The whole room fell silent, only Ruyue's somewhat soft voice echoed in the room, and the notepad recorded nothing else, but Fu Yuan's own mental journey

The first chapter begins like this.

19XX/X.

At school, I was bullied by Wang Hai and a group of them, they took away three yuan from me for lunch, and laughed at my mother for broken shoes, and laughed at my father for being a king, I endured it silently, compared to the pain in my heart, Wang Hai's fist in my face was not so painful. My mom is a broken shoe, my dad is a king, I've heard some of those things, when I go home, don't think I didn't see those hateful women pointing at me, don't think I didn't hear their whispers, I hate my mother, and I hate why my dad didn't leave her and take me away!

"It's a little pitiful, I'm afraid this psychological distortion has something to do with these, right?" When Ruyue read out the first paragraph, Chengzhen held his chin and commented, but I didn't speak, there are too many poor people in this world, but hardship brings some people the motivation to rise, why does it bring endless extremism to others?

Actually, I know the answer, it's nothing more than a thought, just like the old village chief, if he doesn't let go of hatred or let go of hatred, what is written is two endings, just like those people on the boat, reaching out or not stretching out their hands, they get two destinies.

Some choices are not given to you by God, it just puts the road ahead in front of you, and the choice is in your own heart.

Facing Chengzhen's words, Ruyue just 'shh Then, the picture of Fu Yuan's life slowly appeared in front of everyone with the voice of Ruyue.

Fu Yuan, born in a small town not far from this county, born in the 70s, is a boy with a somewhat introverted personality.

His father was an honest and cowardly factory worker, and his mother was an English teacher at a local school, who was notoriously beautiful, and married the honest Fu Yuan's father for a city hukou.

Judging from the records of Fu Yuan's notepad, when Fu Yuan was a child, his personality was not so introverted, he was also an ordinary naughty little boy, and even had many friends, and he was also the child king of a group of children, and what changed the trajectory of his life was an incident that happened when he was 6 years old.

What the hell is going on, because Fu Yuan is young, he doesn't know too much, but the gossip of some adults and children around him makes him know something, and the specific content is probably that his mother seems to be involved with other men, and his father cowardly endures it.

"I will never forget the day when my life changed, as if it was just overnight, all my friends abandoned me, they ignored me, they stayed away from me! Originally, they were very good to me, and their parents looked at me strangely. Even the teachers, looking back now, can feel their alienation from me, asking questions in class, never calling my name, and my seat being the corner of the class, all this happened overnight, and I vaguely knew that something terrible had happened! But no matter how terrible things are, what's wrong with me? What's wrong?! ”

This is the description of the situation at that time in one of Fu Yuan's diaries, but he did not say anything terrible about what happened, and he never said it from beginning to end, as if he was avoiding something, or deliberately not writing.

Under this 'drastic change' in life, Fu Yuan's personality has changed, from extroversion to introversion, from introversion to a kind of escaping silence, sometimes even a whole day without saying a word.

All of his confessions were written on this black notepad, and he would not write for days on end, and occasionally several paragraphs a day, but all of what was written on it was extreme, and a subtle shift occurred one day after he entered high school.

"On the way out of school today, Wang Hai came to me again with a few so-called classmates, reminding me that the 10 yuan protection fee once a week should be given to him, and he said to me very proudly, don't underestimate the role of this 10 yuan, it is because of the 10 yuan paid every week that I can avoid the danger of being beaten many times. He told me that people like me, the kind of people born by my mother, should not have retribution, so many people want to beat me, and it is natural that he helped stop it. He also wondered why my mom didn't get retribution? can still teach well in school, he said that bullying me was doing the right thing for heaven! What can I say? I gave him 10 yuan in advance! Well, I don't lack money, that hateful woman will give it to me, more than my classmates get, and there will be some leftover every day, but what's the use? I still won't talk to her, I can't wait for her to die, if it weren't for her ugly thing, how could others say that bullying me was doing the right thing for heaven? Why didn't she die? Don't die? When she died, my world was quiet.

There was no one to go home at night, the woman was supposed to make up for the school lessons, and the father was not at home, so she should have gone to drink again. I was very hungry, and I gave all the 10 yuan to Wang Hai at noon, which was the money I had saved for a few days, including tomorrow's lunch money, if nothing else, I would be hungry at noon tomorrow. It was dark and quiet in the house, and I didn't know why I felt a little scared, so I might as well go out for a walk. ”

This record is the beginning of the transformation, in fact, at the beginning, we didn't notice this record because it was not much different from other records, but after connecting with it, we realized that this is the beginning of the real change.

On that night, Fu Yuan went out, that is, that night, Fu Yuan met a woman, judging from his records the next day, that night, he got a box of steaming lunch from that woman, and also got a gentle explanation, that was the first time someone spoke to him so gently.

In Fu Yuan's description, the woman is extremely beautiful, gentle and considerate, empathetic, and has almost no shortcomings, and from the first time she met him, she showed her addiction to that woman.

"Could this woman be a ghost rakshasa? Confusing a person is a very simple thing for a ghost rakshasa to do, what do you think? After hearing some of the following descriptions, Xiao Chengqian began to express his opinions.

Yes, from Fu Yuan's later description, that woman has often appeared in Fu Yuan's life since she appeared for the first time, almost every once in a while, Fu Yuan will meet her, from the words recorded by Fu Yuan, we see Fu Yuan's psychological dependence on her more and more deeply, and gradually there is a trend that she is Fu Yuan's whole world.

Originally, if this happened to an ordinary person who had the same experience, it would not be strange, after all, a silent boy who has been bullied for many years and lives in the strange eyes of others meets a beautiful and gentle woman who is willing to listen to him, is it strange to have this kind of dependence? It's just that between the lines of Fu Yuan's words, mentioning this woman is always accompanied by a mysterious color, he doesn't know her identity, he doesn't know where she lives, he doesn't know when she will appear, he doesn't even know her age, and he hasn't seen her have any relatives and friends, she hasn't mentioned it. The way Fu Yuan saw her was to wait in the alley where she would appear, the alley where he first met her

Is all this normal from the perspective of ordinary people's interactions? It's absolutely abnormal! Therefore, Xiao Chengqian will have this judgment, and we also agree with this judgment, but what the truth is, we still need to listen.

After being silent for a while, Ruyue continued to read Fu Yuan's notepad, and the next long time was the same as the previous one, talking about some trivial matters between him and the woman.

In the past, he recorded that he was bullied by his classmates, his psychological extreme hatred is gone, all his life trajectories are gone, and the paper is full of that woman.

I said to her, I don't know your name yet, but I want to think of you as a mother, and I think my mother should be like you, not only beautiful but also gentle, willing to listen to me, and not having that bad reputation. She looked at me and smiled, I had never seen her smile like this, it was a little strange, I was nervous, she was so young and beautiful, how could she have an eldest son like me? Is she angry? Or did she know the deepest thoughts in my heart? Not only did I think she was a mother, but I found that I had fallen in love with her, I was deeply in love, and I could die for her. ”

Ruyue stopped reading this, and my heart tightened inexplicably!

Mom! Didn't Fu Yuan keep calling his mother in the small courtyard? Things seem to be clearer, what Fu Yuan met was a ghost rakshasa who unknowingly had a ghost rakshasa with