Looking at Ruxue's face from a long distance, I was in a daze for a while, and even forgot to answer Ruxue's question.

However, Hui Gen'er cheered, jumped in front of Ruxue in a few steps, and said loudly: "Sister Ruxue, Sister Erin walks with peace of mind, without worry." After saying that, Hui Gen'er naturally hugged Ruxue.

It's no wonder that Hui Gen'er is enthusiastic, he hasn't seen Ruxue for many years, once he owed him Ruxue, and now he is tall enough to naturally hold Ruxue's shoulders.

Ruxue smiled faintly, looked at Hui Gen'er, and said, "I've grown up." "There are no superfluous expressions and emotions.

This is Ruxue, the expression of feelings has always been very weak, everything likes to be suppressed in her heart, so many years, she has not changed.

Maybe it's because the mountain breeze is really cold, Ruxue unconsciously hugged her shoulders, my heart was inexplicably distressed, and finally recovered from the indescribable state, walked forward in a few steps, almost without thinking, and naturally took off her thin coat and put it on Ruxue's body.

Ruxue was slightly startled, her calm eyes became complicated, but she still didn't refuse after all, and let my coat be draped over her.

Seeing this, Hui Gen'er grimaced, stuck out her tongue, and jumped up and said, "I'm going back to play my game console, and I'm thinking about clearing the level." With that, he ran away.

I don't understand, is that fun with a game console with a black and white screen? But the next moment, I knew that Hui Gen'er had grown up, he understood a lot of things, and he wanted to give me a chance to be alone with Ruxue.

As soon as Hui Gen'er left, Ruxue and I didn't know what to say, under this cool moonlight, walking silently all the way on the bluestone road in the village, there were many emotions flowing between the two, but they just couldn't speak, as if as long as they spoke, they would destroy the atmosphere at this time.

Ruxue lives on the top of the mountain, I as the most familiar guest of Yueyan Miao Village, naturally also arranged at the top of the mountain, the original road up the mountain is very long, but in my opinion, it seems to be very short and short, just in the blink of an eye, I walked to the top of the mountain.

With her, it always feels like time flies quickly, just like that dreamy half a year.

"Put on your clothes, it's cold at the top of the mountain, I'll go back first." Ruxue took off the coat on her body and returned it to me with a calm expression.

This gesture makes me a little sad, obviously we are not so strangers, and we need to be polite.

"Let's go again, to the hillside." I pointed to a hillside in the distance, where I used to go when I was with Ruxue.

When I said this, my heart beat fast, just like when I confessed to Ruxue, I was afraid that she would refuse.

But Ruxue didn't refuse me after all, and said 'um' and walked with me towards the hillside.

I didn't want to be so silent any longer, although I knew that Ruxue and I were like people looking at each other on the edge of two cliffs, looking close to each other, but never getting closer.

"This time, I didn't see that girl like snow." I don't have anything to say, in fact, I know that Ruyue has very little time in the village, and she is busy with the company's affairs outside.

"She's busy." Ruxue's answer was very simple, but I didn't know how to answer.

After walking silently for a while, we came to the hillside that we were familiar with.

The moonlight is sprinkled on the hillside, and in summer, the mountain flowers are just right, and they are intoxicating in the moonlight.

But I was in a trance, and my thoughts always went back to the afternoon of that year, in the sun, Ruxue and I always loved to come here, Ruxue sat on the thick lawn, I pillowed her legs, and often fell asleep like this.

This kind of emotion makes me weak, I know that I can't meet Ruxue in the place I loved, but knowing doesn't necessarily mean that I can resist, does it?

I almost blurted out, "Are you still looking for Gu worms?" ”

"Huh?" Ruxue didn't react a little.

I turned around, looked into Ruxue's eyes, and said word by word: "I almost come to the village to live for a month every year, but no matter what month I come, you are always absent, the answer is the same, you are going to find Gu worms and herbs." So, let me ask, did you find it well? ”

Ruxue's expression was still calm, but her eyes fluctuated a little sadly, and then soon, even her eyes returned to calm, and she said, "Chengyi, you shouldn't care about this." ”

I understood what she meant, she was telling me that I shouldn't care about being here, that she would avoid me, that our identity was no longer suitable.

