Chapter 415: Confusion (7)

Depression Spring: Confusion (Varu Alan)

(7) Swallow your anger

I thought he was just drinking and not human, but in fact, the day before yesterday he unplugged the phone line and called in front of the child.

Because it was my first night out to meet my classmates. Yunzi said that Wang Pu just came from Shenzhen, who else, the three of us will gather near your house with you, right?

I said yes. When I got home before 10 o'clock, he asked me who I called for 19 minutes one day, and what did he say?

When I said that I didn't remember what I said about last month, he would punch and kick his head and face, and then wield a kitchen knife, so I could only curl up and kneel as usual, and when he was done venting, he climbed into bed without saying a word.

When I was a child, I knew that I wouldn't see my mother as soon as I spoke;

married, and I knew that I would die if I provoked him by speaking out.

I don't want to die, people say: the body is skinned, and the parents should not be cherished for anyone.

Life is too precious, how difficult it is for people to live peacefully and healthily for a lifetime, don't hurt yourself.

But why did he hurt me? His women, Zhao Wen, Lian Lian, and some who only said nicknames, even if they took his money to other men, he was reluctant to move a finger, he said, "Because they are not my wives." ”

Some injuries are irreversible and cannot be remedied no matter what is done.

Think about the people who lost their lives in the earthquake, those who lost their able-bodied bodies, we are really lucky, so we should cherish what we have.

When I can go out normally, who will believe what I say, do you really have to crawl somewhere in pain and take off your clothes and pants to show others the wounds?

I remember the last time I discussed suicide, but I still haven't thought much about it.

Can't people choose to be born? I have always felt that people have the right to commit suicide, and there should be no accusations from others.

If the pain of living is beyond a person's bearing, then why can't he choose to die?

But people are inherently independent, and maybe this person is not willing to be born in the first place, so isn't it irresponsible for parents to choose to bring their child into this world regardless of his feelings?

The child should not be the property of the parents, he should be able to decide his own life, including life and death. Why is suicide a cowardly expression? Even not afraid of death requires a lot of courage!

In fact, life and death are just a thought, sometimes I can't think about taking that step, I also hope that I can live tenaciously, but one day I take the initiative to choose to die, I hope that my relatives and friends who have never believed my words will not accuse me of cowardice.

I hope you will do your best to make your life better, not to hurt the people around you, and to care more about the people around you, maybe it is just an ordinary sentence, but you can kill people and save people.

Thank you for a midnight call, although I couldn't hear what was said, but it gave me the courage to live and endure it again. Bear with it one more time, maybe the child will grow up.

Thank you Liancai, only you will know at this time.

Bear with it one more time, maybe the child will grow up...... Maybe my mom thought the same way, right? (2009.05.20)