Because there is no nucleic acid report, Dad can't go in.

Now it's just me and my mom sitting in the hospital bed.

I was just scared by the roar of a patient at the nurses' station and made me want to run.

"I'm not sick, can you find anything that proves I'm sick?

You find it for me! Find out, find out!

I'm not sick, why should I be hospitalized. ”

A young girl yelled hoarsely in the nurse's office.

She was angry, but I felt like she was helpless too.

An old man and a grandmother came in from behind, but it was the girl's grandparents, and they were very careful about the girl, as if they wanted to take her hand and stretch it out, but they returned halfway, wanting to say something to her, but they did not dare to say anything.

I looked at the girl so badly that I didn't even know that a big tear or a big drop had fallen.

What happened in the end, I have forgotten, I only remember that in the midst of the noise, I was dragged by a nurse to the disposal room next door, where my mother was in it, and another nurse was telling my mother about the precautions for hospitalization, as well as confiscating all medicines and dangerous goods.

During this time, I just stood on my feet, and the tears rolled down from the big ones just now, to the current slowly flowing down my face, to my lips, to my chin, and then to my neck.

They may not have paid attention to me, I forgot about the world around me, immersed in my own world, where I hid in the darkness, where there was no screaming, where I was not hospitalized, where I was not sick, where I was alone.

The softness of the tissue pulled me out of there, and I saw a nurse lady wearing a mask, I don't know if it was just the one, everyone was wearing a mask, wearing a uniform and their hair was pulled up, and they looked exactly the same.

She said that almost every day, patients come to make trouble, and there are ...... every day

I don't know how they got here, or how they developed the patience to coax me like a child.

I don't know if they've ever wiped their tears so gently with other patients.

Anyway, all I know is that this nurse sister is very gentle and good-looking.

But when I thought of the girl's roar just now, my hoarse voice made me a little scared and a little envious of her.

I envy that she can shout so loudly and shout out what she wants to say.

But I can't, I can only pretend to be a good girl, obedient, obedient, obedient again.

The double room, the small house, the two beds, but I felt that it was much cleaner than the small hostel, and it made my heart less resistant.

Numbly, he was pressed by his mother and sat down on the bed, and then he heard his mother talking to the aunt opposite.

When I looked up, I saw a girl who was more handsome than a boy, her parents were with her, compared to my gloom, she seemed to be able to shine, and I felt that in this small hospital room, her body was full of sunshine.

I heard that aunt say that they are from the same province as us, and in an unfamiliar city, even if they meet people from the same province, there is an inexplicable sense of intimacy.

I just sat there and listened to them say that the aunt said that their children used to be very sunny, but they still live here.

There was a knock on the ward door, and a nurse's little brother came in, who was going to have an electrocardiogram.

The father on the opposite bed had already gone out, leaving only the two of us and our respective mothers.

I went from sitting on the hospital bed to lying down, my wrists, ankles, and clothes had been lifted up, and the disinfectant I applied was cold.

"Brother, do you also do an electrocardiogram for a female patient?" The girl across from him asked.

"The first class we had was the same for boys and girls." The nurse brother said with a smile.

It was done quickly, and I didn't sit up after I got dressed, but I was still lying there, looking at the white ceiling, there were two rows of lights, and I didn't know what I was thinking.

Until the nurse's brother's voice rang out again.

"Are you going to be discharged from the hospital?"

"I don't know, the doctor hasn't said yet."

"Lie down, you have to do it too." The nurse's brother said the same to the bed on the other side.

"Mom, you go out for a while." She said to her mother.

After doing this, the nurse's brother said to his mother, and the report will be directly on the doctor's computer.

And then it was gone.

It was almost five o'clock, and the gloomy weather seemed to be getting a little more cloudy.

The nurse sent another list, which was for CT scanning, and the time had been booked, six o'clock, the imaging building.

Mom took me out of the cage again, but when I got out, I found that I was better suited to stay in the cage, where the monster would not open its deep, bottomless mouth and devour me bit by bit, and it was painful, and I was afraid of the pain......

Didn't eat at night......

But in a hurry to do CT, they didn't say anything, except for being restless and afraid of the world, but they were not so irritable and distracted......

Considering that there are many people during the working hours of the hospital, most of the hospitalizations are done by the doctor during the scheduled off-duty time.

Even though it was off-duty hours, there were many people hospitalized, and the chairs waiting in the lobby of the CT room were almost full.

So I could only huddle on the stool in the corner of the wall with my backpack like a mouse, and someone looked at me in surprise, as if I was something different.

This kind of gaze scared me, I wanted to leave, and I don't know if my father felt something, sat next to me, covered those eyes, grabbed my hands that were still shaking tightly, and broke my clenched fists, the sweat in my palms had soaked my palms like soaking my hands in water for a long time and then taking them out.

I finally breathed a sigh of relief after handing in the reservation number, probably thinking that I was leaving, but I didn't expect to wait for a long time, and my name was still not called, and the anxiety and panic in my heart made me almost collapse in this hall.

In order to cover up, I could only keep scratching my hair, pinching my arms, and biting my hands, and when they found out about the abnormality, the back of my hand had already been bitten and bruised, and there were also red nail marks on my arms, and the skin was broken in a few places, but it was not completely broken. My hand was about to be pinched and deformed.

Finally my name arrived, but none of the doors of the 3 CT rooms opened, and standing at the door of the CT room with an open space, those different eyes made me uncomfortable, made me want to cry, made me want to escape, I really didn't want to be hospitalized.

I'd rather die quietly than be hospitalized, rather than be cured of it.

But I can't even die, maybe God won't accept me......

I really would rather not live in this world.

If there is a time crossing, I really hope to travel back to the time when my mother gave birth to me, then it will be much easier to die, and no one will remember me, and I will not care about anyone.