When the father of the sheep talked about these past events, there seemed to be another kind of sadness between his eyebrows.

"I'm grateful that she told me that, but I still won't leave her because ...... I've fallen deeply in love with her.

But at that time, I was still too concerned about the gap in our identities, and I still didn't open my mouth to tell her, just that the reason why I couldn't leave was because I was afraid that she would lose a friend who could speak from her heart.

But she straightened her face and ignored me. A few days later, the contract expired, and I was kicked out of the Han Mansion. However, in addition to the salary agreed in the original contract, there were ten more yuan and a letter.

I read the letter and knew that she ignored me because she didn't want me to be nostalgic for the life of the Han Mansion and felt that I should have my own world to explore, so she gave me ten yuan and let me go back to the Song Dynasty.

I refused to leave like this at first, and I wanted to enter the Han Mansion several times to see her again. It's a pity that I waited for a long time, but I never had a chance to see her again.

I slowly understood that she was doing this for my own good, so I had to set off for the Great Song Dynasty and return to my hometown village.

My parents were gone when I was a teenager, but there are still some elders of the same clan in my hometown, who only know that I have been away from home to learn art all these years, but they don't know about my experience in Liao.

At that time, I was not young, and the elders of these clans helped me to start a family affair and let me start a family. I also knew that I should not live in the past, so I followed the wishes of my elders and married a woman from a neighboring village. ”

Yang Huairen asked, "This should be Yang Letian's mother, right?" ”

Father Yang squeezed out a smile, looked at Yang Lotian and nodded, "Yes." Soon after getting married, there was a sheep lotte.

The reason why I gave him this name is because I had a very ordinary life at that time, and although I lived a peaceful life, it was difficult for me to have anything to make me happy.

Every time I think of those days in Liaoguo, I am very painful, painful Master died so tragically, and I couldn't be with my beloved woman.

But I hope that my child will be optimistic about life in the future, so I named him Lotte.

It is said that it is easy for people to forget the past, and at first I thought so, thinking that after a long time, I would forget the past and start a new life.

But such a good thing didn't happen to me, every day and night, I think of Han Sanniang, miss the nest she gave me when I was about to starve to death, miss the days when she and I talked freely, miss her smile. ”

Although Yang Lotte has not yet married, but the age has come, and he also understands some things between men and women, listening to his father say this, it is inevitable that he is a little sad for his mother.

Father Yang also understood that Yang Lotian definitely didn't like to hear this kind of talk, but he explained, "Actually, in my heart, I also know that it's wrong for me to do this.

Now that I have a family and a son, I should no longer miss the things and people I used to have. But, can you understand? Sometimes, people's inner thoughts are uncontrollable. ”

Yang Huairen naturally understands that there is no reason to miss someone many times, it is very strange, once you calm down and have nothing to do, your mind is full of the shadows of some people.

Yang Huairen is now in Liaojing, he is very homesick, he misses his wife, children and mother at home, and he also thinks about how the villagers in the Yang family's Zhuangzi are doing now, and how the students in the Culinary Academy are doing, etc., but they can't control it, but they don't usually show it in front of others.

Yang Lotian's appearance should be trying to think, he really wants to put himself in his father's shoes to experience the feeling of his father back then, but after all, he has not experienced the relationship between men and women, and it is difficult for him to understand that his father left their mother and son for the sake of another woman.

Time is the best antidote to longing, and at the same time it is poison. Some people can stop thinking about it after a long time, but some people can't easily withdraw from their past feelings.

The father of the sheep should be the latter kind of person. Maybe he cares about this relationship, but this is his personal character, and it can't be said to be his fault.

Yang Huairen asked, "Then why did you leave your hometown village and come to the Dading Mansion of the Liao State again?" ”

Father Yang gritted his teeth, glanced at Yang Lotte very embarrassed, and then said, "Originally, I was in my hometown, relying on the skills I learned from the master, to make a big banquet in the township, and I could also live a life without worrying about food and clothing."

But the day after day of missing, my whole person is about to collapse, maybe outsiders can't see it, but Lotte's mother, as my pillow person, saw that I couldn't sleep every night, and still noticed something.

She is a good woman, she is very good to me, I am out to earn money to support the family, she is at home to take care of Lotte, take care of the whole family.

It's a pity that I can't really have the same feelings for her as I have for Han Sanniang anyway, she is more like a life partner, a friend who can rely on each other, but we don't have the feeling and friendship between normal couples.

Later, one day, I heard from a merchant in the county who went to Zhongjing in Liaoguo to buy furs that Han Sanniang was married, and I was very sad.

But what makes me even sadder is that Han Sanniang married a man who didn't like her. That person was a Khitan nobleman, and in order to get the support of Lord Han in the court of the Liao State, he asked Lord Han to marry and ask Han Sanniang to marry into his family as his concubine.

Lord Han naturally didn't dare to offend this Khitan nobleman and refused this family business, and because he wanted to marry his ugly daughter, he would not be ridiculed by many people outside for Sanniang, so he agreed to this family business.

As a woman, Sanniang has no choice at all, she can only obey her father's orders, but she is not happy after she gets married, and the Khitan nobleman only uses her as a tool, and the whole marriage is an exchange of political interests.

After she got married, she was just kept at home as a caged bird by others for three meals a day, and he didn't even bother to look at Sanniang, let alone a husband and wife.

After I heard about Sanniang, the feeling of heartache was really uncomfortable, how could I endure a life like my savior, my favorite woman in this world?

In the eyes of outsiders, he is a noble concubine and lives a life of fine clothes and food, but in fact, no matter how well he eats and dresses, what is the use?

Everyone just treats her as an ornament, who knows how lonely and helpless she is in her heart? What kind of mental torture did she endure every day and night? ”