Chapter 761: Exorcism (52)

Blue Mandala: Exorcism

（52）

Since I was a child, I have been trying to avoid living like my mother, and I have always worked hard in front of my mother so that I will not be beaten.

It is said that the ghosts and gods are in awe of the people who read the book, and from the perspective of the ghosts and gods, when people are reading books, there will be a golden light above their heads, which is seen in fairy tales. However, reading fairy tales when I was a child is the best nourishment for the suffering heart. I think people shouldn't beat people who are working, but my mother thinks I'm lazy in reading, and I have to beat people because I'm slow in my activities. Over 40 years old, in my own home, she also has the ability to chase and fight. And she is just an orphan who has no father and no mother since she was a child, and she was raised by a hard-working stepmother who had no status in her family but was implicated.

My mother earned every day of her life, and it was only before the burial that my mother-in-law knocked her mouth open with tongs and poured medicine for the last time, and she began to breathe. However, when she was a child, she resolutely prevented her mother from remarrying, and after graduation, she wore a big red flower to support the remote mountainous areas to avoid the distance, and threw her child to her mother, and then the child would work and forcibly pick it up regardless of the feelings of the elderly. There was no way to send her mother to the end, and she did not hear her last words that she was not her own daughter. I kept saying that I wanted to go to repair my mother's tomb and erect a marble tombstone, but I gave her money to let her go, and she actually said that the relatives who took her there were not sure if it was her mother-in-law's grave, so forget it.

I told my husband about my mother, and I think my husband is too similar to my mother, except that he has me, and he can take care of his parents' food, clothing, housing and transportation, but psychologically he still looks down on his parents who will only lag behind.

My husband hurriedly called my parents, but my father didn't know where to go, and my mother was about to go to the field to plant corn and let her fight again in the evening.

I said that the sandstorm should have arrived, and it might not be planted. Sure enough, after a while, my mother-in-law called and said that she had already gone home because the wind was too strong.

I really obeyed these old women over 60 years old, how can I still work so proudly?

Life is the same as the four seasons, spring and summer, autumn and winter, ordinary people should be restrained when they reach the age of 60, how can they still work as when they were young! Even young people, if they do not pay attention to the storage of yin qi in winter, the yang energy in the kidneys will leak out with sweat, causing the kidney fire to rise, and the pores are always open, and they are easy to be injured by the cold and get sick. When you are sick and hurt your vitality, food will not be easy to digest and cannot be used as a nourishment to nourish the body, and the body will naturally age quickly if it lacks nourishment.

No matter what age they are, the aging person is a burden to others. Therefore, for the family, health is far more important than competence. In this strange weather of spring cold, the old man does not hide in the house, but also goes out to exercise, play and work, which can be said to be looking for death. The old man doesn't even have this bit of self-knowledge, it's really like Confucius said: "To be old and not die is to be a thief".

Mozi said that when people are old, they should take illness as their friend, and they can neither "worry" nor "fight". If you are worried and afraid, you will suffer from a minor illness and a major illness, and die early from a major illness. And it is not advisable to fight to the death with illness as in youth, because youth can make disease fall apart, and old age will only hurt both sides.

Taking illness as a friend, the mystery lies in being able to understand life from illness. Illness is a good way to train willpower, and in the face of strong-willed people, illness has to be resigned.

After losing the pain, my world is completely alienated from the world of healthy people, even though they don't know that they just think I'm unkind. And I seemed to be looking at this world from another perspective. For 16 years, my painless body became my closest friend, sitting with me and listening to me. The nobility of life and the coldness of the world have all gained the most genuine feeling at this time.

Suddenly, one day, my body felt pain, but my heart was empty, like losing a good friend with a corresponding heart.