Shen Xing and Guan Rui can't say who likes whom first, it is not a vigorous love at first sight, but a long stream of water hidden in the years, warm and gentle to the hearts of the people.

When he was 18 years old, Guan Rui was admitted to a university in the north, he was about to leave his hometown, and the day before leaving, he made an appointment with Shen Xing, and the two walked into the familiar alley, because they had their own hearts, they didn't speak for a while.

Eventually, they came to the roof of an old bungalow, Guan Rui's home used to be here, once Guan Rui told Shen Xing that when he was in a bad mood, he would come to this roof, look at the sky, look at the distance, and he often brought Shen Xing here in the years after they met.

They are very pure, and all the stories that happen on this roof are nothing more than how Guan Rui encouraged Shen Xing to face all kinds of sadness and sorrow in the orphanage.

On this day, are both of them in a bad mood? The day before they separated, they all chose to come to this roof.

For the first time, Guan Rui bought some snacks and two bottles of beer before going up to the roof.

"It's a celebration for me to get into college, and it's a celebration for you to get into high school." Guan Rui opened the beer and handed Shen Xing a bottle, he said so.

Shen Xing took a shallow sip of beer, it was the first time she had drunk, this foamy, some bitter liquid slid down her throat into her stomach, and even her heart became bitter with it, which felt very strange and addictive.

Shen Xing said: "Let's celebrate your university, I won't go to high school, the orphanage will only raise us until we are 16 years old, I will go to the normal secondary school, no tuition fees (the previous secondary school did not charge tuition), and subsidies, graduation can also be allocated, I have already thought about these"

The children in the orphanage are precocious, Shen Xing is even more precocious than them, and she has long been planning her future one by one.

She understands very well that in the orphanage, there is no choice for the future, and her excellent grades are just so that she can be admitted to the most cost-effective place.

At that time, it was much more difficult to take the technical secondary school entrance examination than the high school entrance examination.

"Isn't it just three years?" Guan Rui took a big sip of wine, and suddenly said to Shen Xing seriously: "The tuition fee in high school is not high, you are so saving, and the living expenses are not much!" Let me support you in high school, don't give up on college, your grades are so good. ”

"No, how can you afford it?" Shen Xing's heart was moved, but she still refused, after a few years, she trusted Guan Rui sincerely at the moment, but she was an insecure person, she herself would stick to the principle that feelings could not be betrayed, but she thought that people in this world were changeable.

She will remember Guan Rui's goodness, but she doesn't dare to put her future on Guan Rui.

In the face of Shen Xing's refusal, Guan Rui was very excited, and he told Shen Xing loudly: "Yes, college students have school subsidies every month, and there are many ways to make money, plus my own living expenses, it is okay to save a little." ”

"No," Shen Xing still wanted to refuse.

But Guan Rui had already drunk half a bottle of beer at this moment, he was a little excited when he drank for the first time, he couldn't help himself, he stepped forward, put his hands on Shen Xing's shoulders, his face was a little red, and his voice was a little trembling and said to Shen Xing: "Don't refuse me, I just want to be with you for the rest of the future, and from now on, I have grown up, my father once said to me that men have the responsibility of protecting women and bearing the responsibility of a family." I'm just already thinking of you as family in my heart, and I want to start from now on"

Guan Rui didn't speak, his hand on Shen Xing's shoulder was trembling slightly, this was the first time he had made such an 'intimate' move to Shen Xing, and it was his confession that he didn't even like half of it.

Shen Xing recorded in her diary that this is not the confession that I like you and I love you, which is the most beautiful confession she has ever heard in this world, and on that night, his eyes were so clear and sincere.

They originally liked each other, but because of their young age, they didn't say anything about it, love is always the most touching, even Shen Xing, who has a thick wall in her heart, couldn't refuse, she bowed her head at that moment and whispered a word: "Okay." ”

The meaning behind this good word is huge, because it represents that Shen Xing has pressed his fate on Guan Rui from then on.

