Maybe it was my calm mood that infected Brother Chengxin, at this moment his eyes finally had a little focus, a little emotion, but that emotion was all pain, he covered his face and said: "Chengyi, it's very painful for doctors to not be able to save people, especially when your important person falls in front of you like this, it's really painful, I'm afraid, I'm afraid of Shen Xing."

I stood up, looked up at the ceiling wordlessly, then pulled Brother Chengxin up, then dragged him to the bathroom in a few steps, turned on the faucet, pressed his head under the faucet, and let the cold water rush over his head!

Maybe it was the cold water that stimulated Brother Chengxin, he suddenly became angry, raised his head from under the faucet, didn't think about it, and yelled: "What are you doing? At the same time, his fist was swung at me.

I grabbed Brother Chengxin's fist and yelled at him, "Aren't you awake yet? My mind is full of can't save her, can't save her! Shen Xing is so smart, if she would blame you for not being able to save her, she wouldn't use it this way! And now it's not completely hopeless, you can be angry, you can be sad, but you just can't be decadent because of it, you know? ”

I know this pain of falling into self-blame, I feel that I have to wake up Brother Chengxin as soon as possible, Shen Xing's side I am worried, but I am also worried that Brother Chengxin will sink.

Brother Chengxin is a smart person after all, maybe it was the cold water that calmed him down, he understood what I meant, suddenly calmed down, took off his shirt, wiped his hair, and then put it back on, trying his best to tidy it up.

Instead of rushing out of the bathroom, he said to me, "Chengyi, give me a cigarette." ”

I ordered two, held one in my own mouth, and stuffed one in his mouth

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The waiting time is difficult, every minute is like an hour has passed, but the waiting time is also precious, you always hope that the time can go a little slower, because what you can wait means that there is still hope.

Only when you are desperate will you give up waiting.

Time was ticking, ticking, and I was thinking repeatedly in my heart, why did Shen Xing choose to do that?

Brother Chengxin has simply told me what happened, and this experience is even more inexplicable.

In the final analysis, Brother Yu Chengxin is actually a happy day today, he and Shen Xing's date is very happy, according to Brother Chengxin, that is, they are already very close to lovers.

Today's Shen Xing is not like the previous Shen Xing, it seems that he is enthusiastic and integrates with us, but in fact, there is a thick heart wall in his heart.

"Today, Shen Xing doesn't have this heart wall, Chengyi, I can feel it! She took me to walk the streets, took me to see the places where she stayed in Tianjin when she was a child, took me to eat food that only the old Tianjin people knew, she told me a lot, said where she had worked, how good she had been, and today's Shen Xing really has no heart wall. "This is what Brother Chengxin said to me.

I believe in Brother Chengxin, and I believe that the kind of happy walking in the streets and alleys he described exists.

They have been together happily until the evening, Shen Xing suddenly proposed to let Brother Chengxin accompany her to a place to drink, which was almost to the outskirts of the city, and the place where Shen Xing asked Brother Chengxin to accompany her to drink turned out to be the roof of an abandoned bungalow, this place, Shen Xing had only brought him here before, it was the place where she lived when she was a child.

"Actually, it's really good to be there for a long time! Without the hustle and bustle of the city, just the breeze with the smell of the grass of the land, and the moon overhead, she and I really drank happily. Until that moment, Brother Chengxin felt that everything was normal and happy.

In the end, Brother Chengxin drank his five cans of wine, and Shen Xing said that whoever drank it first would go down first, this was the rule of the game when she was a child, and when she said this, Shen Xing still had half a can of beer left.

"I didn't suspect anything, I went down! Below, I couldn't see exactly what she was doing on the top, I could only see her feet shaking all the time, very happy, and after less than ten minutes, she came down. This is Brother Chengxin's description of that time.

Next, they embarked on the return journey as a matter of course, on the way back, Brother Chengxin had been thinking about whether to confess to Shen Xing, but he hesitated, he didn't know each other for long, and he began to feel that Shen Xing's interest became low.

After walking for less than 5 minutes, Shen Xing looked tired, and she suddenly said to Brother Chengxin: "Su Chengxin, you carry me." I can't go! ”

Brother Chengxin felt a little strange, but he was also secretly a little happy, she could let him carry him, did that mean accept him? But when he looked at Shen Xing, he really began to get tired and even drowsy.

There was no refusal, Brother Chengxin carried Shen Xing on his back and walked along the highway with few vehicles on the outskirts of the city.

At this time, Shen Xing suddenly said to Brother Chengxin: "A long time ago, there was also such a person who liked to carry me back and forth on this road, and at that time, we had no money to live in the city. ”

When he heard this, Brother Chengxin was silent, he didn't know what to respond, he guessed that Shen Xing should be talking about a person who was very important to her, it should be a man, that man should be Shen Xing's relationship and intimacy.

In fact, at that time, Brother Chengxin's heart was a little sour, but he didn't mind, who didn't go over? Or, at this age, who hasn't loved?

He just felt that Shen Xing's voice was a little vague, was this vagueness an escape from the past? Brother Chengxin thought so at the time.

However, after less than a minute, Shen Xing suddenly said to Brother Chengxin: "Su Chengxin, I'm going to die." ”

"What are you talking nonsense? You're so good, how can you die? ”

"Su Chengxin, you are a good man, I want to accept you, but I can't pass myself." Shen Xing's voice became more and more erratic.

Brother Chengxin paused for a moment, but soon said gently: "It's okay, no one asked you to pass anything now, there is a lot of time, I'll wait for you, take your time." ”

"There's no time, I've taken a lot of sleeping pills." Shen Xing's voice gradually became inaudible, she lay on Brother Chengxin's back, there was no movement, and it became very heavy.

This is a phenomenon that only occurs when people lose control of their bodies! Brother Chengxin is a doctor, how could he not know?

His face changed suddenly, and he immediately put down Shen Xing, pinched her pulse, and her heartbeat was slow, which is a typical feature of taking sleeping pills!

Brother Chengxin panicked, as he said, he thought of a lot of ways in his mind at once, such as inducing vomiting or something, but Shen Xing even lost part of his ability to swallow, and it was difficult to open his teeth

Brother Chengxin didn't dare to try more, as a doctor, he knew that he couldn't delay every minute or second!

almost ran into the middle of the road to stop a passing car, and then sent Shen Xing to the hospital!

Yes, Shen Xing confused everyone with a day's happiness, including Brother Chengxin, but no one knew why she did this! Including me, I can't guess, I can only vaguely feel that her behavior may have something to do with her conversation with Master Liu.

However, didn't she say that she would face it? Is it suicide to face it? That's the most cowardly escape, okay?

I couldn't figure it out, so I was very anxious, and in this sad silence, Brother Chengxin suddenly spoke: "Chengyi, do you know? It was a miracle that she was so sober enough to say so many things to me when the effect of the medicine had already worked! Do you know? That's something that can only be done with a very strong will, so she must have wanted to tell me. ”

When he said this, a drop of water fell from Brother Chengxin's hair that was not completely dry, like a tear.

The content of their conversation is so that I don't know how to describe it, so in the face of Brother Chengxin's sigh that it is a miracle, I can't interject at all, I can't speak, I can only be silent.

At this time, the lights in the emergency room went out, the doctor walked out, Brother Chengxin and I stood up and greeted us, none of us dared to ask questions first, just stunned there.

The doctor ripped off the mask and said with a regretful expression: "I'm sorry, she was taking sleeping pills with alcohol, and the amount was too large, we tried our best." ”

"No, no" Brother Chengxin shook his head, as if he was laughing but not laughing, as if crying but not crying, and then fell to his knees all of a sudden.