【Commentary 044】Chapter 4 Pondering
Xiao Bobai opened his mouth widely, and was stunned on the spot for a while,
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "You know that I am fine, so I specially went around to find something for me."
Xiao Bobai came to his senses at this time, and hurriedly said: "The old slave knows that he is wrong, after returning to Hangzhou, I will immediately release Miss Qin and send a letter to the old swordsman Yan to break the contract." ”
Chang Sihao said: "No need to let it go." Xiao Bobai's face was strange, and Chang Sihao said: "Your news is correct, Yin'er is indeed amnesia due to illness, and before that, the person she likes is your young master." His eyes moved to Xiao Jinshiyue: "You two have affection for each other, it's better than ...... for her to be with you" Xiao Jinshiyue blinked: "Who has affection with her." Chang Sihao said: "You." Xiao Jinyue was stunned for a moment, and suddenly laughed, Xiao Bobai looked at him with a stunned face: "Young master...... Young master, slow down and be happy, don't choke on music, the old slave is really scared when he looks at it, [Xianmo: I'm afraid to choke for a while, I'm afraid to choke for a while, it's a pity to be loyal]"
Xiao Jinshiyue laughed for a while, slowly relieved herself, and said, "I know, it must be you who eavesdropped outside my window and had a misunderstanding." Xiao Bobai said: "Young master, you know what my master and I eavesdropped. Xiao Jinshiyue smiled: "Of course I know, because I didn't fall asleep at all, and I wasn't talking in my dreams, I just thought about things by myself, and I didn't care about people." ”
Xiao Bobai said: "Think about things, what are you thinking." ”
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: " When I won two battles in the fencing competition, I found that there was a girl in the stands who looked at me differently, and I also looked at her a few times in the interval between getting on and off the stage, and at the moment of staring at each other, I felt some subtle changes in my heart and body, so that every time the next opponent stood in the ring, I had an indescribable impulse, an impulse to show all my self, so unconsciously, my shot became more and more ruthless, and it seemed that I had fallen into some kind of madness, feeling that I and everything around me were out of control......”
Chang Sihao secretly inhaled the cold air and thought, "Yin'er looks at his eyes...... It must have been with a strong admiration and admiration...... In this way, the cause of the bloody catastrophe at the sword trial conference turned out to be ......" [Xianmo: The catastrophe originated from the love affair, from the Qin family, the disaster of the Qin family, it can be called a love disaster, love out of two hearts, disaster to the world, love is a word, but it is not careful, [Xianmo Second Comment: Criticism is here, the author's intentions can no longer be hidden, it is not a spoiler, the previous batch of Qin is homophonic on the surface is the qin, the real harmonic "love", the same as the Red Mansion "Qin Keqing", Qin Ziyin is secretly in love with Ah Yue, so the name is self-yin, and there is no person who listens to the qin, Ignorant sound responded, Qin Juexiang was infatuated with Xinlu, the difference between the two was more than ten years old, and there was a difference between monks and laymen, although there was a warm child to divide his heart, Xiaoqing hooked his desire, the sincerity of the little love has never changed, this love is absolutely sound,]
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "I know that if this continues, I will lose sooner or later [Xian Mo: The wind does not end, the rainstorm does not end, and people go crazy for a long time, so the small victory depends on wisdom, and the big victory depends on virtue, what is the victory of virtue, it is the outbreak of the accumulation of ordinary character,], at that time, he tried his best to control himself and maintain his composure on the surface, but his heart became more and more turbulent, until a person came to the stage,
He walked very slowly, very calmly, but there was a strong sense of oppression penetrated into my heart, I clearly remember, when the sun was shining brightly, the ring was white, and the people who reported the battle shouted: 'Sword tester: Qin Mo', that is his name, I looked into his eyes, I knew that I had met a real opponent, and my heart suddenly became extremely calm. ”
Chang Sihao also recalled the picture that Jue Xiang had told him at the beginning, although he knew that Qin Mo was finally defeated, he was still nervous for no reason, and his heart was pounding [Xian Mo: This book is called "The Bloody Case in Beijing: The Death of the Old Father", which corresponds to the first "Jue Xiang Self-Narration: My Father's Story", laughs, ],
I saw Xiao Jinshiyue describe this, and his expression that originally looked very cynical was two more solemn, and he gestured the distance with his hand: "At that time, we stood opposite each other on the stage, Qin Mo leaned over and bent his legs, pressed the knife with one hand, my eyes were on his shoulder, and I could clearly see the ups and downs driven by breathing, the ups and downs were extremely subtle, but in my eyes, it was like a mountain peak collapsing and uplifting,
All kinds of signs show that this is a great master who is different from others, judging only from the breathing rhythm and demeanor, his skills can at least be comparable to the characters in the Sword Cultivation Hall, at that time, I thought, it is rumored on the rivers and lakes that the fifth child of the Qin family has devoted himself to the sword path and finally achieved great success, and he has surpassed his father at a young age, and it seems that it is not false [Xian Mo: Qin Langchuan is better than Qin Zhuhai will operate, and he has a great career, and there are many things, and martial arts will inevitably not be practiced to the extreme,],
I knew that he was also observing my breathing, at this time I shouldn't have been distracted, but I thought of that girl, I knew that she must be looking at me, just the moment I thought of this, Qin Mo observed the change in my breathing, and rushed over like an arrow, he made a move, I instinctively threw the umbrella at him, feeling that I was going to lose, but the performance in my heart suddenly broke out, making me rush out desperately,
At that moment, my mind was blank, all the movements were completely instinctive, when everything came to a standstill, my sword was in my hand, the person was on the side, Qin Mo's neck was cracked, blood spurted out, his knife was only halfway out, I felt strange, he shouldn't be such an opponent, he should be stronger, more difficult, but, he died,
I fell into deep thought,
The question I pondered was: did he die because he was weak, or did I break through my own limits?