I was very annoyed, I always thought I was very restrained, but when I saw her like this here, I became very childish again, just like all kinds of childish gambling, cover-up, and impulsiveness in Heiyan Miao Village

I took out a cigarette, lit it, and simply lay down on the grass, looking at the cold moon, and I said, "Don't care, it's very restrained, I've been doing it all along, haven't I?" It's just hard."

Ruxue didn't leave, sat next to me, the wind blew her long hair slightly, still so familiar and light fragrance, and I also looked at the moon, Ruxue whispered: "It's very hard, but the original choice was made by us, and half a year is also what we want, so let's admit this hard work." ”

"Do you blame me for insisting on being with you for half a year?" The smoke of the cigarette wafted in front of my eyes, I asked.

"Don't blame, don't regret it, it's enough in this life." It's as simple as snow.

"Why can you watch a movie with me once a year, and occasionally see me in the city outside, but not here?" Actually, I know the answer, but I still want to ask, men are childish, even I can't understand it.

"Don't be childish, don't you know that the memories are too heavy?" Ruxue smiled faintly, maybe laughing at my childish seizure again, in the moonlight, her smile was so charming, always reminded me of a word in the song "Streamer Flying" that she once sang in my ear, snow in the clouds.

Snow in the clouds, how beautiful should that be? I stared at Ruxue in a bit of a daze.

Ruxue turned her head slightly, so many years have passed, she is still a little shy in the face of me, and my heart is the same as back then, when I see her, my heart will always beat, and I will always be stupid unconsciously.

"Tell me about your last days." Ruxue hugged her knees and suddenly asked, maybe there is an ambiguous flow between us, and we have to cut it off quickly, because we can't afford it.

"A lot of things have happened recently" How can I not understand what Ruxue means, I have nothing to hide from her, and tell Ruxue about the recent events, including the ghost market, including Shen Xing, Brother Chengxin, everything.

Shen Xing may love Chengxin, but she doesn't dare to face such feelings, and she can't deny that the previous affection may just be a family-like existence, maybe just moved, maybe just like. There's always a distance between liking and love. Ruxue didn't comment on other things, only Shen Xing, she said this.

I have to admit that what she said is very reasonable, family affection, like, touching always has a distance from love, but she loves so much that she doesn't dare to admit it, she wants to choose, but at the last moment she still gave up her brother, the complexity of feelings, the helplessness of the world How can we control and arrange?

"Death, in fact, is not bravery." I put it this way.

However, being together is not necessarily happy. Because she always feels guilty in her heart, after such a long time, it is also torture for Brother Chengxin. ”

"So, are you saying that her death is the best ending?" I'm a little puzzled, but maybe women know women better.

"Of course it's not the best ending, the best ending is another kind of bravery, that kind of bravery is to let go completely, that's really bravery, not ruthless." Ruxue said softly.

"Then you say, are we brave?" I suddenly wanted to ask Ruxue like this.

"We? We're brave, and we're not brave. Ruxue hugged her knees, her hair fluttered lightly, like a fairy under the moon, too beautiful, but the words she said were so bitter.

Of course, we are brave, and for the sake of the righteousness in our hearts, we let go of the desire to hold on to each other. But we are not brave, we can't let go of each other's love, and for so many years, we have been tormenting our thoughts.

This sentence silenced us all.

Eventually, I said, "Are you going to go to the movies with me this year?" ”

"Yes, but let's change places, my name is Ruxue, I always want to see the snow." Snow rarely goes out, but it's a place where it doesn't snow much, or even doesn't snow.

"Well, let's go to the north and watch a movie, where it always snows in winter, and it snows, and the sound of small shreds is nice and quiet," I said.

"North? You just said that you were going to the old forest in the Northeast, can you take me with you at that time? Ruxue said suddenly.

I was stunned, and this was a huge happiness that suddenly hit me!