Chapter 414: Confusion (6)

Depression Spring: Confusion (Varu Alan)

(6) Waiver

17 May 2009

It's sunny and sunny today, but my mood is cloudy and foggy.

My person is like a lost soul, not angry, my heart hurts so much, I know that I can't be with him anymore.

I thought he had really given up on those ties, but now that I know it's not, my heart hurts even more. It hurts so much that I don't know it hurts.

Maybe my heart just died.

Goodbye, dear, you will be able to find someone better than me, and I hope she will be even better to you in the future.

I cried......

I'd rather believe that you're to blame than that you're ruthless; you have given me thousands of loves, but do you forget when you give them?

Although I have loved you to the end, I still don't understand your heart, I'm not afraid of being sad, I'm only afraid of not having you, and I'm only blaming me for loving you too much!

Whenever I look into your eyes and look for your affection, there is always only a flickering expression;

Whenever I look into your eyes and expect your pity, is it just a dream?

Some songs require experience to understand, and some words need experience to speak.

I love you and forget to wake up, I am willing to close my eyes and let this life last forever, you are my next life

Love is a desperate situation, happy people do not travel far, cut off the spring to autumn to pursue hard, and would rather drift with you

Don't let your eyes see the sadness of the world again, throw yourself into the wind and rain and depend on each other, and kiss your heart with my pain

Looking at your eyes, there are too many tears, distressed by the hardships of your love every step, and the dream of suffering is very sincere

Feel sorry for the hardships of your love every step of the way?

Yesterday, another woman committed suicide by jumping off the building, and her heart was touched.

In the past two months, my heart has been hazy, and I don't know how many times I have wandered in my mind.

Reality weighs me hardly the courage to face the mess of my life.

Fortunately, I still came over, I have wasted 14 years of time for an unworthy person, do I still want to hurt myself for him, hurt the person who loves me?

The day before yesterday, he injured me again, and my aunt said, "Go to the Women's Federation to sue him, do you want to wait for the day when he misses and kills you?"

But I can't get out of the house at all, what do I say others will believe me?

They all said that I was delusional, and the girls who came to my door were my imagination, and my man was not cheating, and he was obedient to me......

I know this is retribution, because I said such cruel things to my mother,

My mother was nagging because my father was drinking, and my father was so angry that he threw a bench and hit me right on the head. I wasn't going to go head-on to the bench, I thought I could push my mother away, but ...... Maybe my mother is too fat, maybe I'm too thin......

I swear I will never nag in the future.

But I still married a drunkard who was good at disguise, and on the fifth day of my abortion, he got drunk and raped me.

Afterwards he said he didn't remember at all.

Mom said: Men are like this, drinking or not. For the sake of the child, bear with me.

I thought that my mother suffered that kind of suffering because she married a barbaric minority, so I found a Han man, a Han who didn't seem to smoke or drink, but it turned out that it was still like this, men are barbaric!