effect on him, and he is just okay if he is simply rescued, but he feels that he has no face to talk to Xia Qi and them about the last time.

Because in retrospect, the role he played in it was really embarrassing.

Everyone was fine, he was captured, if it wasn't for their luck enough, then I think Leng Yue would have died because of his incompetence.

Zhao Jingshu used a magic potion to restore his injuries at that time, but the monkey sneaked up, he almost didn't even have a chance to resist, and was seriously injured by the monkey, if it wasn't for Xia Qi coming to the rescue in time, I'm afraid Zhao Jingshu would die tragically in front of him.

He and Xia Qi can be said to be the first of these people to know each other except for Leng Yue, thinking that Xia Qi was still protected by him at the beginning, he is also one of the indispensable combat forces among everyone.

But what about now? As a ghost object, he can't do it as a pioneer pioneer, he can't do it as an assistant, his mind is still very ordinary, he can't do anything, except for complaining and complaining about Xia Qi's sense of existence, there is no room for him to exist among the people.

In other words, he could no longer find value among the crowd.

What's the point of staying in a team if even the minimum value is lost?

Although Xia Qi and they don't think he is a burden, they treat him as a friend Liu Yanmin, and anyone will help him as long as he is in trouble, but do these mean to themselves?

Ah, it turns out that he, Liu Yanmin, and in this small team, his only value is to make trouble for others? The only value is to be responsible for dragging other people back?

Maybe other people will feel that it doesn't matter, they won't think as much as he thinks, but he is no one else, he is Liu Yanmin, he is a dignified and principled person.

He's a bear now, and even though he's close to being able to completely demonize, he's still weak compared to the others.

Of course, maybe he will be a little stronger than Zhao Jingshu, but what is Zhao Jingshu, she is a support class, she is an enchanter, her own strength may be weaker than him, but the role she can play in the team is definitely much stronger than him.

He can't compare with Zhao Jingshu, and he can't compare with others.

What if the same thing happens again? Is he still waiting for everyone to do everything to save himself? Or do you find a way to directly result in your own life?

His Liu Yanmin's family is gone, his lover and lover are gone, and he finally made a group of friends, do you want to trap them?

Do they have to pay for their weakness?

Maybe his thoughts seem to others to be hypocritical, and there is no need to think like this, but it is still the same sentence, he has his dignity, he has his bottom line, and it has nothing to do with what other people think of him, how they think of him, or whether they don't care.

It was he who felt that he had lost the value of continuing to exist in this team.

Therefore, instead of seeking stability like a dog, it is better to choose to leave alone, leave the protection of everyone, leave this gentle township, and do his best to exercise himself and improve himself, until he finds the value of his existence again. (To be continued.) )