If it is the latter, then what allows me to successfully break through the limit is a momentary emotional outburst, or the result of entering a state of selflessness and reaching a certain state.
These two questions bothered me for a long time, and during that time I thought about it all the time, during the day, at night, and in my dreams, so I kept doing that trick in bed, and finally came to a conclusion. When he said this, his eyes suddenly returned to his eyes, and he looked at Chang Sihao: "The conclusion is: Qin Mo's death is a big problem. ”
Chang Sihao was stunned for a long time and asked, "What's the question?" ”
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "I don't know, but I know that even if I can kill him in my state at that time, it won't be so easy, giving me the feeling that Qin Mo was a little unusually dull when he made a move, and this sluggishness should have been felt by himself at the same time as he made a move, which was like ...... The two of them started at the same time, but he suddenly tripped at the same time as he started. ”
Xiao Bobai said: "Hey, think about the situation at that time, it was indeed ......" [Xianmo: After hundreds of thousands of words, the old lines buried in the past gradually provoked]
Chang Sihao thought to himself: "So...... Could it be that he was hit by some tiny secret weapon, but after the fight, the people of the Qin family will always conduct an autopsy, and if there is a hidden weapon, they will find out...... If Qin Mo was killed, then what was the purpose of the person who harmed him, was it to make the Qin family and the Xiao Mansion make enemies, could it be that this is Dongchang again...... Yes, I remember who said that at the sword trial conference, three of the four major stalls of the East Factory came...... However, VIPs like them, the seats should not be far from Zheng Mengzhu and them, and it will be quite difficult to make small moves......" I was also confused for a while,
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "I can't think of an answer to this question, my mind turned back to swordsmanship, I used to practice swords, I tried to keep my mind stable and calm, but the battle in the ring made me discover another level of things, that is, the mind and feelings can 'influence' or 'improve' a person's martial arts, but I have never set foot in it for 20 years** I didn't know how to start for a while, so I followed that trace of affection, and imagined the scene of falling in love with the girl in my heart, so as to experience the linkage between psychology and physiology. ”
Xiao Bobai then understood: It turned out that the young master was lying on the bed and shouting the name of the girl, and he was actually understanding swordsmanship and martial arts, but this kind of thing is simply unbelievable to say, it is better to treat him as a nymphomaniac and a madman so easy to accept, [Xianmo: Inventing something is a scientist, before inventing it, they were all crazy, and it was a joke to think about it.
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "I have been in the chaos for more than three years, and suddenly one day I found that love, vanity, and expressive desire have one of the biggest roots, and this root is 'difference', and difference produces 'you' and 'me'. If we see the world as the same, then the stone is also me, the flowers and plants are also me, you are also me, I am also me, we are all relatives, a family, or even a person, after having such a heart, I suddenly feel that the world has changed, I don't want to kick a stone or a flower at will, because that is like kicking myself, Fan myself in the mouth, during that period of eating, as the rice grains were chewed in my mouth, I would involuntarily shrink my shoulders, and I could even feel that I was being bullied and felt the pain ......" [Xianmo: "East" postscript "straight into the handle" In an article, you can see a little bit of this state, you can know that here is the author's own practical experience, into the text, in fact, listen to the mystery, the truth is not mysterious, at least the medical students have this state of experience, without this state, the number of true pulse, now the Chinese medicine hospital teaches a few students understand, traditional medicine is an elite culture, can not be universalized, Chinese medicine is criticized, not that there is a problem with the medical concept, but people can't keep up, scholars are not angry,]
As he spoke, his body curled up, his two forearms crossed to protect his chest, his hands on his shoulders, and he had a feeling of wanting to completely protect himself, seeing Xiao Bobai's lips trembling, he stretched out his hand and held it together, not to help, not to shoot, and said vigorously: "Young, young master, wake up, wake up, wake up...... Why are you like this again, it's too scary for you to do this......" The family sailors next to him were also at a loss one by one,
Xiao Jin's body suddenly fell back and became the word "big", and he laughed: "That state was a long time ago." ”
Chang Sihao suddenly remembered that Lin Xunhua, the mentor of the Zheng League, came to [Xianmo: The second thing,], and thought: "Senior Lin talked about his" The two are dependent on the sword method' body and mind, human sword dependence, all things depend on each other, the body and mind depend on each other, the body and mind depend on each other, and the human sword depends on the emotion and ruthlessness, so that the sword is spiritual, the stubborn stone nodded, and said that if you can practice to the extreme, you can sense the subtle connection between all things, understand the truth of biochemical decay, even the master of Zheng Meng can only prove that people and swords depend on each other, and this Xiao Jinyue in front of him can actually distinguish yin and yang, water and fire from the watermelon, and find himself in the flowers, plants and stones, could it be that he has reached this 'all things depend on each other' of the wonderland of the sword, or ...... Or even this supreme realm has been transcended. ”
Just thinking to himself, his armpit was lightly stabbed, and he saw Xiao Jinyue smile and said: "So, your wife, it's better for you to take it back, although you are me, yours is also mine, but she doesn't think so, haha." ”
Looking at the thousands of waves that were darkening in front of him, Chang Sihao felt a sense of crying and laughing for a while, and stayed there speechless.