Guan Rui, who got this good word, was very excited, he understood that this was also Shen Xing's promise to be with him, he finally couldn't help but hug Shen Xing shallowly, and quickly let go, this was their love at that time, and it was the first time they were so close.

That year, Guan Rui was 18 years old and Shen Xing was 15 years old. The year was 1988.

In the following years, Shen Xing resolutely chose high school, and was warned by the orphanage that they could not afford the tuition of Shen Xing High School, because there were too many children in the orphanage and their funds were limited.

Shen Xing talked to the people in the orphanage, she said that whether it was studying or living, she would not let the orphanage bear a penny, she would also help the orphanage work, just have a place to live.

It was a period of interdependence and mutual affection, although Shen Xing and Guan Rui were just two children in a certain sense at that time, but they deserved these two words.

At the same time, it was also a bitter, but full of years of struggle melody.

During that time, Shen Xing had a lot of chores to do every day in addition to coping with high school courses, and she saved her life to the extreme, so that the girl in her prime was actually yellow and thin, and she looked a little malnourished.

And she feels that she is not bitter, because under Guan Rui's 'commitment', she has so much hope in her future life, and she can even go to college, and she also has her own happiness, such as every time she receives a letter from Guan Rui and writes a letter to Guan Rui.

Guan Rui would send money to Shen Xing every month, from the first month of his school to the three years that Shen Xing finished high school, there was no interruption. He always told Shen Xing not to treat himself too badly, to eat well, so that he could have the strength to study, he said - he can make money.

Shen Xing is still thrifty, she doesn't want to be a burden on Guan Rui when she is in college, she wants to use the money she saves as the entrance fee to the university, she doesn't want to owe the university, she can owe Guan Rui, because she decided that she would spend her life to repay Guan Rui's affection.

In the past three years, Shen Xing has not seen Guan Rui once, because Guan Rui's winter vacation and summer vacation are busy, he wants to make money, and he has no time to go home.

The only bridge between them was the letters, by the time Shen Xing finished the college entrance examination, the stack of letters had accumulated to 900, almost one every two days, and sometimes even two a day.

Shen Xing kept all these letters, and when I was cleaning up her relics, I burned them, because Shen Xing said that everything was burned down, and it was good to leave only this diary.

Actually, the reason for leaving this diary, I understand very well, it is an explanation for Brother Chengxin.

The story continues, hard work will always come, in the summer vacation after Shen Xing's college entrance examination, Guan Rui finally came back, he didn't tell Shen Xing a word about his parents blaming him for not going home, he remembered Shen Xing's college entrance examination results.

But the first thing they said when they met was the same.

"You've lost weight."

"You've lost weight."

After saying that, they all laughed at each other, yes, they all lost weight, Guan Rui has become dark and thin compared to before college.

And Shen Xing became yellow and thin because his nutrition couldn't keep up, and even his hair looked a little dry.

But in each other's eyes, they are still the most beautiful people!

The next story is sweet, Shen Xing was admitted to Guan Rui's city, which is very close to Guan Rui's university, and Guan Rui was in the last year of college, relieved of his heavy responsibilities and was admitted to graduate school.

The life of the university is still hard, but no matter how hard it is, it can't be bitter in the past years, but when the years have passed, those three years are the jewels of their memories, shining brightly, and they are the most unbreakable and firm cornerstone of their relationship.

Then there are some trivial lives, both graduate, both return to their hometowns, both work very well, and Rui's parents also like the introverted and tenacious Shen Xing, they are engaged, and they are ready to get married

Seeing this, I was a little afraid to watch it, because I already knew how cruel the ending was, but I sighed and chose to watch it.

In the year when Shen Xing and Guan Rui were about to get married, in 97, Guan Rui fell ill, and it was an incurable disease - advanced lymphoma.

In Guan Rui's last life, it was Shen Xing's uncomplaining companionship, his dedication to his care, and his desperate rush to find a cure.

But all this, no matter how sincere and precious, could not save Guan Rui's life, and just a month before their October wedding, Guan Rui died.

That day, Shen Xing's tears fell silently, and she just said to Guan Rui: "You wait another month, and I can marry you." ”