Chapter 51: Dreams (9)

(9) Those lost opportunities

I was seconded to work in a regional party newspaper, a provincial magazine, and a publishing house under the CPC Central Committee, which was an opportunity that others envied, but in the end I took the initiative to retreat without waiting for the transfer.

My friends say that I have lost a good opportunity, but I always answer with the phrase "If you want to jump high, you have to crouch down first". In fact, I also know that there are some opportunities that I can't afford to pay, and I have to give them up.

For example, at the XX Publishing House of the National Commission on Aging, because my character interviews were successively selected into the "Entrepreneurial Pioneer Style Record" published by China Photo Agency, I was asked to do an interview for the 1995 World Women's Conference, which was used in the book published before the meeting.

When I arrived in Beijing, I took my letter of introduction, my blue newspaper press card, and my brown pigskin press card from the Provincial Ministry of Radio, Film and Television, but I couldn't see the famous ladies I wanted to interview. It was my family or secretary who sent me away with a bunch of materials. So I gave up.

Then I wrote a memoir for the retired leader, and the first leader I arranged happened to be met by my roommate in Lu Yuan, who helped print photos of a star-rated hotel in Liangmaqiao for a period of time, and washed out the leader's unsightly leisure photos in the hotel's song hall. She secretly added a few more sheets.

So, I excused myself again from this good thing that I can become famous and start a family. In the future, no one will ask me for an exclusive interview, and probably Jiang Lang's reputation has spread.

Fortunately, in my youth, I have not encountered "unspoken rules", and my superiors are all humble gentlemen.

After I retired, a colleague said that I didn't know the current affairs, in fact, the "unspoken rule" is not that the leader will have a good impression of you, but that you have to die begging for nothing to chase others! It seems that I was really stupid and naïve at that timeO(∩_∩)Oha!

At that time, I was alone on the road all year round, and there were always good Samaritans to take care of me. Once, on the train, a young man had to give me his game console, and he said something that I will never forget.

He said, "You're so thin, even a murderer who has just escaped from prison will help you!"

Thinking about it, if I really want to chase after it in vain, people may not be interested in the "unspoken rules"! Sexy beauties are what men need, otherwise how could there be a large number of beautiful writers? As long as there is a big wave, whether there is talent or not is secondary, and there are many talented women who sell literature for a living, especially those who are ugly and poor, as long as they give more money, they will naturally shut up. As long as it is sexy, beauty is also secondary, it is really not good, invite a large group of people to tinker, you can naturally bring out beautiful writers, become famous and more profitable, and the beauty economy can also stimulate domestic demand, a good thing for a million profits.

I am not a person who can be tempted by fame and fortune, and I despise being a second wife with a sugar daddy. You must find a virgin to get married, and you don't even have a girlfriend. Although the world is declining, even virgins have cheated, and in order to get revenge, I have to be a virgin to find a lover.

In fact, it's not that I'm so feudal, it's that I'm afraid of trouble and death. People who have had live-in girlfriends are really terrible, and those abandoned women are no different from crazy people, and they can kill you at any time. My life is worth more than theirs, how can I fall in love with the rags they have played?