The life of the sea voyage is monotonous and boring, and in the following days, in addition to practicing chicken leg steps on the deck, he is gossiping with Xiao Jinyue, and this deep chat only to find that the other party has reached an unbelievable point in terms of swordsmanship and understanding of life, and sometimes listening to him say a word, it is often isolated and peculiar, inexplicable, but after turning several corners, he found that people have already talked about the front, and they go straight to the core, so the more they talk, the more they love to chat, and they are almost inseparable from him,
One day, he was suddenly curious, and remembered to ask him why he didn't wear the "Poor Qi Sword", Xiao Jinshiyue said lightly: "It's done." ”
"Dang. Chang Sihao almost thought he had misheard,
Xiao Jinshiyue said with a smile: "Relatives are stingy, and they can't eat for nothing." ”
Chang Sihao asked: "How much money did you be?" ”
Xiao Jin picked up the moon and said: "Two hangings." ”
"What. Chang Sihao said: "Isn't the Poor Qi Sword one of the four famous swords, what kind of glacier is inserted into the sea, and the warbler complains about the Poor Qi, although it is ranked last, it will not be so cheap." ”
Xiao Jinshiyue said with a smile: "Because I only used the money for an umbrella, the other party didn't see that it was a sword." [Xian Mo: tradition is often criticized by modern scholars as loose structure, but do not know that the sword is interesting in the scattered, just like a bunch of people who do not understand traditional medicine, prefer to criticize Chinese medicine, but do not know that the word Chinese medicine itself is wrong, the world is originally laughable, can not see how many people in the umbrella sword, good books to calm the mind, the shape is scattered, now people only understand the form, do not understand the view of God, is not able to read the book, and will not see the disease, waste time and gain nothing, do not start from their own hearts, change their impetuousness, set their temperament, but open their mouths to scold, in order to vent their anger, is the old doctor to learn, has never been able to teach others, his people are not moral, do not teach, not want to teach, is he really want to learn and can't learn, 】
Chang Sihao was dumbfounded for a long time, and sighed: "Yes, everyone like you, plants and trees can be used as swords, even if it is a burning stick in your hand, there will be no problem." ”
Xiao Jinshiyue smiled and stretched out his hand to wipe his waist, pulled the "Ten Miles of Time" in his hand, dropped the tip of the sword and shook his hand, nailed it into the deck with a "duke", and asked, "You take a burning stick to try it, and see how hard it takes to insert it." He pulled up the "ten miles of time", put it in his hand, and said: "The layman will never be able to say the jargon [Xianmo: a word to wake up the world,], what heavy sword does not need to be sharp, and the grass can hurt people, it is really whimsical, what kind of good and false thing is to abandon the sword and use the grass, like the heavy and dislike the light, why not change the hammer and shoot the meteor." ”
Chang Sihao said: "I know a person who makes the big sword blade wide and thick, seven feet long, and his martial arts are really not low. Xiao Jinshiyue asked, "This person is still alive." Chang Sihao shook his head: "He died, died under a soft sword." Xiao Jin Shiyue smiled: "It seems that the facts have proved it for me." Chang Sihao was silent for a moment, and suddenly asked, "Brother Xiao has a soft sword breaking method." ”
Xiao Jinshiyue looked at him with a smile: "Why, the dead person is your friend." ”
Chang Sihao seemed to be unable to answer, and his gaze was suddenly a little distant,
Xiao Jin Shiyue asked, "What about the person who killed him?" ”
Chang Sihao said: "It's my brother." ”
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "Your brother killed your friend, how can you repay this revenge." Chang Sihao looked at the sea for a long time: "I hope that this feud will never have to be avenged, but I am afraid that the world is impermanent, I am afraid that one day, the good brothers will turn against each other, and I am afraid that one day, someone will recognize another country as their hometown." ”
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "It seems that I don't have to teach you. ”
Chang Sihao said: "Why, do you think my martial arts are enough." ”
Xiao Jin Shiyue said: "No, because you will definitely lose." After saying this, he thrust his sword into the deck, scratched his butt and paced idly, leaving Chang Sihao alone in the wet sea breeze, alone with the swaying sword body, silent and in a daze,